SET: The ground floor apartment where my wife and I reside at ~ 4pm Monday
MINDSET: I had finished sending letters to refine quotes for an international move, after spending the morning at a Consulate flipping through instagram music videos by Ibeyi - skipped daily sitting meditation due to essential excursions.
BREWING TEA: I wanted to unwind after all the officialdom, but I was not feeling up to chewing dry shrooms (more of a chocolate Bubka mood - and I did eat some of that just before) so I made a peppermint tea and dropped in 2 grams of Albino Penis Envy that I had measured a week before. After 10 minutes, I stirred it with a metal implement on my desk and sqished the stalks and one tiny cap that were floating around in the cup. 5 minutes later I drank the tea which tasted great, and I added more hot water in case more needed to be extracted later.
Activities: T+30 mins: finding it difficult to focus on any websites or my book and I went to Instagram which is a silly place that tries to sell me shirts (i did buy 2) and stupid tools and I noticed a post at the top of the screen by my son in law. When I clicked into the post I read that he was advocating a kind of a violent protest and it freaked me out. I will not get into the details but I sent him a message that it was not worth it to break the law, and that I still loved him.
T+60 mins: unable to sit I went to the living room and lay down on the couch and closed my eyes. My mental contents were a sifting of moralized thinking about violence, and body signals that were seething with mushroom power and sustained resonance, and random colored visuals. I was slightly nauseous, but had much less gut sensation than from chewing dry shrooms. there was no distinction between visuals and body feeling and breath and ideation, the closest I can describe this as is the feeling of rolling two steel balls in one hand with some grinding and some smoothness and indeterminate progress as a synesthesia, while lying on the green vinyl sofa.
T+2 hours: My wife walks by and asks what's going on, "are you stoned", "yes" I answered, "is it ok? don't you want to watch our show?" - we were binging on a mystery series, I said yes, I did want to, and moved to the bedroom and set up my computer to watch. Adjusted the pillows and we began.
I could see the screen quite well but could not read the subtitles or hear the dialog (voices overlapped and contorted), and all the colors were shifted out of the objects, and delayed so that it was like watching an action behind layers of jello that were residual, with rays of colored light splashing out in all directions, and half closed eyes making it weirder as eyelashes produce some strangeness too.
T+3 hours: I was still resonating with the horror of violence potentially in the family (which was an exaggerated misinterpretation) and I really was disgusted with the onscreen violence and murders. The protagonists injuries were happening to me - so I watched 90 minutes through half closed eyes part time, and fully closed eyes as well, and experienced a terrific light show and still the feeling of rolling two steel balls in one hand accompanied the experience. I did not miss anything in the sequence and was able to help my wife puzzle through what was happening and that was a bit strange.
T+4 hours: I could now watch the show with open eyes, yes it was a different episode but also the shroom tea effects were diminishing, but Persian carpet style visuals still covered everything too.
T+5 hours: A very relaxed state ensued, and we soon stopped watching the shows. I avoided the internet, but checked if I had any messages on my phone, and resumed reading my book for the gradual come down. I drank the left over tea but it was inactive which was fine, I had had enough for one day, and it confirmed that the method was sufficient to extract most of the actives with stunning results.
I read my novel on screen in bed after that until 1:30pm.
SUMMARY: Peppermint APE tea is great! Violence sucks. Have a great Christmas and New Year!! I love my green vinyl couch.
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