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ZombiWurm
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A leap of faith
#26345563 - 11/25/19 08:39 PM (4 years, 2 months ago) |
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How do you feel when your getting ready to take what is to you a large dose? For me every dose is like a leap of faith and once I jump the ride is easy.
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330ci
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preparation is overrated. my highest doses were always taken on a whim and turned out whimsical
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nooneman


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Re: A leap of faith [Re: ZombiWurm] 2
#26345575 - 11/25/19 08:47 PM (4 years, 2 months ago) |
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There is always a moment when I am sitting there before hand, and the drug is in front of me ready to go, and I have to decide if I really want to do it or not. And if it's a large dose, that is always an agonizing experience. There's fear, of course, but it's more focused on something else. It's like trying to decide a really hard decision, and there's excitement, and nervousness, and fear, but also commitment, but you have doubts and you second guess. Do you really want to be tripping that day? You could easily just not trip that day instead, etc. etc.
All of that happens for me in the span of like 5-10 minutes. Almost always if I have gotten that far into the process, I go ahead anyway. If I felt like it wasn't right then I would have bailed long before then. By the time I'm staring it down, it's more like "oh my god, can I really do this?" It's like strapping yourself into a roller coaster, and you know what you're getting into, and it's right there infront of you: the peak in physical form.
God that's like a spiritual experience that moment before you take it when you still have to decide if you're really going to do it.
Only with high doses though, lower doses are much easier. You're just like "yeah sure let's do this" and then it's over.
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ZombiWurm
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Re: A leap of faith [Re: nooneman] 1
#26345614 - 11/25/19 09:06 PM (4 years, 2 months ago) |
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Yeah, you have to trust yourself. My first time dosing was the hardest. I had no idea what I was in for even though I read every book I could get my hands on about the subject. I got a couple tabs from my older cousin when I was 13 and took them both with her and her husband. He fucked with my mind so hard that for a brief moment I thought he was the devil. I haven't had a bad trip since then except for once. I learned how resilient I was that night and every time I drop acid is like taking a leap of faith. I push my mind harder and harder just to see how far I can go.
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330ci
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what a dick, would be such a shitty first trip. So glad my fam loves and nurtures me while i'm gone.
sorry ran tried replying to OP mustve accidentally clicked your post
Edited by 330ci (11/25/19 10:28 PM)
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ZombiWurm
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Re: A leap of faith [Re: 330ci]
#26345792 - 11/25/19 10:57 PM (4 years, 2 months ago) |
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Man that was a pretty awful time lol. I fell in love with psychedelics though.
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330ci
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lol my first trip was terrifying, but it was just me in the back of my car vaping a few hundred mg of DMT thinking I knew what was about to happen when I was 18. it was exhilerating, but I was too afraid to dive back in until I had a proper trip guide who I trusted
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