Psychotic Breakdown on 4g of Penis Envy.

When I was 15, I took around 4 grams of a very potent batch of penis envy at a park. At this point I had started tripping when I was 14 where I fell into a heavy addiction with shrooms/acid. I was tripping 1-4 times a week for about 8 months, even in school (not recommended lol). When I decided to trip this day I was at a park with my friend, and she took one gram, while I took the other 4. The come up was pretty ass because I always struggle during the come up. But once they fully hit I was fine, we were sitting on the grass just talking, it was around 7:00pm when they hit. Around 7:30 my friend calls me and asks for any parties going on that day, and I said some stupid gay joke, and I didn't hear a response, so I immediately thought that my friend who called me thought I was being weird, and that they really hated me  and they didnt want to be friends anymore (turns out she didn't hear me), I hang up the phone, and just start panicking really bad. I start telling my friend that I was god, and I could do whatever I wanted. I remember saying to my friend that I was tripping with that I could just kill myself and it would be ok because I was god and I'd be fine. Millions of paranoid/intrusive thoughts are now running through my head, and I convince myself that I couldn't feel my tongue so that meant I was probably about to have a heart attack. I then get up, start running around screaming that I needed help and I was gonna die. I was begging my friend to please call the cops but she tried to calm me down. I then run towards the front of the grass where there was a little bike lane, and I just curl up into a ball where I become completely incoherent. I remember repeating a voice line from Mortal Kombat, and then I start seeing memories of my life, mainly all of my friends/family members faces, but I didn't realize it was my life. It felt so familiar but so distant. I then go completely mute, just staring at the trees, and all the people passing by looking at me as they walked by. In my head I heard a voice tell me, "well that was the life of [my name], the boy who went psychotic," and that made me think I was dying at that point, so as I'm laying in the grass, I close my eyes and just convince myself that I'm dead. I then feel my friend crawl on top to try to comfort me, and I thought she was god, and then I just completely ego deathed, all of my psyhotic thoughts went away, and I just felt reborn. It was definitely the most traumatizing thing that had ever happened to me, I literally faced insanity in the eyes and survived. I'm also kind of glad I experienced it at the same time because I learned to not abuse mushrooms that day.
Im really bad at telling stories so sorry if it sounds ed, and this is my first time writing any kind of forum post like this.