I have a really close best friend that I feel kinda like that about too.
When we were younger, I asked her about it, and we decided it was best to not date...it would have fucked up our relationship.
Fast forward a few years to our junior year of high school. I had gone through a rough break up, and me and her did EVERYTHING together. She'd chill at my house for weeks upon weeks. We did literally everything together, except sleep in the same bed and shower together.
I remembered what she said about not wanting to date, because we were friends. I met a girl at some dance thing I went to when I was fucked up out of my mind on DXM. I started dating that girl, and my best friend got really really distant for a little bit. She absoloutely hated my new girlfriend, and I couldn't fathom as to why. She kept hinting that maybe she wanted to date me...it was that time in my life where I was full of stupid emotions and bullshit like that, and she left a note laying around that said:
What will become of my dear friend? Where will his actions lead us then? Although I'd like to join the crowd in their enthusiastic cloud. Try as I may it doesn't last, and will we ever end up together? No, I think not, it's never to become for I am not the one
(some fucking stupid Nightmare Before Christmas shit, she loves that movie, I hate it.). I was really confused when I saw that...I wanted her really bad, because we click together so well...but I really liked this new girl and didn't wanna hurt her either.
So, fast forward again, she has a boyfriend, I have a girlfriend. We still hang out all the time, but I'm never really sure. She drops really tiny signs all the time that she wishes we got together. I'm not sure if she really feels that way, or if its me just clutching at whatever I can.
tl;dr- I have no idea what you should do. I'm happy with my girlfriend, she appears to be happy with her boyfriend...but if I could go back in time, odds are that I'd try to be with her instead.
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