Quote: I always used to want to go to parties because I had this stupid ego where, like most people did/do, I wanted to look/feel cool and appear to be popular and what not. Man, do I feel like a dumb mother fucker or what? I've grown up (if you consider 18 to be "grown up") and learned to appreciate the things in life that really matter. I fucking hate going to parties now. They feel all fabricated and fake just like society, it's hard for me to fit in. And it's weird, I sort of have this third eye thing going on where I can just see through all the bullshit and see the bad/evil in people. Most everyone that goes to those things are fake and egotistical. It's hard for me to be social at parties because, especially when I have beer/drugs in my system, I have a habit where I just sit on the sidelines and analyze everyone there and I see through the masks and I see the cruel intentions in them and how phony they are. Most of them are just a bunch of fake mother fuckers and it disgusts me.