feevers said:

Another ketamine day today, no herb this time though.  20-30mg bumps every 15min for a few hours

I was like this all day:   

I'd go into one realm of reality, then another, then another

Each realm was like being sucked back into a moment from my past. It felt like I was there. So many feelings of being a kid again. Free, excited, hopeful, energized... crisp

Everything was different. So clear and open, it felt infinite, timeless. The rules were all different there, you didn't have to give a fuck.

I was still here kind of, but I was there too

Twisted euphoric calm and hopelessly invigorating insanity

I'm losing it

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does is make me feel numb and dull and blank...I can't feel, I can't move, I can't think...Nothing trickling through my mind, nothing novel or interesting happening...just a blank mind and feeling the epitome of numb inside and out...No feelings, no emotions....Nothing.

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tyrannicalrex said:

I think it's that era's men and the way they were brought up in the world at the time. "A man's a man", and all that shit. I blame the parents/dad.

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feevers said:

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does is make me feel numb and dull and blank...I can't feel, I can't move, I can't think...Nothing trickling through my mind, nothing novel or interesting happening...just a blank mind and feeling the epitome of numb inside and out...No feelings, no emotions....Nothing.

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That's pretty much my exact description of my first couple nights with it. The first time I did it I went to the living room and told my wife "it stole my emotions, I'm just numb and weird." 

But then a funny thing started to happen. Every line I do, the experience that follows is a different thing. It's almost like each line is a seperate drug altogether. I just sniff it then 5 minutes later melt into whatever is about to happen. Sometimes blissful euphoria, sometimes the ugliest dysphoria imaginable. Usually there's always a shadow of an empty emotionless void in the background, but it's easy to navigate away from. With the THC mixed in yesterday, was walking the paranoid psychosis tight rope

It's like pandoras box, it's been getting weirder each time.

I don't even like it that much, it's just so damn weird and interesting that it's hard to put down when I'm on a run with it

Dipping into it a little more tonight, then packing it away for another few months

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SARAtonin said:

I am very disappointed in the state of Virginia right now.

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Whats going on in Virgin-ya?

Just got some BK lunch and gorceries (not in that order thou). Warm day today in Oregon. Im sweatin a bit. I forgot about sweatin.

Got my Motherboard yesturday. Got some hardware for mounting it at my local PC repair shop. Cool far out dude. Gonna be building my gaming PC this weekend

LogicaL Chaos said:

.... Warm day today in Oregon. Im sweatin a bit. I forgot about sweatin.

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Same down here in nor-cal...I was out in the backyard earlier today taking a solar toke off the bong and it was so damn warm outside, I was starting to sweat just sitting around outside.

It was like that a couple weeks ago too...It has been really warm all through out February....and dry, we haven't got any rain in my area since before the winter solstice. It was dry here all Jan and Feb.

This winter never really happened around here ...There's already been a handful of wild fires down here just last month...And in areas that are normally under several feet of snow or covered with wet lush grass. There's already been a few fires up in the Sierra this year . Fires are going to be wild this summer.




-OM

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