Yesterday was the first real warm day at UMass, and I decided to munch some shrooms.
Yesterday was the first real warm day at UMass, and I decided to munch some shrooms. I was at the campus center as they started to have an effect- I suddenly felt very heavy and like I needed to lie down. So I went down to the campus pond and laid down right under a tree. I started to see and sense things from the trees point of view- I became part of the root system of the tree... I felt like I was underground. I felt really sad, because the tree seemed a lot happier than us, but we chop so many down, it just seemed criminal. I looked up at the branches, and they became infinitely complex, The smallest twig was so intricate! And then when I looked up at all the branches it seemed like a fractal... anyway, I got the feeling that this feeling pf comuning with a tree was criminal and that someone was going to come and arrest me. So I decided to take a walk. Big mistake. I went down to the campus concourse, which is this giant concrete space - It kind of looks like the future as visualized by a 1950s sci-fi writer. As I was walking the colors of the world kept changing and I felt like I was in a surrealist cartoon. The color is what made me feel that way... I felt unsafe so I decided to go to my room, as I was walking I met up with some friends, and they were like cartoon characters... one is fat and the other skinny and the other skinny and I believe the shrooms accentuated this. They said I looked "maniacally happy" and asked if I wanted to go get something to eat. I said no, and went to my room, and put on the Pixies. Another big mistake. All around me neon patters were spiraling around and changing shapes... I looked at my arm and it was like wax, and totally melting... but it didn't really bother me. I kept feeling like the old me was frozen and the new me was hatching out of it. Frank Black and Kim Deal sounded like they were outside my window and it was all horribly distorted... it kept fading in and out. I changed music several times and decided I should leave ther room... I left and was crossing a parking lot, where I saw a black creature, like a skunk or a possum, and it ran towards me, but I don't know if it was real or not... I went back to the tree and came down there, eventually having the strength to lift my head up and watch the seagulls etc... this was my first time with mushrooms and I was not prepared for the intensity of it. I'm not sure if I'll do it again.