3.5g? Golden Teacher

(Just for background, my parents used to fight a lot. Physically, all of it. I have anxiety, and depression and have some trauma from all of the fights they have had.) I took around 2 grams at first, and i ate them, I went to the park with my friends and a couple people that were friends of them. Around 5:50 was when they first started to kick in, i sat in the grass as it looked like it had lettering in it, and lines. I laid back and looked up to the trees above and it felt like i could feel the earth breathing. As I looked at the leaves i started to kinda get paranoid, so i stopped and looked at the sky instead. It felt like the clouds looked like something from halo, or in general a game that has insane views. As i started to get deeper around 6:15 i felt a huge wave of body crushing anxiety, so i felt like i should leave so i started to say bye but when i got up it slowly went away, so i decided to stay. Everyone was getting up and going to the table, but i stayed where i was and one guy brought me to the park, and i picked up the sand and it felt so nice to let the sand fall through my fingers. Around 6:50-7:00 we all started to leave, i went home and went straight to my room. I don’t remember anything after this point, around 8:41 is when my mom got food, so i went down stairs. From what i was told, i was spilling food and my mom yelled a little and i blacked out, my mom said i grabbed a knife and went at her and punched her, my brother and his girlfriend came down stairs, i saw her and started charging at her, and i hit her. The next thing i remember i think was my brother trying to get me on the ground, and he said “dude im gonna knock you out,” and i blacked out, all i remember from this point was me getting drove to the hospital. Please if you know what these blacking out moments are tell me, thank you.