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Invisibleshroomzey
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Addicted To Sleep And Dreaming?
      09/19/08 09:52 AM

I think I've come to a point in my life where I've become a little infatuated with escaping reality.  So much to the point where it is starting to interfere with my real life.  I mean, when I'm dreaming and sleeping... they hold priority over real life events and importance.

A couple months ago I quit a job that at one point had me going down a career path I had prepared several years four, but with experience discovered it was not what I wanted anymore.  So, after quitting I found I would like to work my ass off this whole year and then coming this next summer would like to travel to Alaska for a month or so to visit some family, and then to either Hawaii or Australia/New Zealand to live for a year.

Well, since I quit my last job I've yet to be able to get a call back for an interview (Until yesterday) after applying to over 20+ jobs that I would be suited for.  And I've also fallen into a stupor with such said depression, a lack of money, and an abundance of time...

For example, wednesday night I could not sleep until 10 AM in the morning(9pm to 3-4 am seem to be my most productive time of the day though), caught 2 hours of sleep, then at 2 PM I wanted to fall asleep for a couple hours so that I could wake and go to a coffee shop with my girlfriend around 6 pm.  However, come 4:15 when my alarm went off, I shut if off to go back to sleep, and again an hour later, and again an hour later.  Totally blowing off my girlfriend, and her friends that were waiting for me.

Most morning's, I'll set myself to get up so I can take care of some sort of appointment I've set for myself, or the time restraints I've been trying to put on myself, and I'll most always 90% blow through them and instead sleep on.

See what is difficult for me is that the state of mind that I find myself in while waking is hard do anything not concerning sleep.  My dreams are very intense, so intense that when I'm forcefully awakened by someone (not usually something, I'll find a way to turn it off and go right back to sleep without even thinking about it) for 20-30 minutes I'll be out of it.  I'll still feel like I'm in the dream, and I can't think, I then become mixed on what is real and what is not.  More times than I can count, my girlfriend will wake to go to work, wake me up, tell me things, or say nothing at all, and I will think things are happening that are not.  I'll imagine her saying something, I'll open my eyes and she is there doing something, and then I'll close my eyes and imagine the same thing, with the same intensity but... it FEELS so much better.  Almost to the point of a slight pseudo body high.  After after sleeping 6 or 7 hours with her, I'll continue to sleep 7-9 more hours when I SHOULD be getting up with her.  As soon as she leaves, I can't help myself.

My dreams, actually give me a huge sense of reward, and a sense of living.  I'll be approached with issues, or problems, or just fantasies in my dreams that feel so much more promising and important than reality, but only while I'm in them.  See, I can't recall any of my dreams, except for the feeling that they give me.  But I KNOW that they're very intense and real.  And I'll only barely grasp them when being aroused mid sleep.

Again what is difficult now is that, in my waking state I can't control myself, all I want to do is stay in that dream, stay asleep, it feels so much more real and important at that time.  But once my body can't forcefully stay asleep anymore and I actually wake up (which can take 45 min to an hour before I'm functunal)
I don't remember a thing that happened.

It is quite normal now for me to sleep 16-18 hour days.  And as much as I try to set alarms for myself, and have people wake me.  While still in that waking state I can't control or make myself stay awake.  Someone will wake me, and 30 minutes later I'll find a way to ly back down.  If an important alarm goes off I'll turn it off completely and go right back into the blissful dream I'm experiencing. 

Has anyone else had this problem?

Some thing's to note, that I do find very interesting is that I have experienced DMT 10+ times (not within 3 weeks) about 5-6 weeks ago.  And since my first breakthrough, my dreams became much more intense and have remained so.  Has anyone else had this phenomena after first experiencing DMT?

And while mentioning DMT, it seems to have shattered my world.  Much like shrooms did on my first time.  It has really opened my eyes and destroyed my ego.  Which I don't feel is a bad thing, but now my motivation for normal life in society has been lessened.  With what I know now, and feel.  The normal rat race of life and work habits seem pointless and unimportant except to feed my belly and put a roof over my head...  I used to be a very monetarily driven person.  Which in itself hurt a lot of my relationships, and now I'm the complete opposite... personally more happy and fulfilled, but faced with this current dream/motivation block.

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Edited by shroomzey (09/19/08 10:06 AM)

Post Extras Print Post Remind Me! Notify Moderator
. * * Re: Addicted To Sleep And Dreaming? deCypher   09/19/08 10:12 AM
. * * Re: Addicted To Sleep And Dreaming? wedaft   09/19/08 11:23 AM
. * * Re: Addicted To Sleep And Dreaming? shroomzey   09/19/08 11:41 AM
. * * Re: Addicted To Sleep And Dreaming? deCypher   09/19/08 01:10 PM
. * * Re: Addicted To Sleep And Dreaming? theLola   01/31/10 01:32 AM
. * * Re: Addicted To Sleep And Dreaming? fazdazzle   01/31/10 10:52 AM
. * * Re: Addicted To Sleep And Dreaming? theLola   01/31/10 10:39 PM
. * * Re: Addicted To Sleep And Dreaming? skatealex2   02/01/10 01:51 PM
. * * Re: Addicted To Sleep And Dreaming? Pandorok   02/01/10 05:28 PM
. * * Re: Addicted To Sleep And Dreaming? ozsultan   02/02/10 06:30 AM
. * * Re: Addicted To Sleep And Dreaming? shroomzey   02/04/10 11:20 AM
. * * Re: Addicted To Sleep And Dreaming? Society   02/04/10 04:51 PM
. * * Re: Addicted To Sleep And Dreaming? fazdazzle   02/04/10 10:04 PM
. * * Re: Addicted To Sleep And Dreaming? MisterMuscaria   02/05/10 03:09 AM
. * * Re: Addicted To Sleep And Dreaming? Railrider   02/05/10 11:46 AM
. * * Re: Addicted To Sleep And Dreaming? shroomzey   02/20/10 11:52 PM
. * * Re: Addicted To Sleep And Dreaming? Cloud9   02/22/10 08:34 AM
. * * Re: Addicted To Sleep And Dreaming? SMOCKFEVER   07/26/11 03:21 PM


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