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You said plenty brother (or sister). I couldn't have said it better myself, and indeed I couldn't say it at all now. I once understood what you said too, and held onto it for a good long time, but as time goes by, I've forgotten that "truth ?" I think you would be good at writing the novel, as you have done such a good job at articulating it here. I'm sure many of us thought we could write a novel as the cosmic download was in progress, and even though I'm aware of thoughts sounding really good while you are high, and not so much after, I think that if you could give an accurate translation of the information, it would not be just addled jumbled nonsense. If you are lucky enough to even remember the full experience, then it's still hard to hold onto it after a few months or so. That's my reason for commenting. Do you think that because you were already on the path of understanding your mind, and spiritual/meditation practices, that you were able to hold onto the lesson so well, or is it just that you tripped recently? I remember that I once gave a very detailed trip report on here, and then two days later, or it might have been the next day, I gave the exact same trip report, but for two different trips I had no idea I had done that, and only found out because I later came across my first trip report. It freaked me out to see I had written the same thing, but I was describing two different trips, and after that I was able to remember my trips, and realize that I was experiencing a tremendous amount of things while tripping that I had no recollection of after. Now, after realizing that, I can remember much more after the drug wears off. For all I know, I still might be experiencing many things while tripping that I don't even know I am. The strangest thing I think, is that you would think that I would remember writing the trip report the day before, because I was not tripping when I wrote it, but I had totally forgotten, and then wrote an identical report the next day, describing a totally different time tripping, and didn't even catch on until a few days later. I had no idea I had done it, and I was sober both times. It's very strange that I had the exact same trip, once on Saturday, and again on Sunday, but it's even stranger that I didn't know I had, even though I wrote a trip report for both times. That realization really changed my trip game, and to this day, I still go to the same place in the beginning of my trips, and meet the same entities and I remember them, and they remember me, and we talk about things relating to the times before when I had met with them. I even missed them for a while, and still do a lot, but I have forgotten much of what I learned. Looks like you still remember. I'm impressed. P.s time is still not the same for me as it used to be. I used to be able to get so much done in a day just a year ago, but now I'm still going at the same pace, but the time just runs past me and the day is over. For some reason It doesn't seem to effect my reality because I still can pay rent, and get everything done that needs to get done, and no one is telling me to hurry up or that I'm not getting enough done in the day, but it's like, by the time I get my shoes on in the morning, it's already lunch time. It's like the world's laws have changed but I'm the same. You would think that people would notice that I'm coming into work and hour later and getting half as much done, but no one seems to notice or has ever said anything to me other than I'm doing a great job. It's like I'm the only one who noticed. Also, I never know what day of the week it is, and I'll get up and wake everyone up for school or work and it's Saturday, or I'll think it's Friday and it's only Tuesday. That happens all the time, and never did before mushrooms. I think I may have lost a day while tripping, or repeated a day, and that explains the identical trip, and would also put me a day behind the original timeline. But who the fuck knows? It hasn't seemed to affect my life or others, so I guess it's cool. Obviously, I'm of a right mind, and know those things are impossible, but I'm just saying what I've observed. Regardless of the fact that I know I can't believe any of it is true. It doesn't really make any difference in my life though, and I don't really think about it, or do anything about it, so everything is as it should be, but I would say it seems a little strange. I haven't noticed any other strange things like that, but I really have had some strange new developments when it comes to time. I know that when I was a kid, an hour long meeting, or something like that, would feel like three hours, and also as we get older, time seems to speed up. That stuff is normal for everyone, but I definitely don't think it's normal for the day to go by so fast as it started to after I did mushrooms. I kinda think of it like how a turtle can't see an eagle fly past because it's brain doesn't process things that fast, but a hawk will see everything in slow motion. Maybe the timing in my brain got thrown off. But instead of processing stuff slow like a turtle, I actually process it much faster now (than before) and have actually excelled in my job and am much more looked at as the go to guy when it's time to figure something out. It always blows my mind when the coustomer, the contractor, and my boss, turn and look at me to lay out the job and explain how it's all going to be designed. It was never like that before I did mushrooms, although I have always been able to picture the end result in my mind very quickly. I keep telling them I'm just the plumber, but when I walk into an empty bathroom in a million dollar house and the coustomer only has a vision of what they want, but no one knows how to do it, so I get out the old tape measure, and start laying it out and going over a million options and what we have to do to make it work. But they all seem really appreciative, and I only started to be able to do that after I did mushrooms. Before that, I just did the water lines for five years, and didn't know anything else. Less than a year later and I can do anything, and think circles around everyone. Of course I always figured I could, but the mushrooms gave me the confidence to do it, and everyone just stepped out of my way. I wondered my whole life why I was never allowed to be in charge, and couldn't understand what was so special about the leader, that everyone looked to him. I think mushrooms just made me realize that people are full of shit, and none of them know anything, and that you just have to be a dick and take the lead and egnor their protests because they just act like they know everything but don't really know any more than you. People will actually like you better if you are like that believe it or not. I think it's because they trust you more when you are assertive rather than submissive and afraid of being confrontational. I don't know. All I know is that I tried really hard to be friendly and do what I thought would make people happy and I couldn't get anyone to include me, and now that I'm a dick, and do what I think is best, I can't get people to leave me the fuck alon, and everyone wants to be my buddy. Go figure. But you know that that is a very common example of how mushrooms work. They make you fearless, and they help you cut through the bullshit and get to what is important in life and what are the true priorities. They take you out of the mud that you have been taught to wallow in, and indeed have convinced yourself is your proper place in life, sloshing around in all the bullshit you have been told to believe about yourself, and playing the games others have taught you to play in order to scrape off a little from each other but never really stand on your own. But be warned, that also comes with a whole other set of dangers. You might be better off not knowing yourself, and just staying in the world you created to blind yourself from the truth, and continue to fulfill your role in someone else's games that they pay you so well to be a subordinate part of. Edited by Sub-Easy (12/22/22 02:46 PM)
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