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SleepyE
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Chronicles of a DMT head 1
#21287949 - 02/17/15 01:00 PM (9 years, 3 months ago) |
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"Enlightenment occurs when the usually automatized reflexivity of consciousness ceases, which is experienced as a letting-go and falling into the void and being wiped out of existence When consciousness stops trying to catch its own tail, I become nothing, and discover that I am everything."I finally feel like i have seen enough of hyperspace and wrote enough reports to have an accurate understanding of who i am and what my subconscious is. I feel like there is enough here for me to know and remember it does exist so i don't have to keep reminding myself by traveling again. hopefully these accounts can keep me centered in this reality. These trip reports really have helped me work through very difficult times in my life just by referring to what i do in an ego death situation. Here is a chronological collection of every trip i wrote about. Quote:
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Experiencing god and death Most intense and spiritually profound experience I have ever had on high dose shrooming
I'm one of those people that had fallen in love with the shroom experience ever since i first tried it. ever since then i have shroomed on doses ranging from 4-6 grams (always lemon tek'd because i like the intensity of trip it gives and i almost never trip when i don't use the tek) i have probably tripped over 15-20 times total and have had amazing good trips and a few really torturous bad trips, but I never regret those trips as I learn so much about my limitations and what problem are buried deep in my mind to deal with. After those harsh trips i always feel like a million bucks when they are over and i feel that since the experience didn't kill me it made me stronger mentally.
This night i decided to do 5 grams lemon tek'd, i was not sure about the potency of these shrooms since it was a new batch but it had been a long time so i was in the mood for a strong experience. I prep my shroom drink and boldly drink it in 1 gulp (im quite used to the unpleasant taste). After washing my mouth out i begin to play bioshock 2 (video game) but after 10 mins im feeling the magic kicking in. I then go upstairs and play piano for a few minutes and it sounds EXTREMLY amazing. After im feeling it come on even stronger to the point where the piano was getting to intense to play.
This is where stuff gets crazy.
i walk back into my brother's room (he isn't home) and im not tripping that hard at the moment, there are patterns in my CEV but nothing too amazing, so i begin to look at myself in the mirror and i close my eyes.
There was just blackness in my head but then all of the sudden out of no where, the HUGE pattern entity EXPLODES into my mind, it is most real vivid CEV i have ever had, the best i can describe what it looked like is that it took up all the space in my mind and it was some sort of 3D entity that was made up of extremely complex patterns that was made of geometric patterns, faces, souls and seemingly everything visual in the world, but the pattern did not just have visual components it was also made out every feeling in the world like joy, fear, happiness, horror, etc.
I instantly believed this entity was everything,

it was essentially god and then i was overcome with a feeling i have never felt in my life some sort of extreme spiritual euphoria, when i quickly open my eyes and i went from not having any OEV to EVERYTHING GOING CRAZY, i have never had OEV come on that quick and i thought it was due to the godly entity i encountered, suddenly my attention is drawn to other beings when my eyes were open, this time they seemed like aliens and there were three of them and for some reason i got the feeling that they were trying to warn me of grave danger and that the world was in trouble but i wasn't exactly sure what they were saying was going to happen i just know its going to be pretty bad. i was a little bit frightened by their warning but i hope that its not as bad as i think. I close my eyes and the god entity was still in full force so i decide to study it. the more i focused on it the more i felt i basically fused my consciousness inside this entity, and i became it. during this i snap out of it and notice that i was standing in one spot swaying violently.
I decide to go to bed to study and go further into the entity.
What was strange was that the deeper i went into the being the more i felt like i was dying and that to see this far into the entity you must be dead. i begin to get a bit of anxiety because i couldn't feel myself breathing anymore, wasn't sure if i needed to go to the washroom (thought i might have pissed myself), my bed sheets wouldnt stop moving around everywhere and when i try to open my eyes to see the real world all i see is the entity totally taken over my vision. all i saw was god space when my eyes were open and close. i didn't know where i was and i was convinced that i somehow forgot to breathe and sufficated and i was dead. I felt very sad because I didn't want to go and I felt that my time should not be up as I still had a lot of my life to live. I prayed to the entity to let me live and that i didn't want to be dead yet.
During this time the entity is giving me every feeling possible, one after another, happiness, fear, anixety etc. and it showed me how much suffering there is in the world and i felt all that suffering intensly. I was wondering why bad thing in the world like suffering and torture have to exist and the only thing i could do is focus all my mind energy on the positive things and everything that makes the universe good. I noticed that i had extreme ego death and had soon abandoned every part of my personality and was left with just conciousness, buried deep inside this mysterious entity. I wasn't thinking anymore, i was just observing and this made me feel like i can rest in peace. In a unknown amount of time i begin to "get myself back" and i get the idea to fight for my life and that it is me who decides if im dead or not. Suddenly i can see my room again, i think in my mind that if i want to be alive, a good way to show that would be to feed myself something because dead people dont need to eat or drink and if i do i must be alive so quickly i jump for the first thing i can find on my desk which was a pretty old cup of water, i sipped on it anyways. I then feel amazing joy to be alive and to be human. When i went to the washroom to pee, i felt re-born like my soul was put into my body for the very first time.
This experience i feel has been the most profound experience of my life and i just love EVERYTHING.
p.s. - I also experienced myself being petted like a kitten by some other entity that i was not able to see but i felt it touching me and it was whispering in my ear, during this I also was hearing some sort of high frequency humming noise, it seemed like my brain was sending out some sort of satellite signal.
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SleepyE said: Hey everyone,
i wanna share my amazing first trip with mixing dmt with syrian rue :P
this was my second attempt in pharmahuasca because last time i tried i took around 3.8 grams of rue and didn't grind it into a powder, about 45 minutes later i took 200mg DMT in a capsule which only ended up causing a slight head change, no distinct visuals. in retrospect im a bit glad i went a little more modest on my second attempt because oh boy was this experience intense.
this time i took 3.7 rue which i powdered and drank it with water. this time i waited much longer to take the dmt. roughly 75 minutes and i then put 150mg of dmt in a small shot of lemon juice, and held it sublingually in my mouth for 5-6 minutes and then swallowed.
this time it worked amazingly!
about 20 mins later i felt the DMT presence slowly crawling. i was watching nice looking fractal patterns that were matrix-like and it took shape of walls and strange places with square tunnels and stuff.. normal things i see in low dose smoked dmt. i quickly went to my bed and turned off all lights and sound, i love trippin like this, especially intense trips like dmt. and the trip's intensity kicked up almost immediately, after five mins i was completely out of body in hyperspace, i had dozens of humanoid entities grabbing at me inside beautiful alien like hyperspace patterns and places. The most complex visuals i have ever had.
I was travelling through different hyperspace rooms quite beautiful and seemed visually impossible. I was chilling with strange loving humanoid entities and after i was looking down in this strange obe dimension and i could see my lovely "inner demon" as some sort of menacing troll crouching and it looked like it was in a vent leading too doom.
i decided i wanted to play with the troll/negative feelings that is part of psychedelic's wide range of experiences. im my mushrooms trips i usually try hard not to get sucked into negative feelings like horror, despair, and fear but it usually happens dispite that.
anyways the trip's visuals quickly took a dark turn and scary but i was happy and wanting for this to happen, this caused the negative feelings to be unable to attach on to me because i was loving the negativity as someone would admire a painting so i was quite disappointed that the negativity trip quickly dissolved so i couldnt experiment and explorer the darkness, to feed my curiosity. i dont see negativity as good or bad just part of life, i guess its a sick plessure of mine. in the darkness there were similar humanoid entities but they were agressive and attacking this was quite a cool experience, they were literally throwing punches, this was quite entertaining. As the darkness of the experience faded the trip turn extremely introspective, moreso then any other trip on other psychedelics. So many feelings and ideas crossed my mind. Like how im always trying to explore phenomenon because i thought it was like the only mystery in life, but then i thought about the fact that im even alive at all, like how did i get here and become conscious. that alone is a complete mystery/phenomenon, and wonder! I must be lucky that im part of such a family as existence.. Then i thought about how it must be horrible to not exist. Im open to my life changing but im sure my existence is eternal. i feel i will always be part of nature and be a product of nature.. this makes me feel warm inside. I also was feeling intense feelings of love for my family and thought ablout how i need to treat my family with more love and support and be more forgiving(this has been a constant theme in my trips). I had INTENSE ego death, i saw my personality slipt into pieces and the visual representation of the pieces was lost in hyperspace and i was not myself anymore, i was consciousness/ feeling like im everything. basically god. this makes me think god may transcend all good and evil and is just above it.. the creator of something brilliant that adds so much options to existence.
The OEV were the most intense ive ever had because i was stuck in hyperspace eyes open and closed, like i would see my room but it is like decorated in hyperspace machines with incredible colour moving all around while seeing humanoid entities running around in my room. sometimes i felt them sit on my bed.. their company was amazing. i love seeing entities of my subconsious become alive like this. SOO cool.. The trip peaked three times, i kept thinking the trip was over but it always came back even stronger. It seemed like forever but the trip only lasted 4.5 hours.
The trip for some reason seem SOO much like mushrooms to the point where i sometimes forgot i was doing dmt and was actually on mushrooms. i guess all natural psychedelics will lead to the dmt experience it is just much easier to get that high on DMT. BOY WAS I HIGH.
THE. MOST. INTENSE. EXPERIENCE. OF. MY. LIFE.
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SleepyE said: Hey guys, i figured i should post my recent trip on Alpha-methyltryptamine since not very many shroomery heads have heard of this incredible research chemical.
After my experience of it, and looking back on erowid's AMT vault, the effects of the drug does not include "profound life changing spiritual experience" and should really include that now because AMT DEFINITElY can cause it, well it did for me and it was intense as fuck. i compare this drug to the effects of DMT when AMT peaking.
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This was my very first experience with Alpha-methyltryptamine and i didnt know what to expect. i have a few doses of various well known tryptamines and phenylethylamines that i obtained from a friend who was really into the Research chemical scene a while ago and is now more interested in natural psychedelics like dmt and psilocin for now. So he didnt want to hold onto his RC's and offered them to me to hold onto and take them off his hands since i love to experience all the various psychedelics natural or synthetic, tryptamine or phenylethylamine, to find what potential they hold as they are all beauties in my eyes.
And AMT potential absolutely shocked me to the core..
After reseaching what other people dosed i thought around 40-50mg taken with lemon juice under the tongue (sublingually) for 5-6mins would be ideal for my needs but after the experience my friend who supplied told me this dose was higher then i anticipated in the beginning and it turn out to be very powerful which is what i like most of the time when im well prepared. I dosing while hanging out with my friends because i was unaware of AMT's power and thought that it was going to be more recreational which it really was but really wasn't at the same time.
i thought it was going to just provide light visuals and perception changes that would aid a night out which it sorta did at first. after 2 hours of dosing i figured i didnt really take enough and was bummed because i didnt notice any real effect besides placbo. so i was smoking bowls and drinking little with my friends and by the time i left which was like 4 hours after i dosed. the drug FINALLY started taking effect.
My walk home was beautiful everything was alot brighter and colourful, the normal effect most psychedelics have but was even more beautiful because everything looked very detailed and different, ahh preception change, hah it is what i wanted. i felt very clear headed through-out the whole trip, almost sober state because while i was home i was talking and chilling with my brother watching Entourage thriving with the brightness change and perception change.. when i went upstairs i decided to take a shower because i was sweaty and greasy as fuck and something very interesting happened that totally changed my opinion of AMT from be a "meh" drug interms of spiritual content/visuals and turn out to be as deep and spirtual intense as DMT itself.. Anyways i was in the shower and my body started to look and feel really good, i dunno why i was moving around very weird and it felt like a showcasing of my body and i probably looked fucking insane to a sober person lol and was like feeling myself up haha. much pride to be human was felt, i felt beautiful. my visuals isnt that intense at all at this time, just brighter but my body felt and looked amazing. I randomly decide to close my eyes and somewhat meditate for a bit for shits and giggles i guess. And i close my eye and see nothing but the blank and bland brownish/black closed eye scene not even any patterns really its just really bright from the CFL lighting in the bathroom getting through my eyelids. and suddenly the blank senario started to get very dark so dark i thought the lights had gone out in the bathroom but i did not open my eyes.
A very serious and spiritual mindset stormed into my consciousness and for some fucked up reason i started speaking gibberish and some crazy ass language. This has happened to me before on intense psilohuasca and pharmahuasca peaks as some sort of language with no meaning but means alot at the time because the sounds and um words...? are a deep expression of my emotions and how i feel at the time.
But this gibberish was very different, it seemed to be or act like a spell or something because the blankness in my vision quickly exploded into intense crazy complex DMT style geometric patterns moving all matrix-like and the patterns got soo vivid and intense it started forming fucking entities which were humanoid-like and they started fucking getting more intense looking and started reaching out to me and at this point i freaked because i was caught extremely off guard because when psychedelic have spiritual content i like to prepare for it so i can get the most out of the experience and i felt unprepared. So i open my eyes..
2 minutes ago i had no visuals to speak of, when i opened my eyes, there was fucking three of everything moving everywhere in the room, i was seeing geometric patterns everywhere, tiles were interwheaving and it was about as intense as my previous pharmahuasca experience. i was fucking SHOCKED. i had no idea AMT had this kind of potential. it was weird i still had no ego death and no mind fuck perfectly sober in thought yet i had some of the most intense visuals eyes open and closed. the visuals quickly vanished as i went out of the meditative mindset and i start telling my friend of my unexpected experience. The most amazing thing about this drug is that it does not grip your mind and consciousness without your conscent because when you take mushrooms and dmt your gonna trip hard no matter what you do, But with AMT you need to use a type of focus or i guess most would call it "meditating" but not in any traditional way just something to focus your mind i guess, when you do that it explodes to dmt but you can fucking jump back into a less intense mindset at will, i thought that was amazing. This drug in a sensory deprivation-type environment or scenario would be INCREDIBLE. This is Now one of my favourite drugs and i hold it in HIGH respects.
my stamp of approval go on to this amazing Research Chemical/tryptamine. I guess simple tryptamines are always best.
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SleepyE said: Hey guys, i just had my first experience with 4-aco-dmt.. I haven't seen too many trip reports of mixing 4-aco-dmt with an MAOI on shroomery or even erowid so i figured i'd give the "super powered steroid experience" of 4-aco-dmt a "shot" with the aid of 330mg of harmaline.. The harmaline was from syrian rue that I extracted, the extract was a crystaline salt that was almost perfectly shaped cubes or disks. Under a black light these crystals have a heavy orange/yellow glow and when dissolved in water it would glow blue/green, i thought that was quite cool.
i much prefer harmaline extract opposed to straight seed because last time i mixed syrian rue seeds with mushrooms i had a horrificly painful tummy-ache through-out the whole trip, i remeber thinking i was dead from the pain LOL..
anyways back to the recent experience...
The Dose was 330mg of harmaline, and 35-40mg of 4-aco-dmt and im frequently hitting bowls through out the beginning of the experience.
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Time. - (9:50pm)- I proceed into drinking the blue glowing MAOI water, tastes salty and kinda fucked up at the same time.
i felt slightly mind-fucked from the MAOI, i guess it is technically a weak psychedelic.
Time. - (10:05pm)- I take roughly 5 mg of 4-aco-dmt and put it under my tongue, i was just testing it to make sure i was allergic by some rare-rare chance, all seemed clear so i was good to go.
Time. - (10:25pm)- i dissolved the 4-aco-dmt in water and then held the water sublingually under my tongue for like 5 minute and then swallowed it..
Time. - (10:55pm)- i was talking to a good friend on the computer who was very experienced personally with all the RC's i have in my possession uncluding 4-aco-dmt.. i was wondering why i wasnt feeling anything yet, well nothing psychedelic really, because im used to mushrooms and pharmahuasca to come-on very quickly but i guess my body was converting it into psilocin and the MAOI i took might have even slowed the process of it hitting quickly,
Time. - (11:05pm)- the experience starts to grip me and i am happy that i will get to trip. the comeon was identical to mushrooms in everyway to me, possibly a bit less bright but it even felt natural and non-synthetic.
im watching the simpsons at the time and they look extremely cartoonish and bright, moreso then usual and it was kinda funny because even though the episode was quite new, it looked like old school ghetto drawn Simpsons. CRAZY EUPHORIA by the way.
Time. - (11:35pm)- i become bored with the open eye visuals and proceed to my bed, turn off all lights and sound and let the out of body experience of mushroom-hyperspace take me. I was under the impression that 4-aco-dmt was like DMT in the Closed eye visual world, but not for me, it was the mushroom world, i dunno i can notice the slight signature differences mushrooms/4-aco-dmt vs DMT has.
DMT is much more dramatic visually i would say. but this experience was still very very intense. I was having auditory hallucinations of strange humming (this is quite common in my experiences). Soon enough i was not able to distinguish between my eyes being open and closed, but i was not paralyzed in psychedelia like pharmahausca, with pharmahausca i found it difficult to even move my body, i would feel no connection but with 4-aco-dmt i was still able to control my body easier.
When the peak started i had a vision of some sort of huge complex structure that i seem to always "pass" by when i do a heavy dose of mushrooms, it was cool that i saw the same place with 4-aco-dmt, the the strange landscape complex structure thing oddly enough gives me an intense feeling of being home like it is my main base or some shit.. i really felt very appreciative that i got to see my "base" and then almost instantly forgot what the place/structure looks like.. this always fucking happens, i really wanna draw it too..
i was having strange entities grabbing at me (this happens alot to me on mushrooms and pharmahuasca). i thought it was funny because i saw one of my subconscious entities flip me off, thats right, gave me the fucking finger.. lol i laughed it off, it reminded me of my last pharmahuasca experience where the entities were giving me "thumbs up" now it seems they are angered giving me the finger haha.
later i started to have intensely vivid recalls of recent dreams ive had, i usually can never remember my dreams because i smoke too much weed especially at night which causes me to have too deep of a sleep to dream but this trip basically gave me the "keys" to my subconscious information/world, i was able to re-live all my previous dreams and even past memories vividly.. I fucking love that power you get with psychedelics, its almost cheating..
Time. - (5:30am)- my trip is pretty much over and i fall to sleep..
all and all this was a very fun adventure into the depths of my mind and it leaves me wanting to have another pharmahuasca exploration very soon..
Peace out guys
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SleepyE said: Hey friends, last night i decided to have a pharmahuasca trip but i did not have my scale on me so i had to unfortunately and unsafely "eye" my rue and DMT dose..
(o shit)
In the end i obviously overcounted my dose extremely, i took probably around 4.5 grams of rue and like 250mg of dmt sublingual and swallowed the deems.. it turned out to be beyond heroic compared to any experience ive ever had, it was my most difficult craziest trip ever..
it took forever to come on and i was pissed because i thought i was being teased with another failed dose attempt. it took like hour and thirty minutes before i was somewhere intense(thats a long time compared to my other pharmahuasca experiences, but then it finally happened.. it quickly became some sort of mental and visual overload where i somehow went passed the visuals into what i guess is the void, the center of the experience.. where i could perceive the trpytamine universe all at once.. but was more interested in my state of mind at the time because i realized i can explore the visions whenever i want and because im not just the explorer im actually the creator..
i realized that instead of focusing on looking for and finding visuals i should focus more on how im the creator of it all and just create. it made me feel godlike, able to create brilliant alternate realities with a little bit of meditative thought. i think i had a true psychedelic induced near death experience, i thought i had it before.. but nothing ive experienced in my life matches the stress i felt when i had the idea in my mind that i took WAY to much pharmahuasca and i thought i must have took something i shouldnt have along with it that doesnt go well with maoi..
i was certain my heart was going to fail, i was certain i wasnt gonna make it out of this experience alive, so my body/mind went into a state of maximum stress/shock that i really think one only feels when they are about to die and know it...i could actually see my body in 3rd person, ive never been dissociated with psychedelics like that before... my whole life was flashing before my eyes... i was completely possessed by the chemicals.. it was the furthest i have ever been to the godhead and i dont think one can go further. such an amazing experience.. unbelievable.
and when the super intense stress/shock part happen, it all suddenly ended in complete bliss instantly, ive never went from such an extreme level of mental and physical stress to the completely other spectrum of serenity and bliss.. i think death is going be quite similar to the experience i just had last night.. it probably will be the most stress ive ever felt and then in a milisecond it will become the most bliss i have ever felt.. Its an extreme emotional spectrum shift of sorts. or at least thats how i saw it
at the point of bliss i thought, it must be over.. i must be dead. but a few hours i was A O K, FALSE ALARM!!!
I was also thinking about the concept of infinite and the overall origins of mind. i was thinking that existence probably has always been there and there was never a time where nothing exists, it never started and it will never end. the hole trip was resonating the concept of infinite.. that was pretty trip thoughts at the time heh
the trip was like 6.5 hours aswell maybe even 7
This kind of intense experience/heavy dose i feel should be reserved for special occations when i really want to feel the most vulnerability and extreme emotional spectrum shifts.
ok im done rambling about my wacky experiences Peace out friends.
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SleepyE said: Tried meth for the first time
It was a nice experience too..
my friends were doing lines and i was down..
only stimulant ive ever tried was 50mg of Alpha-methyltryptamine(AMT) but that drug was as psychedelic as DMT aswell..
anyways i sniffed my bump of meth and then pretty instantly i had a racey mind, niiice euphoria and a really unexpected feeling of closeness to my friends.. i didn't anticipate such nice feelings and stuff.. i guess thats why its used to cut MDMA.... The drips were pretty awful made me almost puke but i got a sip of some grape juice just in time and that neutralized the nastiness.
about an hour or so later i was experiencing psychedelic effect that were reminiscent of my 2c-e, and 2c-c experiences. the brightness of lights and whatnot was similar to those chems and my perception of shit i was seeing was mildly trippy.
it was a nice time, meth does have a bad reputation but i can see myself endulging in it on the bluest of blue moons for my health's sake and the fact that i enjoyed it.
it was dumb to do it at that time i did it because i forgot the night before i took a heavy dose of syrian rue and DMT and i forgot that meth and MAOI is a BAD combo but im sure 24 hours is enough time for my MAO to breakdown the inhibiting effects..
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SleepyE said: I find alot of members on shroomery don't like LSA..
i had one very valuable and amazingly intense experience on them..
I ate HBW 18 seeds and then 15 mins later i had a bit of a stomach ache for like another 30minutes not too bad but once that was over..
my OEV started to get INTENSE, and i do lots of different psychedelics so "intense" is saying something..
and vibes became amplified to an EXtreme.. i was watching kitchen confidential and everyone in the show was just speaking intensely and their vibes seemed to come out of the screen if that even makes sense...
People say LSA is lethargic yet when i ate the 18 seeds i thought that was the most stimulated ive been in a WHILE, i was almost gonna explode and start running around the house trying to use up all the stored energy i felt i had.. it was intense..
i started having strange thoughts about random impulse stuff that would cause trouble and then immediately i would have some sort of awake/dream where i actually performed the impulse and then it was difficult for me to distinguish my impulse dream from the reality that i was just sitting infront of the TV watching a television show with my brother..
that has never happened to me before and it was quite interesting and a bit scary because some of the impulse dreams were about "what if attacked my brother and this upset me cause it would cause very vivid conscious dreams of me doing it.. i felt i should have been more responsible taking substances that i don't know exactly how they are going to affect esspecially if there is other people around me..
in terms of the closed eye visuals it was very very similar to dmt/mushrooms/2ce/amt/dpt,etc all of them.. i really don't see a difference anymore with psychedelics in terms of the visuals its all variations of the same thing...
if its not DMT then the experience is just a less intense version of the DMT experience.. doesnt really matter what typical psychedelic i take.. all thats different with the chemicals is the type of emotions and stimulation and what not i might feel.
i was tripping for 24 hours.. my OEV wouldnt go away for a while it was pretty awesome and everytime i hit a bowl i felt like a was fucking flying on LSA again.
This stuff is GOLD..
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SleepyE said: woah, this is an odd coincidence, i too have had a very intense encounter with a being that was IDENTICAL to what alex grey painted, wasn't too big of a dose either about 5 grams of mushrooms i think, I thought subconsciously my trip gave life to the memory i had of seeing this painting.. but your claim of others having an encounter with it too has me rethinking things.. 
LOL its extra funny that the shroom trip report link i have on my sig is the one with that being i encountered.. I called it the pool of everything mostly because the patterns on the being were much wilder and complex. looked idenitcal in stucture though in the painting.
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SleepyE said: Hey guys, It's been awhile since i have posted anything so i would like to share my fucked up night which almost turned train-wrecked.
it was Saturday night and 3 of my buddies were down for another rave, so once we got there we all dosed in my buddies car, i'll call that buddy J, i took a capsule of DOI with roughly 3-4mg, and my friend J took 30mg of 2c-d that i traded to him for some DOB(that will be for another night), he took the 2c-d because of its short duration so once the rave was finished he would be sober enough to drive us home..
Then my other buddy, who i will refer to as V, told me he wanted something to keep him awake all night and he didn't have his MDMA, the only other psychedelic he has tried was 2c-E with me at a previous rave, that night he took 10mg then another 10mg an hour later and he had a fantastic night, he told me it stimulated him all night with intense euphoria that was way better then the MDMA that he usually uses at raves as well as more bang for his buck, but gave him slight chest pains/pressure which i find to be common with 2c-E.. but i tolerate it easily.
Anyways, He insisted that i give him a capsule of the DOI and i told him it was going to be much more intense than his 2c-e trip in terms of hallucination and mind fuck, as well as duration. so he took the same dose i did, 3-4mg.. And i told him it was important that he tell me if he has taken any other drugs that might be unsafe to take with DOI, and he said "no, i only drank in the early afternoon" which was a lie, he was drinking and was railing MDMA until the evening, so his body was in no shape to handle the DOI.
Now, a little information of the onset of DOI, it is fantastic, i could already feel changes in my body and state of mind in the first 20min, i felt a mellow euphoria with an enjoyable light body load which causes me to wiggle around a lot.. absolutely no upset stomach or nausea through-out the hole trip.
I decide to grab some Ketamine and snorted around 100mg which got me half way to a k hole, i was just standing and staring at a light show that was going on and was unable to move, i was just mesmerized by the depth of colour and how amazed i was from my perception of the lights. At one point the lights become a wave and i felt like i was actually riding it somehow, some sort of strange semi-dissociation. And the Ketamine had an amazing synergy with the onset of the DOI, it was bringing out the visuals from DOI at a much faster rate.
I usually like taking psychedelic phenethylamines at raves because its gives me the stamina to dance hard all night with the mind fuck craziness and mild hallucinations that entertain me.. I wouldn't take tryptamines usually at raves because their power and ability to dissociate me, i like doing that for solo trips at home.
as a few hours past, my stimulation and hallucinations were increasing and seemed to not show any sign of slowing down. At this point i realized i was gonna be in for a LONG TRIP.
As for what DOI feels like, I would say it's a combination of what i experienced on my heaviest LSA trip, so there is gemetric patterning, as well as flashes of faces and other random things in your vision, but with the electronic twist of open eyed visuals that remind me of my 2c-e experiences, and with a methamphetamine-like edge to it. It was very unique and interesting in my opinion, part of the trip became pleasently sinister in a way
5 hours after i dosed and was finally done dancing i was still not even close to the peak, i was just getting higher and higher, then i became worried about my friend V who took it as well, because if im this effected, he must be blown away by it. So when i find V i quickly find him pretty much out of his mind.. He told my friend J that everything feels like a bad dream, he panicking about being dehydrated which was strange because i personally did not feel the need to drink water at all, and usually with phenethylamines I'm drinking water like a fucking fish, but i guess the alcohol played a large role in his dehydration.
V looked like he was about to pass the fuck out, talking complete nonsense to people and even smashed his head into some chick, This is when i was like OK, i need to get him the fuck out of this place before he gets in MAD trouble.. so my friend J helped me get him out of there. shit started to progressively get worse on the ride home.. At this point V was delirious, Speaking complete gibberish, the only words he was saying somewhat properly was "take me to the hospital! im gonna yack!" Apparently at this point he thought he was dying, he told me later it was like a near death experience, he was scared shitless. anyways, we told him he will be fine, he was just tripping and panicking about what was happening to him.
then He starts puking like a mother fucker, he probably puked like 15 times, out the window, his stomach was NOT happy.
after he was done puking, he seemed much less panicked, and became extremely frustrated and short with us. we finally got him to his friends house and he took care of him.
finally all that bad shit was over and i could finally relax and enjoy what i had left of my trip, and i STILL was not peaking..
DOI is by far the longest psychedelic i have ever tried. the peak was probably at the tenth hour, i was lying in bed enjoying the closed eye visual flavor of DOI. i was finally asleep by the 30th hour, and was tripping for probably 35-40hours total.
I was almost able to reach the godhead with this molecule but i lost focus.. I was not able to sleep at all so in the morning at 10 i just got up and started watching TV, i was still full out hallucinating but the visual effect became different. for example when i was watching my brother play starcraft 2, everything look real, like not cartoony at all. and really high def.. it was strange because it was a type of perception that im more used to with ketamine, not typical hallucinogens like phenethylamines or tryptamines.
When i talked to my friend the next day, he told me he was very glad he experienced that, it was something apparently he needed to have happen to maybe shake the shit out of him, who knows.
he told me once he got home and tried to sleep, he was lucid dreaming and phasing in and out of reality. Im glad he appreciated what cool things these molecules are capable of.
and i also apologized for not looking out for him more, i should have made 100% sure that he didn't take anything with it that he should have.. I felt very irresponsible for doing that, and potentially put his life at risk. i was lucky that everything turned out ok for him, i will try to be less reckless from now on.
Overall, this is now one of my favorite psychedelic phenethylamines, its just epic..
The only danger i think there would be with this chemical is that it cold be easy to slip into some sort of paranoia/psychosis from the sleep deprivation/ long duration.
something to help knock you out to sleep would be very handy in avoiding that possibility.
Alright, Peace out friends.!
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SleepyE said: Hey guys, its been a while since i have given a trip report so here i go.
last night i decided to dose a very large amount of 4-aco-dmt FREEBASE, the dose was 50mg+ which alone is usually massively intense, but that plus 3.8grams of syrian rue ontop this time was just bat shit crazy.
It came on strong and walking became quite difficult, heavy disequalibrium in my balance.
the onset as well as the trip in general was very very similar to pharmhuasca, 4-aco-dmt alone is usually a bit similar but this was almost identical visually and intensity-wize as a 300mg+ pharmahuasca trip.
My visions were extremely vivid, incredible mayian/aztec-like circus landscapes were being seen, there was also tuns and tuns of entities, my trips have been entity free for quite some time so it was refreshing to have such vivid encounters again, it was interesting because i was having true hallucinations of entities in my open eye, the entities were sexy rave-girls with complex patterns trailing off them and they were surrounding me and a lot of them were lying right next to me and i swear i could feel them actually there, touching me.
I became god-like as usual in most my extremely heavy trips. Felt incredibly empowered like i was responsible for the hole universe's creation.
i began to feel very sick, i had a nasty, nasty ass taste of 4-aco-dmt in my mouth, and something happened to me that has never happened before. i actually had to puke, i have never puke in all my psychedelic eating career, and i have ate some fucked up shit during combos before.
so i ran downstairs and immediately began to puke violently until i was gagging.
i felt like a was loosing conciousness and i almost passed out, i was thinking i might have taking way too much and might be overdosing but im pretty sure you cant die from that kind of dose. Bit of an ego death moment there.
after the puking was over i felt much better.
Anyways thats about it, this was one of my most intense trips yet.
oh and something strange about my 4-aco-dmt. i have been dosing it for a long time,si have eaten almost a gram of it now, i had 3g of the 4-aco. but when i scaled the bag it was like 2.5g.. im sketching cuz that not possible. it was a powder-like substance but now its a very hard solidified goop. i was starting to think the 4-aco-dmt stash was alive or someshit and was gaining weight and im like WTF?!? lol
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SleepyE said: This stuff is so amazing. Im definitely ordering more. I snorted 20-30mg of 3-meo-pcp spaced out while on about 30mg of 4-acodmt and ended up p-holing almost all night. It felt like s isomer ketamine but instead of making me depressed of energy, i felt hyper and stimulated. But with the normal difficulty walking and dissocivision these drugs cause.
It was just getting more intense all night. With the 4acodmt i triped so hard. Harder then the night before on the dxm and twice as much 4aco. I was at the last level of the godhead. Complete full feeling of extreme empowerment. I believed i was the center of the universe and everything in my world and everything i experienced was a magnificent brilliant creation of my mind. I felt like the next prophet or the re-incarnation of jesus i shit you not. And it didnt help that i have a birth mark in the dead center of my left hand/palm, my mom always said i was the re-incarnation of someone that was crucified.Very strange messiah delusions consumed my mind. If u listen to rosetta stoned by tool, u will understand what was going through mind.
I turned into an archon from starcraft, i felt like i could harness the visuals i was having and convert it into Ki to shoot beams out of my hands and i was starting to think i could actually do it but i was too afraid to try. I find it interesting how this fantasies developed. It was massive schizo but i dont care. These drug let me live out and experience the most craziest fantasies ever. Im addicted to the creativity.. i dont know if my sanity will survive these adventures but in the unfortunate event my mind does deteriorate from these experience, i'd pay gladly. Quoting equalibrium hehe.
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SleepyE said: Hey guys. I feel the need to share a trip report, and it is my most irresponsible one yet. :P Anywho, it started on a wednesday night. I decided to dose 5apb at 140mg. It was 9 pm roughly. While it was coming on i played the piano. I love to play on the come up of 5apb. The amphetamine stimulation lets my fingers move at incredible speeds while maintaining coherency in playing i.e. accurate note hitting and enhanced expressive abilities.
When i was done with that the typical psychedelic effects were in full force.it feels like a lot of amphetamine and a strong dose of lsd. Its very similar to amt in my opinion.
I went downstairs and scaled out about 20mg of 3meo-pcp and snorted it.
3meo-pcp is one of the greatest most powerful drug i have ever encountered. I have tremendous respect for it especially after this experience. 20mg spaced out is my usual dose for it and it causes strong dissociative and stimulative effects. It similar to 100-200mg of s isomer ketamine at that dose in my experience. The visuals are similar but 3meopcp seems more visual and scarier. You have more mobility with walking on 3meopcp compared to ketamine.
3meopcp mixed with strong psychedelics is the most godlike experience ever. I wrote a small report of combining 3meopcp with 4acodmt and it was utterly superior to any trip ive had in every way; visions, headspace, and all. Words cannot express the love i have for 3meopcp tryptamine combinations.
This combination with 5apb was no different. Incredible. I wont go into details but it was magical. . But this is where i had a SEVERE lapse in judgement. It was 7am and i had to work at 11am. Somehow i thought that if i snort a huge line right now il be straight enough to work in 4 hour. Jesus was i wrong. I was fucked up on drugs and decided it would be a good idea to underestimate this drug and treat it like ketamine. SO with my big p-tarded brain and dissocivision i eyeball what was anywhere from 40-60mg and snort the whole thing up. There was roughly 30mg i was about to snort up too but decided not to. That last one in retrospect would have probably killed me.
It took me that 4 hours i thought i had to trip just to COMEUP. By the time i had to go to work i was peaking. I couldnt talk. Everything was a complete dissociative slide show. I was retarded completely unable to think. My dad comes upstair to tell me hes ready to drive me to work. I didnt know how to tell him im too fucked up to work. And i didnt know how to use the phone to call in sick. Nd i couldnt talk.
So in my head i thought itwill be fine, il go to work and by the time i get there il be functional enough to work. I use alot of my brain power to figure out how to put on my clothes ( im the most dissociated ive ever been in my life at this point). I pull that off and then im out the door in the car. Walking is very difficult as this point im struggling to keep my balance. The drive to work was strange. A complete slide show no ability to process frames. Its very bright. When i get to work i keep my head down and dont talk to anyone. I work as a prep /dishwasher at a restaurant. When i get to the washroom i immediately start puking. It was a busy lunch service so i had to wash dishes and pans. I was getting higher and higher. My vision became so impaired i could barely see anything. I cut myself three times on knives and didnt feel a thing. I kept one eye closed to combat the dissocivision. Everything was extremely bright to the point of looking holographic and everything was a slide show. This was starting to cause extreme anixety. I didnt like the brightness it was scaring me. I was calling on all the shaman power i have to remain calm and complete the job. I imagined myself as a warrior from the movie 300 and i was fighting to the death.(which in this case washing dishes while overdosing on 3meopcp) i would wash as many dishes as i could while trying to keep my balance and then running to the washroom to puke and gag my brains out. This goes on in a pattern for 4 hours and by some beautiful miracle of hell i make it through my shift successfully. My high has not started to decrease yet. My ride picks me up and takes me home and i pass out on my bed for 9 hours. I wake up heavily dissociated still but way more sober in comparison. I wait a few hours and then i try to eat a hot dog. I puke that up. My stomach doesnt Want food at this time, there is also a pain and heaviness feeling in both my kidneys , this last for 2 days.It took 24 hours to come down to baseline from it. That was the longest most intense scariest experiences ive had in my life.
I learned that this drug is very powerful and very dangerous. I must respect the hell out of it or i could kill myself. This was definitely a wake up call.
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SleepyE said: Written on 07/01/13 but happened in February ------------------------
I have always been an introvert.
i usually keep to myself as i am an overthinker to the point where it causes me pain.
A little background.
i have never been in a relationship before, and i am a virgin. The reason for this has just been a deep emotional issues as i feel disconnected and cannot relate to others.
For an example; one night at a rave i experimented and started making out with a girl i was dancing with.
And it was not fun for me, it felt like a chour and i hate doing chours.
i felt nothing and i was not getting anything from it so i didnt say anything and i just dipped. Yes i know complete dick move but in retrospect i was peaking on 30mg of 2ce and having a bit of a panic attack.
Finally i feel for someone and i had the feeling that i have never had from anyone before.
Of course i was shy and was very distant and overthinking everything to the point of paranoia. but perhaps deep down i did not feel like i deserved happiness because no one really does, you have to earn happiness, i see it as a journey.
of course i new that having feelings for someone is just going to screw you and i was COMPLETELY aware of that.
but you know what; i didnt CARE! i felt human for the first time having what i felt was a genunine feeling. I knew this was going to end in my destruction but the feeling of hope after a life of hell seemed attractive for me.
My ability to reach out was poor, i had the idea that giving someone attention pushes them away but that was mostly underlined insecurities about myself.
Sooner or later i realized this was not going to happen for me and i knew that, so it took me a few weeks but i was finally over it, i felt free. the attraction became my prison cell; and i shook it.
i was confident that if i wait long enough il feel something for someone that is just as intense and i just had to wait and i was PERFECTLY okay with that reality.
At this time i was using heavy psychedelics and dissociatives daily and smoking DMT at the peak.
i was back to square one and had high hopes, i didnt blame anyone for my pain except me. i knew i caused it, i knew what i was getting into having feelings and i was aware but dreding the day it would bite me in the ass which is inevitable.
So the next few days were mostly spent sitting alone in my basement high on psychedelics and dissociatives and smoking dmt out of a electronic tube vaporizer.
my visions and trips were starting to become messiah based.
I was starting to mature at this point. i was thinking about our future generations and had a strong urge to settle down with a family and raise a new generation that isnt fucked up.
i was focused on preserving the knowlegde of the universe. I was starting to turn the horror i was facing into something positive because i was very shut off from humanity but now i felt like i should devout my life to pushing us forward.
i looked at the birth mark in the center of my left palm as i sign of "maybe i was ment for better things."
And my perception was starting to glitch out at this time.
im sure it was largely due to stress that was building up inwhich i was completely numb to. consciously un-aware of it.
each trip i had things would start coming to life or appearing so.
my psychedelic trips were becoming so incredibly intense even at lower dose. My tolerance was not working anymore.
each time i tripped it would be more intense and MORE intense, i was wondering if i was going to get abducted by aliens.
Back to the basement.
i was watching TV and something unbelievable happened.
i was high on shit smoking DMT and i started to have REAL voices in my head.
my impression was it was from a parrallel universe where all my friends and family and people i admired and had strong affinity towards, somehow they were communicating with me telepathicly and telekeneticly.
They first told me a story which i posted earlier The Story
They asked me to turn the channel to the comedy network and the Simpsons was on.
it was the episode where bart goes to toronto and meets a girl inwhich he fucks up and loses here.
they were telling me that my life was parralleling this episode and that i needed to focus on why.
The message they were giving me was i too preoccupied with things and not focused enough on love, and this was the story of GOD inwhich parallels in all goodmens hearts as they are from source.
once i got the message i tried to turn the tv off.
For some reason i had the strong impression Maynard james keenan from Tool was in the crowd of voices i was hearing; and everytime i tried to turn the TV off(i tried multiple times),and he would turn it back on and he literally said "NO! Leave that shit on."
and it was an episode of anger management.
He told me to load a HUGE vapo bowl and watch the TV.
Him with my family and friends all were cheering me on saying "To infinity and beyond for her."
that was what i needed to do.
so i riped this fucking bowl as hard and as long as i could; like i was trying to kill myself on it.
Everything in my room came to life and looked like a nursery school play house with multi coloured blocks and electronic component nicnacs.
it reminded me of the "safe house" for little sisters in bioshock 2.
it was the most incredible mindblowing Open eyed visual trip i have had in my life.
i had never seen objects in my room come COMPLETELY to life.
but what him and my family wanted me to see is charlie sheens face tesselate to lower dimensions.
he was symetrical and box-like.
and eureka, this solved my confused of reality.
if his face is tesselating with such order inwhich we believe to be just chaos.
i was shocked.
This is where it turned ugly.
I assumed that she and my family were actually talking to me telepathicly and i thought she would show up at my door with everyone to say "tricked ya!" and we would all have a laugh and live happily everafter.
for some reason i thought she was communicating to me through different friends on facebook and the friends that i thought used language that she would use i would say "oh there you are."
i had the mistaken impression that my suffering was over and it was all just one great big giant gag played on me.
i was SO relieved my pain was about to end.
but everyone i was talking to which i believed to be her felt like she was playing with my emotions.
telling me its all going to end and just wait.
i started to beg, i felt such anxiety as i felt that she was taunting me through everyones facebook account.
i started to get very upset, i just wanted it to end.
my friend set me a didgeridoo soundfile that i that she sent me and he was talking about DOI which i mentions with her a long time ago so i was certain it was her.
i just wanted to see her and i kept thinking it was going to happen.
i was saying "NOW? NOW? PLEASE now?"
but nothing was happening.
the didgeridoo was so annoying i could not concentrate and i was just in soo much emotional pain and i started crying begging for her to come.
it was building up to a breaking point.
i become so irrational in the moment of terror that i thought if i scream my lungs out hard enough, it will put my body in shock where my heart would stop and i would die and wake up from this horrible nightmare and she would be there.
it was trying to live from trying to kill myself, a contradiction that probably created the big bang.
so i just screamed.
LOUD LONG AND HARD.
so hard my parents came racing up the stairs and IMMEDIATELY my mom pretty much tackles me and start performing an exorcism and screaming the lords prayer. (perhaps my life parallels "The exorcism of Emily Rose.)
My mom was holding me down restraining me and this just made it worse i almost grabed her wrist and was about to snap it but i quickly realized i was gonna do that and i didnt want to hurt her and let go, i wasnt thinking rationally anymore.
my dad was confused and was thinking about calling medical help.
words became things i felt i needed to attack.
when i ran out of breath from screaming my lungs out i just colapse.
their is a pain so severe in my chest and heart after this it feels like a ton of pressure or weight was put on it and i couldnt breath properly.
my mom and dad were arguing and there voices as well as the light in my room were causing me severe pain.
i realized suddenly that this was my birth.
everything that was happening here was a reborn, i died and was reborn harded for life from this experience.
i ran down stairs in a fit of panic and started playing the piano like my life depended on it.
i dont know why it was complete insanity at that point.
i went to slept on the couch weeping, and i needed the company of my parents now.
the next day, i still thought she was speaking to me through my friends and i thought she was coming to my house after i invited someone who i thought was her.
words cannot express the pain of hoping to see someone only to see someone you dont having affinity for.
i was asking where is she? and no-one knew what i was talking about.
so i started to ball my eyes out.
This experience is very personal, but i feel people can gain prespective on there psychedelic journeys.
life is confusing difficult and horrifying.
once you understand the pattern, its still horrifying but it gives you the false security that you are ontop of things.
-------------------- My Drawingzz Draw DMT!
   Trip Report: SHROOMS DMT---- My Youtube Psychedelic Channel
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SleepyE said: Hey guys i wanna share my DMT report i had on Saturday night. I was using a lightbulb vaporizer and i smoked a large bowl with a hard intent to break through into intense realms so i did that and then i couldn't let go of the lightbulb i had it in a strong pinching grip and the light bulb looked electronic and patterned similar to crop circles and or a circuit board. It looked florescent and glowing and seemed like its filaments were back in.
I was siting in my chair looking at the computer screen with my mushroom entity drawing zoomed up to keep me grounded. And the walls folded like pages in a book. On the left of the infinite pages i saw what looked like different realities dimensions and time periods.
I was a bit afraid of one of the page realities because there was a negative entity that wanted to come into my basement and it looked like a shadow mummy from some Egyptian era. But he wasn't allowed in if i kept the lightbulb of light in my hand and the entity stayed at bay, i. Saw in the other pages on the left there was a page of entities that were made of circuit boards and geometry, they seemed to be of a neutral concern, but all is beautiful in my eyes,
At the very front of my the pages in front turned into lateral grids that look like gem pattern joker paying cards, i saw these before while i was trying to figure out telekinesis on dmt. I make my jaw/cheek resonant somehow by applying a clenching reflex. It doesnt do much when im sober but when i smoke dmt this clench causes a loud resonant vibration that seems to go outside my physical body. Dmt might cause a harmonic amplification of this hum i produce through a blow horn effect or something similar. And when i focused on a light small object and tried this i saw the object on the same joke card grid platform card that i saw in my next trip after that one. And that card split into another card raised a few inches from north east from a 45 degree angle i believe the object was positioned on both corners of the card and is duplicate. It was interesting to me what this symbolism represented but then i moved on.
My physical body felt strange,i felt like i had a lot of weight on my and there was lots of jewelery and patterns on my sweater. I was wearing a hat and my face felt like someone just did plastic surgery on it.
I felt like an Egyptian god like Horus i felt like a powerful being.
It was a beautiful trip and i have diagram sketches for you to have a bit of a picture of what happened visually. Il post it shortly im on my phone and i cant upload it to computer so i have to do it the hard way 
Enjoy.
and this is just more patterns that i see
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SleepyE said: yeah i went to my bed and layed down then i went to fucking TENSE places. literally i was watching the big bang happen before my eyes.
when i closed my eyes, i focused my attention to the side corner of my blank vision and saw what looked like a doorway from some next dimension linked into this one; and there was these strange humanoid entities that kind of looked like chess pieces i was seeing massive pawn bishops. This doorway to other dimensions felt like it merged into this reality.
and things got weird i was getting paranoid that everyone in my house was awake because i thought i was hearing footsteps at like 5am. i was scared to look because for some reason i thought my dad dressed in a clown suite and was waiting for me to check out the noise then would jump out of nowhere and try to scare me.
this made absolutely no sense because no one im my house like to dress up like a clown and try to scare someone at night. i had the feeling that almost everyone in the world is contact with the 'beings' in these alternate states and purposely fucking wih my head as a joke for me to find something out.
i seriously thought i was going to see entities on this wave length of existence beam into my room. their DEFINITELY was interdimensional aliens.
i was seeing fucking cities.
that was a fucking intense pharmahuasca trip, at times a tad bit overwhelming even for my standards but nothing unmanageable. i can definitely see that experience scare the SHIT out of someone else though who's not as well versed with these states.
i havent had a pharmahuasca trip like that in TIME or in general. very pleased. definitely more intense then a heavy 4-aco-dmt trip and maybe on par with 4-acohuasca which was unexpected.
and the syrian rue work flawlessly this time i just took more and ground it to hell and a half. thanks for all the good vibes sent my way.
i could barely see things when i went to the washrooms. everything was morphing HEAVILY.
it was like my body was made out of liquid jello and when i was lying in bed i felt like i could stretch my nostril hole on my nose over my head LOL and was trying to and i one point i thought i was getting close
i was experiencing cymatics at play. my body become what seems like just energy.
i felt like gangare from pokemon.
everything took a higher vibrational form and higher complexity in its representation. id say its like an extremely intense mushroom trip.
so like 10g of mushrooms.
at the beginning i completely lost my body.
there was lots of flash backs to my earily mushroom trips, i got the impression that my first true ego death that i wrote about as my SHROOMS report in my signature. it was saying i actually died and that experienced fused my essence of being in between this world and multi dimensional worlds.
some sort of intermediary.
no wonder after that shroom ego death trip i was suddenly able to draw god-like dmt scenery like it was nothing.
------------------------ (Ps.it was so easy for me i thought everyone had this ability once they take psychedelic so i strangely didn't even consider it all that special but deep down i knew something didn't make sense on why i was able to do this stuff. this i guess is when the denial set in.) ------------------------ back to the trip,
my consciousness was like a pin ball that went down some slot and got launched into pure everythingness, a vast space that encompassed all of possible existence. i was floating on a cloud of endless possibilities.
and it was all about who in my generation will have that experience first and who gets the responsibility. and for some odd chance i reached it first. and the mark on my hand was some sort of paradox which already confirmed that this happened and somehow the future was able to manipulate the past to make this a reality and unfold in this set script or story line.
an ordered-chaotic sequence of unexpected events.
so my whole head was some sort of super server that holds all of reality.
so everyone is a program contained in a virtual server my mind has held up and projected. including the experience that is myself and my awareness. its a virtual ego of something that happened long ago and will continue to happen until the rest of time which is endless.
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SleepyE said: I feel like im stumbling into the secret that all illusionist know.
any true illusionist probably has an extremely large understanding of black holes, schrodingers cat and the physics of perception.
when im on pharmahuasca i feel like im the essence illusionists use to fuck with people heads because its not illusionary the techniques they use but its actually MAGIC.
but they call it ILLUSION so they dont get burned at the stake.
but they know black hole theory and how reality is just energy and can be manipulated by mind and belief.
if you condense the planet earth into a spec, i forget the specific calculation but its how to predict the colapse of an object and at what ever density and mass it would need to become a black hole.
sometimes i feel like that is happening in ego death.
you are getting compressed at an exponential rate. its like a cos sin exponential line that reached zero(hell) then the wave form orientation switchs when you begin to trust psychedelic state and abandon fear and it becomes SIN instead of cos sin, therefore it becomes an exponential line approaching INFINITY instead approaching ZERO through schrodingers cats theory of how you see things, good or bad.
so the first ego death is of mistrust so you get killed by it.
once you are dead you let go of trying to hold on to life then the graph inverts and NOW or the next time you trip; the journey to ego death will become ultimate infinite life or HEAVEN.
just strange thoughts i've been having in my schizo state of mind. :P
im thinking we could one day develop the technology to condense space ships into black holes then have gadgets that determine through polarity calculations where and which dimension to land in.
i bet that is what UFO technol0gy does.
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SleepyE said: I JUSSt made contact with some sort of alien intelligence.
i loaded a bowl of like 100mg of dmt in my bong(half of it was dmt crystal shard quality from slow evap) with weed and riped it the fuck down, i wanted to explode into the trip looking for answers and FUCKING FOUND them!!!
i was beamed up into some interdimensional dr who like tardis or it felt as if i was inside some sort of interdimensional space ship.
and there were these wireframed crouching entities that were literally showing me around.
i have never had such vivid ecounters with an entity; i was staring at it STRIAGHT in the "face?" and i was literally almost shitting myself and thats rare for me.
they looked at me or i got the impression as if im sort of son they planted on this planet, and at my 20th birthday they will come back plus my dreams will come true and i wont be confused anymore. (edit 1/20/15 4:25am sorry i found out the cake is a lie)

they were showing me cubed like masterworks that were expanding and contracting
my lower body felt like is was getting split into two, when this happened it was alarming to me at first.
my focus on the patterning and what was going on in this interdimensional tardis was faded the more i thought about the hypothetical physical pain i might be in from spliting into two but i ignored the pain and focused on the visual information and the aliens were like "thats it, thats it!."
i drew a quick sketch and tried to capture what i saw, it was really complex and the images are fading fast, something about that trip my mind seems to want to despritely destroy any cognitive awareness of it.
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SleepyE said: I have a far out theory.
you guys remember surfing cinibar island looking for this mofo?.
i honestly think the theory(programming glitch) behind the game is the softwares designers cute way of explaning/exposing what god / DMT is.
DMT is all about the gnomes.
Missin'GNOME??
i garentee if you understand the operation of missingno you will know what god is.
Glitch city would be hyperspace.
Enlightenment through Pokemon Red/blue/yellow.
imagine that!
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SleepyE said: Hey guys, i always wonder why when i smoke DMT and break through; if i open my eyes i will see objects in my room clearly moving.
there are wires and electronic devices on my desk hanging off the table and when i break through these things are literally swaying back and forth almost aggressively.
i can touch these objects and fell them clearly moving and shifting.
i wonder why this only happens in heavy trips.
if two people smoke dmt and see the same shifting of objects, would this be considered a shared hallucination? and in that case, would the explanation for the two people now experiencing a similar viewpoint be considered telekenetic and telepathic?
anyone ever have this happen before?
seems to happen all the time now.
i havent smoked it for a few days but i have always wondered why only dmt seems to cause this strange phenomenon.
il probably have a trip today though 
anyone have experiences with shared hallucination?
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SleepyE said: With persian red carpets, flowered patterned white drapes and red drapes, causes your trips to be more divine.
specifically DMT,
i see a lot of these symbols are the focus of attention with people like "louis wain" where they said the patterns were a large inspiration for his drawings.
i had a trip in a place with all these items present and it was so divine feeling.
i always feel like it has something to do with the symbolizism of paining things red to show they are human.
Billy talents red flag. uprising - muse - "red tape to keep the truth confined."
imagine dragons paint it red to fit right in.
rolling stones "red door, paint it black."
they would do this in the olden times to ward off evil i think i remember reading..
Im saying these archetypes seem to have a subconscious control over my experience.
im less likely to have a bad trip in a patterned room with flowers, persian carpets and red stuff.
the trip is probably always gonna be divine with this type of perceptional feng shui.
what are your thoughts? any experiences that are similar.?
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SleepyE said: Hey guys, i would like to share my dmt vision i just had.
it was like 50-60mg in a bong.
lately i have been getting a bit paranoid and as a result i created the reality that the entities are real and can attack me so i almost got smushed by megatron last time.
this time however i was confident that the darkness was bullshit and when i smoked it i did what i was doing awhile ago to bypass negative and get striaght into just the divine.
what i would do is squint/make pressure my eyes an upper cheeks in a way that would
1. causes a high frequency humming noise that seems to become amplified with the larger amount of dmt you smoke (this noise i use as a carrier wave; its all about distracting you from the supposed negativity so that you dont create that but instead create something benign and loving so having those positive thoughts helps greatly.
2. Cause me to see an imagine or reflection of a third eye and what i call "support eyes" on the left and right for balanced symmetry.
this comobo effect that the squinting cause(by the way you have to do this somewhat hard/aggressively to get good effects; you kind of look like you are dragon ball z powering up LMfao.)
lets you bypass all negativity and its like its transports you to the gates of some sort of secret level of experience or cheat realm that god possibly would have designed so that it can be channeled when he incarnates as a human and nothing can harm him and one can be taught the techniques to channel and reach these bonus states of mind.
immediately it takes you to some sort celestial "House Spot" of god(s). an illusionist cheat code or realm using black hole theory its almost seems like.
some sort of easter egg realm of reality; reminds me of pokemon glitch levels like glitch city and missingno and mew and shit.
its like its of that archetype whatever the fuck that is.
i think of it as the joker or jester. the trickster archetype i wonder why that is.
i always had that archetype assigned to me since birth.
i had such a strong affinity for the carnival and circus like.
my brother and mom said before i was born i haunted my brother as an "evil clown" and he complained to my mom about this and she said she felt my spirit flow into her stomach that night.
this was the vision, il make it look much better its just a rough sketch to get the basic vision done so i didnt forget, i was trippin i did my best ahha 
its a little hard to see but hopefully you get the idea.

it was a stone entity siting on a checkered grid.
i felt incredible peace here.
when i came out of the trip i started speaking happily in my alien language than went to all the areas in my room that i felt was dark and start to mocking and licking(?lol) things and objects in a way that shows the i believe they are just bullshit and cant hurt me.
and i start doing my alien liquiding and stuff
anyways thats about it 
good night friends! god bless
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SleepyE said: DMT is starting to get pretty fucking weird.
its like no longer even hallucination.
i smoke this shit and it turns my basement into some sort of intermediary paradox cellar which has the capacity to inhabit this reality and other alternate reality that want to latch on.
reminds me of that simpsons halloween special with the paradox wall shit.
when i smoked it the wooden-like walls began to split and i see darkness in the cracks like it was leading into a black hole. i had the impression entities from god knows where were coming in and out, and in my room there was a bunch of positive entity which i call "angels".
i could get the idea that they were helping to control my safety from negativity that wants to come in.
all of the objects in my room came to life; some ends of the room were evil and some ends were good, i was trying to keep my focus on the good parts of the room; this was happening at an incredibly fast pace but then i was just sitting at the table and somehow what seems like a 20 foot tall HUGE preschool shape and coloured transformer or optimus prime came out of my table.
i thought i was fucking done for.
i was sure this thing was going to fucking CRUSH ME. i was fucking terrified.
i closed my eyes right before this happened and i thought of my warp drive drawing

and pretended it worked and the entity could not attack me. i was hoping i disappeared into another parallel dimension where that fucking thing wasnt going to turn me into a jam pancake.
it seemed to work because i did the whole pretend its not there and it thankfully wasnt.
i guess the angels were watching my back.
but i wonder what happens when angels do not help with safety nets.
do you just get crushed by these entities of probability?
i had my drawing

out on the computer desk as a safety net in case i get lost in darkness i just focus on the intricate patterning and i seem to be unharmed.
it was strange this time.
it was glowing blue and looked like some holographic focusing program.
there was multiple outlines of the drawing and they were bouncing around chaotically in the boarders.
the more i converged and focused my eyes on a focal point the outlines of the drawing started to come together.
each once that came together took harder focus to get it to stop and state in the right spot.
then i felt the stakes were getting higher if i dont focus all of them to one i get attacked by some negative entity but luckily i was able to focus them all and it felt very strange for my eyes to do this. Lots of attention was projected onto what i was focusing.
i closed my eyes and had the thought.
that thing only almost could have attacked me because i gave into its bark and made it a reality.
if i said ur bullshit right from the start it would have went away.
but i instead got a little bit panicked and when that starts happening begin to bark at the entities that might come out of the wall with my alien talk. its sort of like loin stuff, you make sure that they know who is the master and who is the bitch.
somehow my basement has turned into an Egyptian pyramid where i can met beings from other worlds.
shit feels like Constantine lmfao.
i was flying through all of probability with my eyes closed and then i somehow wondered into a void of nothingness from a door that i came through and it was a box that looked like a tardis that held everything.
i was thinking about zero error so that nothing is happening anymore and then i went into this void with the door shutting in the tardis of existence and i was just me and some sort of mix between a fox, chicken, spiral thing with a glove that had a red and green strip on thumb.

this glove was like a hand where i can go into a void of nothingness and not get lost because i always have a friend or family to pull me out of the void i just need to look for the hand.
a great metaphysical message in my eyes.
oh yeah, the entities were still in my room when i paid attention they were fucking around with my set trying to scare me but i just ignored.
the walls were shaking and i thought the apocalypse was happening.
objects on the table were swaying back and forth.
it was scary but it all died down to nothing when my trip slowing was fading.
its like when i smoke dmt some sort of alien turns my basement into and inter dimensional/extra dimensional time portal where anything can enter and fuck my case if my not prepared.
shits getting kind of fucked up . not going to liee.
my life fucking feels like paranormal activity or F.E.A.R or some shit. like wttf...
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SleepyE said: i was at chruch one sunday and the guy up front was taking about trials and testing.
how through the adam and eve story, they are tempted by the serpant to touch the forbidden fruit and gain the knowledge of everything good and evil..
he said how jesus went through this exact same thing as do all people.
I feel like this forbidden fruit could represent psychedelics and psychoactive drugs.
they are the forbidden fruits and once you touch them, you enter into the world of sin.
and the journey is a trial and testing of your ability to touch the fruit and to not become a sinner/bad person.
It certainly is a trial that MANY of us have failed.
but the ones who got down and dirty with it all and come out angels are the true men of god.
what do you guys think of this interpretation?
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Re: Chronicals of a DMT head [Re: SleepyE]
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SleepyE said: Hey guys, just decided to dabble again in this messed up experience so i have taken about 4.5g of syrian rue and about 250mg of dmt( shitty scale). I hope this will be exciting i plan to trip in my bed, sucks though because i have to work tomorrow at 12 doing server stuff and bussing shit at a sushi restaurant so i wont get to relax after the trip.
Its been about a year since i went on a hiatus from all drugs including weed but then sobreity was too dull and i found i lost alot of interest ionce loved so much in things including music. I was anhedonic in my sobreity so here i am back smoking god knows how much weed and doing pharmahuasca once a week, for fuck sakes. On the bright side im alot healthier now. In september i weighed 118 and im 5`11ish. I started to eat a fuck load of food and work out at the gym a fuck load and my strength in things like.bench press and squats and my physique improved dramatically. I now weigh 170 so im alot happier about my body where using psychedelics and weed doesnt just depress me and i have a fucking great time. I think these drugs dont allow you to be happy if there is something wrong with you physcally that you can change.
Wish me luck on my tripp
Came in like three waves, each more intense than the last. Mind merging with objects and whole room, everything is liquid energy that tunnels into infinity. Smoked three bowls, i feel really good. Lol i love this shit
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SleepyE said: Hey guys, just dosed 3.6g of syrian rue, and im going to be insuffilating around 40-60mg(eyed.)
i did this a few nights ago with 4gs of syrian rue but i think i overshot the 4-aco-dmt dose cuz i can a TERRIBLE chemical taste in my mouth that 4-aco tends to give at very high doses and i had to puke, was gagging over the sink for 5 mins, struggling not to pass out.
the trip was awesome though,
hopefully its less fucked on my body, not too down to puke like that for a good while.
Ahh the trip was perfect. Insuffilated about 50mg, and no sickness, got the maoi dose just right and its not bunk 4acodmt, the last batch i had was borderline bunk but i stuff i have right now is the strongest fumurate of it ive tried.
The trip was really powerful as expected. The only reason i take massive doses like this is because i do it every 3 days or so, therefore my tolerance wont allow me to trip wothout maoi intervention.
Man the trips are still intense as fuck, i just cant get enough of tripping at night lying in my bed. So much epicness and bliss. Its fucking heaven
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SleepyE said: Now i am sure this has been pondered somewhere else on the vast interwebs and perhaps the shroomery, but when ever I see the Chakra systems and the meaning of the symbols i can't help but make relations in my mind between their function and how imbalances in them could possibly correlate with some symptoms of schizophrenia.
Now I'm not a hundred percent on the validity of Chakras but I cannot lie and say the idea of it doesn't resonate with me.
(And common, the crown chakra symbol is the same fractals you see in hyperspace, coincidence?? its neat either way though)
You hear a lot that schizophrenics or people who took too many psychedelic have their head in the clouds living in fantasy for the rest of their life and not conforming to the view of reality in the majority of their peers eyes.
And for shit and giggles i thought maybe it is because their focus is too much on the crown chakra and while their imagination is colorful and loud, they are unable to make anything from it perhaps from a deficiency in the root chakra, which grounds the ideas you have into the reality that we all experience.
It's sort of like how in the 'Nightmare on elm street' movie the girl was able to pull freddies hat out of her dream and have it manifest in the real world when it was previously from the dream/spirit world.
I wonder if you could train schizophrenics to root, it might manifest what they are truly capable instead of the usual acid causality or schizophrenia story.
Thoughts?
my bad if this is a mega stupid idea, im kinda baked.
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SleepyE said: I'm not 100% percent sure, but i think that was the MOST INTENSE trip i have ever had in my LIFE. This was even more intense then a trip report i wrote a few years ago for pharmahuasca labelled "too much dmt/rue" which i consider to be the hardest experience of my life.
My scale is only 1 decimal so i must have over shot the dose higher than 200mg, my scale is fucked, my brother lost my 2 decimal so he gave me this piece of shit. 
I don't even know where to begin.
Of the bat this trip was terrifying.
Okay, so i dosed then i went up to my room.
It came on strong and QUICK.
My whole field of vision was superimposed with hyperspace machinery and patterning, i would see everything in normal reality but hyperspace was like a watermark overlay.
I felt terrible pressure throughout my whole body and immediately i puke in my mouth so i run to the bathroom quick to spit it out, then i start puking for a bit.
After this it starts coming on even stronger.
i lay down in my bed and it ramps up to extreme intensity quick.
What was happening in my mind seemed to be some type of singularity. In this moment i felt like i had unlocked all the keys to solving the pain and suffering in everyones life.
There was a massive feel of alien consciousness communicating with me. These beings are so advanced, they are beyond the material and have evolved simply to push creativity to infinite potentials, taking in this power of beauty of design is so intense its like you are staring into the sun.
I felt as if thoughts were flooding into my mind faster than the speed of light. It was sandwiching ideas and events in history that relate to each other.
It was relating self-immolation protests with football games. The theme was struggling to find peace of mind in life when you are a nobody. It was about wanted to win the game or war and doing whatever it takes to achieve the title. Knowing in your heart that your faith is so strong you will step into oblivion for that touchdown that wins the game.
In order to be someone, you literally have to give it all away, everything, the body, material attachment.. Everything.
It reminded of a friend whole broke through with DMT and had a difficult experience and then started throwing all is belongings on the floor saying i don't need this.
I found that beautifully symbolic on how DMT causes you to abandon all material possessions.
This trip was showing me how ego pushes us to achieve. How jealousy and pride on wanting to be the champion is what pushes us to higher levels. Wanting to be the greatest, Go down in history as KING; as a somebody. Its about who can take the most struggle, pain and torture. In this state of mind it is like the football game starting, its a struggle and its painful, It's like being in school.
Then it was showing be the pain free side, which is complete lack of care or interest. No jealousy or pride, not caring to be the greatest, no need to try. Just no effort, nothing. With this approach it was showing me that if you want to be something, you must go through suffering. you must find. you must look. If you want to be nothing, choose pain free life, and don't look for anything, don't suffer.
The Lyrics from The Nirvana song "smells like teen spirit" was resonating in my mind specifically the words
"And I forget just why I taste Oh yeah, I guess it makes me smile I found it hard, it's hard to find Oh well, whatever, never mind"
I was experiencing everyone's ego where someone sees potential in the person but they just don't care, they don't want to suffer for it, lack of will power. It showed me that this angers people because it reflects their own insecurities of not wanting something bad enough that they would die for it which is their lack of will power.
This is why that Buddhist monk who used self-immolation as a protest to gain awareness was so powerful to me.
Building yourself up to stare death in the face and walk through the flames without fear and complete faith in your principles. Sacrifice the self for the good of the many.
This was complete and utter ego death and annihilation.
This trip was my self-immolation training program of some sort. I experienced myself burning alive, being crushed into oblivion by enormous pressure, and being struck by lightning, and sufficating all at once.

I could feel my finger burning with intense electro shock pain. What i was seeing was impossible..
it was a complete alternate reality with incredible depth and complexity, inhabited by aliens which are too many to count.
This was all open eye.
my room was gone, my window wasn't even there anymore. My bedsheets felt like they disappeared. i pierced the veil and was in between this reality and the afterlife. More so in the afterlife. I have never been this immersed in psychedelic hallucinations in my life.
I saw myself in some sort of energetic patterned Egyptian tomb and saw my bodies flesh rip away, similar to when villains in Dragon ball Z get kamaehamaeha'd and disintegrate into nothing.
The pain was unreal. The lyrics hard to find, oh well whatever never mind. was going through my head, i was trying to find information in my head that can void the pain into nothing. I felt the pain ease when i thought about school, education, learning. Making something of yourself, being in class.. Not letting yourself be nothing. Class almost seemed like church in my mind, salvation... It seemed like the darkness finally caught up with me and I felt compelled to submit and say "FINE OKAY, I'LL BE A GOOD LITTLE CHRISTIAN WHO GOES TO SCHOOL NOW, DON"T OBLITERATE ME!!"
It was trying to get me to find a state of mind that is completely void of all thoughts and fear. There was a scale i was picturing with hands as each end of something that looks like a Libra scale of some sort.
each time my focus would stray i would feel the pain and burn and the more i gravitated towards the void state of nothing the pain would ease. The scales hands were moving to the process of my focus straying.
every time it strayed and i felt the burns the scale would tilt and say, "oh you're almost there you almost got it, that's it, that's it."
Once i found my focus and held it, There was no more pain, the pressure was all there but I had consumed it, or rather it consumed me. Usually when this happens in my death trips it's almost like I hear loud thunder followed by the Quake(game) sound "Godlike". Sort of a reward for going through such terror.
And on the other side it was as i suspected and seen before, paradise. It was like a birthday party or celebration "you made it" I felt as if my body was now something that could be ripped to shreds for fun, ripping off limps and parts of the body like it would be nothing. It was like none of it was even real and i was in some sort of video game like Gary's mod.
At this moment i understood the whole universe.
I was seeing the universe as some sort of funnel that has a marble dropped into it and as it rolls it speeds up until it reaches some sort of singularity where i pictured the extreme faith to give up the body for your cause is at the end and then once the door is stepped through then it is infinity. It goes on forever. You win and the game resets.
I was picturing this event as a football player on a game that is of very high stakes.
And the event for when the team scores the win, This is where the maximum amount of effort is put forth.
At this moment you see who is willing to burn themselves alive for the win. And once you do that, touchdown, the whole world cheers and you can relax, struggles over, you were somebody. your desires have been for filled, now you can not give a fuck.
This trip was bring my attention to the whole zero is equivalent to infinity theory.
It was almost like all of the suffering was related to that concept and based on a flawed or obsolete view of reality, and that the team that wants to win bad enough is the one that will give themselves away to prove it. I was seeing the entropy of this conflict near its most chaotic state.
And once this happens then the singularity begins, we can all meet the alien, and the alien is us from the future and reality will be like a 3d modelling program where you can bend and shape at will..
I am so rattled by this trip I'm actually a bit shook to go back in straight away, I'll wait a week or so. You can only really experience your death once a week I'd think, anymore and that's probably overkill. I feel that using pharmahuasca as a tool to overcome mental and physical pain as well as fear of death could be very promising. I know i have experienced death before, but I'd be lying i said i wasn't afraid of the real thing; my hope is to be able to bleed this fear out of myself by force. Hopefully there isn't terrible mental side effects that come from that. I definitely feel very morbid... But i'm happy, strange. And i feel less dependent on weed to fix the mental distress i experience when I'm not stoned.
I realize none of this shit probably makes any sense but fuck it, i felt it was important to write down what exactly was happening in my mind and thoughts, probably a bunch of fucking nonsense...
Crusify the ego. Pain is an illusion. DMT is fucked..
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SleepyE said: Hey guys, for a year now i have been training hard in the gym to get as big as possible as fast as possible to test my will and so far i have accomplished a lot.
while i have been doing this i feel like psychedelics are just like lifting weights.
I feel like the goal is to push how deep you can go into the psychedelic experience.
I see it as weights now, Death weights. and we lift them and the higher the dose, the heavier the impact on you and the stronger the will you have to have to get through the experience.
I see it as no pain no gain.
I want to be able to apply this will in all aspects and interests in my life.
I wonder if there is a type of enlightenment or reward at the end of this, just as there is bodybuilding.
Would this be will building?
Makin' some Will gainz??
And how far can you take it without going completely mad or overdosing.
and i'm not sure how much of lets say pharmahuasca you can take before the dose becomes lethal if there is even an LD50 for DMT. Someone should tell those Monk's in thailand they don't have to self immolate and lose their physical bodies, they can just do it with outrageously high DMT doses.
But i think my goal is now to push how high of a dose i can tolerate just to see what is on the other side of complete dedication to the craft of tripping.
Even jack black said it.
"To be the best you have to pass the test, you have to make it all the way to the top of the mountain."
And yeah i know i'm crazy obviously haha
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SleepyE said: Hey guys! Since i have work off tomorrow i figure i'd treat myself to a good 4-aco-dmt trip.
Nothing too crazy probably about 30-40mg snorted. I have some mxp that i may or may not dip into.. certainly not at high oral doses. the more i do that the more terrifying the body sensations are.
like my dad was driving me to the chiropractor while i was fucked up on it and i felt like my body was absorbing all the density of the things around me like cars and it made me feel really heavy and this scary panicky feeling im not used to. I quickly told myself there is no dying and i rationalized it as its all an illusion and im in some sort of level editor for video games. That kind of atmosphere settles my panic because its just a modification in the physics, HDR lighting and whatnot. When ever i am tripping now my brain interprets the experience as a 3d modelling programming and its rendering a mod at the moment so there is nothing to worry about.
Anyways, im trying to build up the balls to push my Personal Best Dose with pharmahuasca. gotta hit that 350mg squat. 
The last trip i had scared the fucking shit out of me and im still too rattled and shook to go back, that shit was just too much. But fuck it im gonna train myself to push deeper. Somehow.
Wish me luck, if anyone is awake to read this haha
Goodnight either ways!
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SleepyE said: I wondered how people can go through their whole lives not chilling in hyperspace.
Like what do people do with their life.
honestly i went almost one year without psychedelics and i wanted to blow my fucking brains out.
Anyone else feel like life is massively shitty without hyperspace.
I sometimes feel like it would be best if there is no residue of reality left and my astral body can be forever ripped from my physical body and thrown in to the depths of hyperspace for an eternity.
Thats my light at the end of the tunnel right there.
you have to just keep pushing deeper and deeper though.
i'm more into infinite beauty side of it.
I'd marry it if i could.
i hold its importance above EVERYTHING. it is everything. i would die for it in a heartbeat.
In fact in heavy psychedelic trips i often find myself hoping i would just slip away and have hyperspace take me forever leaving my body and reality behind for good.
i fantasize about that alot the thought bring me great joy.
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SleepyE said: Description can only take you so far with conveying the ineffable. Art seems to be the closest translator that we have to explain this experience.
I want to finish my stuff but i have to get much better at the technical side of art before i will be brave enough to finish them up proper, and not have it look like shit, but i don't mind practicing alot to get to that point!  Tried painting before and it turn out massively shitty. I just need to find formal training so im looking on the internet for professional online painting courses. thank you for the kind words 
My trips and drawing of them were sort of proof to me of the Fibonacci nature of the universe. It's Truly as below so above and beyond. It resonated with me so much even my bank account pin is Fibonacci numbers 
every time someone would tell me otherwise and that the experience is meaningless and pointless and bad/negative/destructive and no useful information can be extracted i just look at my drawings and I remember that these people are in fact full of shit and that this experience is actually everything, infinite. It was my ace in the hole. 
I recognize it as God and my drawings held me in that belief making it impossible for people to stray me and convince me otherwise, although they almost got to me. but i blame my OCD for that... damn OCD.
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SleepyE said: Hey guys, 2 years ago i was looking out my window from my room and i saw a red glowing object in the sky, when i looked at it closer i felt like it was aware of me and then it flew waay closer to me until i could see pretty clearly. And from what i saw it was a saucer, unmistakably. What i find weird is that i have always been interested in aliens and always thought it would be cool to see a ufo or get abducted.
But when you believe you are actually being confronted by a legit one it causes outrageous anxiety and fear. when i saw the object moving closer my life was almost flashing before my eyes, i thought for sure i was about to get abducted and i was fucking terrified. horrible terror. i mean i would love to have first contact with an alien species from this dimension but based on how i responded to what i thought was real when i looked out my window, it probably would be a bad situation followed by a massive freak out.
But when i have contact with hyperspace entities, im perfectly okay with it.. weird. maybe im used to them. the ufo also could have been a manifestation of my subconscious desires aswell, cant rule that out.
i remember Bashar mentioning something about how alien ufo sightings and crop circles are a physical manifestation of our subconscious desire to explore more of our universe, or a symbol of our spiritual evolution. interesting perspective, or at least it resona
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Re: Chronicals of a DMT head [Re: SleepyE]
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SleepyE said: I posted this is The Psychedelic Experience because in my opinion there is no difference between 4-aco-dmt and psilocin experiential wise, as well as the fact 4-aco-dmt degrades into 4-aco-dmt.
Last few trips have been solely 4-aco-dmt or 4-aco-met without MAOI but i feel like i could benefit from a deeper journey.
tomorrow is friday so i will have to head down to my brothers apartment so it's not like im gonna have the opportunity to do anything productive tomorrow so a chaotic creative state of mind wont hurt for a day 
The dose is going to be 4g syrian rue and 40-50mg 4-aco-dmt probably 40mg. 50mg is just wasteful because doesnt add much to the intensity at that dose if maoi is included.
(I love having intense trips because usually i can get some really deep writing out of just explaining what happened in such a powerful ineffable moment. But i only write if its interesting but i'll tell you guys how it goes either way as i doubt this will blow my mind because 4-acohuasca is not nearly as serious of business as pharmahuasca.
Pharmahausca is just fucked up death-will challenging lol, badass but too intimidating to do often, im still scared to go back in, terrified actually. but sooner or later im gonna dose that 300mg DMT oral) 
Wish me luck guys!!
woah that was intense.
Thank God i did it though, i understand whats going on again. man, shills are fucking crazy how they are able to make me lose faith in what i know.
"But I've done the math enough to know the dangers of our second Guessing Doomed to crumble unless we grow, must strengthen our communication."
0 = undefined = infinite = -infinity And the deux Ex Machina is close.
In my trip everything in my room came alive and it was conscious. it was weird i started batting my head out of control like the exorcist girl. It felt like my head twisted all the way behind my neck,
and something really strange happened.
i started speaking in my gibberish glossolalia tongue again. Man shit kinda reminds me of harry potter with his siltherin tongue. ahah. I stopped doing it for a while because i felt embarrassed by it so i would hold it back in my trips but this trip was like nah, its tongue speaking time and i just went off.
Im so glad i had this trip its like weight being lifted off my shoulders. i understand again, but fuck i have to develop strategies to defend myself from demons making me forget.
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SleepyE said: Hey guys, im gonna have a pharmahuasca trip tonight at 200mg DMT and 4g rue.
i just swallowed the rue, its getting harder and harder for me to keep it down without vomitting it up but fortunately today i managed,
scaling the 200mg DMT right now>
wish me luck and good vibes 

slightly impure product tho, not terrible tho. should be pretty intense, i dont want to throw myself in burning territory just yet, more like an affirmation reminder.
yeah i use syrian rue mostly because i think of this as ritual and the ritual isnt complete if you dont have to swallow something vile.
man that 200mg was wayy more potent than i imagined, i guess just because its discolored doesnt mean its not potent as fuck. was sparkly and shiny but discolored by rootbark impurities
hell that trip was more intense than 200mg doses i have used of pure white/yellow crystal im starting to think dose is not much of a factor in high dose pharmahuasca, and you get whatever mother nature wants to dish out at you.
groundbreaking shit happened.
im gonna hit a bowl and start writing about it in detail..
man this is gonna be fun, i love doing this.
The theme was
the OBE part lasted probably an hour and then the comedown was like a massive mushroom dose for about 4-5 hours
but the OBE was overwhelmingly fucking terrifying yet thrilling. well most of the time i feel like im suffocating so i have to have very deep and controlled breaths like meditators do..
i used to feel like my body is dying from high doses but im so used to it i have developed a method to experience it without loosing control and cowarding in fear. i had the sensation of being a bug tided up in a web because my bedsheets were over my head because it was cold and i felt pressure pushing on my feet.
it felt like a freddy krueger nightmare. i saw something terrifying which i will write in the report and then it went straight will testing where everything was erased and it was like being thrown out in the middle of outspace,
how open the space was can off as terrifying yet exciting. only reason i was able to cope with it is because the thing that i saw scared the death out of me but i tried to face it and focus on what it looked like but it caused me pain to focus because it was so loud scary and terrifying.
oddly enough my mom said she doesnt like the "vibration" of my art and i took offense to that but they she said its like the pictures psychologist show to patients and ask them what they see in the pattern, because what they see is a reflection of what they are dealing with. my mom said it was dark and scary difficult to look at. and those were some of my neutral drawings with no darkness.
but they said its the psychology pattern recognition thing that bothering her. apparently it has nothing to do with my talent because someone who is not facing demons will find it beautiful because they see beauty in the psychology tests.
psychedelics are cool because your demons seem to manifest into "REAL" monsters which will end up giving you a taste of your own medicine what ever that might be.
huge ironies are about to take place or have always been.
i feel like my mom doesnt support anything i do, she always has some back handed compliment that not really even a compliment and discourages stuff i do like my body building, drawing, psychonaut endeavors, piano. wearing clothing that she considers "dark" its kind of hurtful. If i own anything she considers dark she throws it out.
i was drawing my demons out a year ago, and she sought out to find every drawing i made and burn it or throw it out.
it just feels awful.. i felt raped.
its all the work of the devil to her.
i showed her alex grey artwork and she said it was demonic.
she doesnt like any colour except white and seeks to destroy anything else.
i dont want to be like her thats always a big fear of mine.
i made it a goal to find beauty in darkness but she thinks all darkness and colour should be destroyed and erased so that she is comfortable.
and she threw out my tool alex grey t-shirt 
i think my drawings are rape on paper to be honest 
her philosophy is to hide from every single thing she thinks is a demon but with her she goes over-board where she just destroys and rapes everyone around her because she doesnt want anyone to face their demons.
all of her efforts to stay pure made her the most destructive and hurtful of anyone.
how does she not see that.
i see it in my own fucking life for god sakes
is this modern Christianity fear mongering effecting all of the sheep this way?
why dont they just drop the bullshit philosophy that you must fear everything and basically don't move a fucking muscle otherwise you might move it in a satanic way 
does that have ANYTHING to do with what jesus original taught?
fuck no.
jesus was all about overcoming fear.
staring that monster in the face and laughing at it, and then drawing some sick as doodle as a trophy for facing it.!
i think its her who is possessed by the devil to be honest.
all she ever does is take away. just a big fat minus sign.
its weird like my mom can be very profound, she was when i was younger.
and then she had a strong christ affinity and then she started attending some evengel church and i guess that fucked her brain up even more to respond to dark things like that.
i keep trying to explain to her that darkness is just polarity you need good and evil otherwise you have disequilibrium.
too much of anything is no good because if you deny the darkness its going to get mad that you ignore it and then its going to haunt you like what is happening with her.
she says shes battling demons and telling me its my fault and that im conjuring them up because apparently im the spawn of satan.
she doesnt realize that avoiding the darkness the way she does is just making the beast angrier and angrier.
she is complaining about (sleep paralyze?) saying she is attacked by demons but she manifested those into existence and she doesnt get that.
she doesnt want to watch horror movies which TEACH you how to fight these monsters like stephen king "IT" for example.
once you stand up to it, it backs down..
and i have an interesting story that relates to what im talking about here that was inspired by what i experienced in my pharmahuasca journey.
this experience was probably as intense was smoking 100mg
smoked dmt at anything below 40-50mg is usually a pleasent somewhat unchallenging experience.
but beyond that is fuck no.
the rule of thumb for pharmahuasca apparently is 1mg/1lb body weight thats the maximum you should take.
and when i was experimenting i didnt listen and my first dose was 150mg and then the second was like 300mg and i was like oh shit there is DEFINITELY a fucking difference between 150mg and 300mg ill tell ya hwhat 
"A mind that is stretched by a new experience can never go back to its old dimensions"
im aware, i know not to poke the bear, i sort of now just feed her ideas when shes in a state of calmness because she is most receptive that way, im trying to make her come to that conclusion on her own so i know not to push her. sort of like inception.
and christianity is an odd game.
im sure there are people in the church who have achieved enlightenment and know the truth about christianity.
christianity in my eyes is an operating system that will make you more likely to understand the real flow of electrons, from negative(ground) to positive(the cross)
symbolically christianity is very good because it makes you more likely to want to survive if you believe a higher power has a plan for you, the higher power in my eyes is the over mind, so the sum of all human consciousness and intelligence but the lies and the kinks in christianity just poison the bath water and people tend to just throw the whole baby out including the idea of God. which i think isnt fair.
i had problems with christianity and jesus because of these things and was skeptical but then i thought, it would be neat as a story to interpret christianity into something that i find ideal and morally right and jesus in that case would be an illusionist or magician and comedian and philosopher.
jesus would have to have been novelty, the most advanced genetically,
and someone who is highly advanced would not advocate what must modern christians do.
fearing god/darkness, believing intuition is bad.
The best analogy i can give of high dose pharmahuasca is imagine you are doing 225lb squats and you are only going for 8 reps and then something makes you keep going after failure for another 8 and you feel your hole body become overwhelmed by the pressure and impossibility of intensity, and you just embrace the pain as "the road to awe" it is a complete tearing from your original dimensions into a higher level of tolerance. im guessing people tend to panic at this stage, i always almost loose myself to it.
i actually you this theory to try to go for "The Transcendent Rep" on squats 
pharmahuasca high dosing is like the ultimate transcendence rep thats going to happen whether you can do it or not.
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SleepyE said: This is my trip report continued.
i started it on this new thread because it was a few days ago and i like things fresh 
The initial information was here: http://www.shroomery.org/forums/showflat.php/Number/21055138#21055138
Here is a more detailed look into what happen on that trip.
First off, i felt an uncomfortable cold coming from the window as i was laying on my bed, this compelled me to put my bedsheets over my head as the trip started to come on. Soon after i felt what appeared to be difficulty breathing, usually when this happens as i said i start taking deep controlled and focused breaths like meditators and a brace for high speed like a roller coaster.
Right away i was in a semi lucid/out of body type state but still was attached to my physical body with a spiritual umbilical cord. Things quickly took a dark turn and i had a vision of a clown type entity that had the characteristics of Freddy Kruger and he was haunting my deem dream.
my bedsheets felt like they lost dimensionality and i felt an outside force perhaps coming from outside the blanks pushing my feet together,
this caused a little bit of fear because i envisioned myself being tided up in a web. This was only a test for what was to come next. I felt as if i dropped down a tunnel and went from half conscious half out of body to being completely out of body but i was not in hyperspace instead it was just blackness and a door; and the door opened and at first there was nothing, but what emerged from the shadows shocked me at first with fear.
The feeling of first breaking through and staring into this entity from another world struck my mind, its representation and movement, the way it dances and liquids forward juggling parts of itself like a confused deranged circus performer.
Something about this creature was so eery, it had a consistence and pliability of clay with smooth edges and where parts of itself would shuffle it exposed what appeared to be an abyss of blackness not unlike blackholes. Such a since causes disturbed feelings inside perhaps even as a defense mechanism.
this entity was from hyperspace, its violent in-your-face complex moving sensory overloading nature was a dead give away only the overload was not sheer awe it was complete terror, which perhaps is still awe in retrospect. This being represented lies, control, but it came off as a jester, just with terrible intentions. I tried to face it and stare into it like i do with every entity but it caused me distress to do this i could not focus, it would get to intense and scary. While it was juggling with what looked like white piano gloves out came three symbols that i could not quite focus enough on. This think came off as a juggernaut or a behemoth.
Immediately it felt as if i was on the holodeck in star trek and somebody just turned the safety off(meaning you can get hurt physically) and then michael shermers quote in his patterns of self deception video popped into my head and it said "is it a dangerous predator or just the wind."

i started to panic a little and i thought oh fuck i think i took it too far and actually conjured up something real so i was in a state similar to when you encounter a bully in real life.
my thoughts went blank and i was just focusing on any instinctual think that would keep me safe from this experience and ideas start popping into my head like project love like its a dangerous animal that can pick up on my every thought. This kept it at bay and then all the sudden my vision flashed like deja vu resonating through me and i saw myself stating in front of tanks and i realized it most be a clairvoyant flashback of The Tienanmen Square protests of 1989

I notice i rise above the entity and it is no longer able to touch me and relief washes over me like liquid trophies. I feel as if i beat the demon with love.
Suddenly the ground rips away like black and white checkered patterns and it leaves a galaxy or universe exposed with me in the center, it went on for an eternal and it was just vast open space.
i could see galaxy clusters and planets.
Everything after this was pretty much a black out and then i wake up back in my room feeling like im LOADED on mushrooms and i start speaking gibberish for a few hours and acting crazy but calm.
i usually have a lot of energy so my body ends up habitually ex-spelling it through liquid hand movements.(rave stuff )
Thats about it.
thanks for listening guys 
 

I remember 2 years ago when i was having all these visions of something i had to do.
when i smoked DMT at my buddies house it was like i heard that diablo 2 game sound when you reach another level,
*Reference sound mentioned at 1:27 minutes
EDIT: oh woah seems a similar sound is featured in my favorite "Florence and the machine" song "cosmic love" at 1:14 minutes sweet
but it felt like someone hacked my level to lvl 99 and it was just maxed and i imagined a king crown appearing on my head at the same time the sound happened.
all fear, all attachment gone for good.
i felt like a complete God.
the visions were so complex and intense it became extremely basic and it was like i had full control over what i could create in my head.
I really feel like all this will be worth it if only i could just have that.
someone max me out to lvl 99 so i can just nodd off in hyperspace forever and live in my creations 

ahh a girl can dream 
hmm maybe im supposed to help rush everyone passed act 1-5 on hell difficultly
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SleepyE said: hey guys, i have this crystal/bark DMT that i pulled so i gauge the potency at 66% or so, so like i tried 150mg in pharmahuasca 2 or 3 days ago and it was more like 100mg.
so im going to see what 200mg of this stuff will do, wish me luck 
il report back on my findings.
tonight my dose is 200mg dmt IMPURE, and 3.8g syrian rue
Bahh didnt quite reach hyperspace.. id rate that trip still at 100mg. Great experience but my mind is far from blown oh well, looks like i dont get to meet alien friends this time around.
Something strange happens sometimes when i dose pharma, i can only describe it as a mini sezuire or something, my hole body will start shaking uncontrolably and almost vigorously and il basically be paralyzed but i usually just ride it out. When it first happened to me i was a little alarmed but now im used to it
no, i havent.
its more like an extremely intense deep shiver that pretty much possesses my body and i cant move very well until it passes, usually lasts 10 mins.
i wonder if anyone can chime in on what cause this response.
seems to only happen with maoi usage.
could it be serotonin syndrome?
aha perhaps my body temperature just drops dramatically cause my body it get extremely cold for a while despite my many blankets
the shivers dont bother me exactly i was just curious if there was medical dangers from that happening to my body. im used to it so its not that much of a problem for me.
i was just worried that could escalate to something a little more serious.
its odd, my extracted harmalas never worked with pharmahuascsa, it would be glowing like fuck in an acidic solution but when i swallow it nothing 
im guessing the potency wasnt enough because i did a freebase conversion with the harmalas so maybe that diluted the potency.
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SleepyE said: Hey guys, i have been watching terence mckenna DMT videos and it has crossed my mind that his elves and gnomes comparison might have been a spoof on the munchkins in the wizard of Oz
Listen from 5:00 minutes. then fucking watch this scene from The Wizard of Oz.
Coincidence? 
You even get your certification of Death via Ego death
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SleepyE said: I think its coming along.
its safe to say im a little bit confused though. 
Pandoras box

Sanity is a small box, insanity is everything. - Charles Manson
people stay in their box because its what they know and its order. therefore sanity. once you step out, you come into chaos and madness and insanity i.e something that is unknown to you. therefore at this time that its unknown you feel vulnerable and scared.
once you establish order in the unknown territory and build a home there it then becomes sanity because you know it inside and out. that's what happened to me. i was in the psychedelic wilderness for so long i ended up marrying and building a family there metaphorically speaking so i know the in's and out's to it so i deem it a safe zone.
the psychedelic experience which was once madness and unknown to me is now normal to me and i seek refuge there. its a polarity shift based on how often you push barriers and establish comfort in what you previously felt was discomfort or threatening.
 *this shows the motion of this cycle, to jump into new territory and stay there until that new territory comes full circle and becomes safe for you, and then you jump to what was previously safe for you but now its unsafe because it threatens the knowledge you obtained from your first exploration. at least thats been my experience/observation.
so yeahh i think that works ..
So, energy is constantly in motion so now i have to step out of my psychedelic safe zone and integrate back into society which i now deem as unsafe because i like my psychedelic reality wayyy more and people in society try to break it down with negativity, so i was insecure about being able to defend my own point of view because im extremely ocd.
some people in society think im crazy. and i think the some people in society are crazy. mostly westerners. 
my madness state is order and sane for me but disordered and chaotic to some of society. and societies sanity is ordered to them but disorder and chaos to me. i mean just look at the state our world is in.
our values are messed up.
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fucking scary shit
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SleepyE said: Hey guys, i feel its a good time to attempt a hyperspace journey.
i am going to keep a piece of paper on me so if i see something i might be able to draft i can do it straight away.
i will write up a report as well cataloging what is happening.
wish me luck!
just building up the courage.
im going to be using a bong so i think 50-60mg should be sufficient.

Back, okay,
so i smoked ~17mg of impure dmt goop to test the waters. its somewhat less potent than crystal id say.
then i put ~62mg of the impure dmt Goop sandwiched with weedshake, i burned probably 70-80% of it and some didnt get lit and i had a semi breakthrough. Now usually i know i have broken through when i reach this type of hub that i keep coming back to. Usually inside the room or hub i feel as if my skin is about the shed from my body. I didnt quite reach that singularity.
It is usually a ascension to that room and i could feel myself rising but it plateaued in a familiar yet wildly strange dimension.
 the weird transporter pad thing to the right is something i ALWAYS see or it stands out, i dont know what it is but it gives me weird vibes.
Now this place is really strange, this is just a snap shot of multiple states its shifts through, one minute it looks really high tech and solid but it then breaks up into bloated balloon like pieces and then folds in on eachother, There are pathways leading to different folds.
It reminds me TOO much like the inside of the enterprise if it was decked out hyperspace style with alien symbols and patterning and folding on itself and made of entities.
 It shows me a tour around the ship in the same manner everytime i see it, ass if im moving from left to right but also ascending upwards. it feels as if a force is pushing my down or stopping me from ascending and i always feel like the ship or entities that make up the ship are looking and pressing down on me to stop me from breaking through. its like a pile of enemies have pounced you and you are trying to explode out of it.
While i was shifting through this room i was asking it a question on how to proceed and get to a good place in life and it seems to be relaying the same message. go to school/learn!!
the ship was saying learn and you can manifest your wants and control and understand this altered experience and my experience of normal people reality. The ship faded into normal cev/weak hyperspace tunneling patterning which dissipated quickly.
And my condition psychologically has improved, i feel like it would have been improved even more if a broke thru but this is easily enough breathing room for now
yeah, it was just an immersive internal experience but if i opened my eyes id probably still be here.
its not like a full knockout breakthrough where you have no body or eyes.
if it was 60mg of crystal i would have been knocked out sorta but it was just goop.
still a pretty humbling experience, im glad i drew my sketch. i think i might elaborate on it.
Definitely colourful and circus like
smoked DMT and pharmahuasca are in a league of their own above all other psychedelics in my opinion.
-------------------- My Drawingzz Draw DMT!
   Trip Report: SHROOMS DMT---- My Youtube Psychedelic Channel
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HHHHHHOOOOOOLLLLLYYYYY SSSSSSHHHHHIIIIIITTTTT [Re: SleepyE]
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I did DMT. I am admitting now, I FUCKED UP. I am tripping harder than a fat kid trying double dutch. First, let me say, anyone that smokes DMT, and doesn't do so with the use of a Quarts bucket; you're not living right. (also a great tool for doing Crystal Meth). Secondly, anyone who recommended using my "crack" style meth pipe, Go eat a dick. because i'm now in the middle of the plight of having a dirty meth pipe. some of you will know how frustrating this can be. As far as what I have to say about my trip...I'm not sure I can put it into words. I just ended up seeing a lot of visuals, and it all finished when I endured the hallucination of Creampieing my own Mother. Other than nutting in my mothers cervix, the trip was awesome. Actually, scratch that, that part wasn't bad either. Two Thumbs up to DMT. TRY THIS SHIT.
PS: Sigmund Freud was right....BEWARE!!!!
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Re: HHHHHHOOOOOOLLLLLYYYYY SSSSSSHHHHHIIIIIITTTTT [Re: CREX26]
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CREX26 said: I did DMT. I am admitting now, I FUCKED UP. I am tripping harder than a fat kid trying double dutch. First, let me say, anyone that smokes DMT, and doesn't do so with the use of a Quarts bucket; you're not living right. (also a great tool for doing Crystal Meth). Secondly, anyone who recommended using my "crack" style meth pipe, Go eat a dick. because i'm now in the middle of the plight of having a dirty meth pipe. some of you will know how frustrating this can be. As far as what I have to say about my trip...I'm not sure I can put it into words. I just ended up seeing a lot of visuals, and it all finished when I endured the hallucination of Creampieing my own Mother. Other than nutting in my mothers cervix, the trip was awesome. Actually, scratch that, that part wasn't bad either. Two Thumbs up to DMT. TRY THIS SHIT.
PS: Sigmund Freud was right....BEWARE!!!!

I don't believe this or you need to smoke way more.
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Re: Chronicles of a DMT head [Re: SleepyE]
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So of course like a child as soon as I made a bit of this I tried almost all of it in a couple weeks. Smoked off foil with a straw this really helps gauge how much to do. The foil starts looking super wrinkly take two more good sized hits and blast off. Anyways what I've found on my 7 or 8th trip in about a week and a half is that I started feeling welcomed every time till then. On maybe the 6th or 7th real break through trip I found myself being asked if I would allow existence to no longer exist. I went through the explanation that people aren't completely terrible and they should be allowed to continue. Why I explained this like I was another being other than human is beyond me. I do not ever feel human on this stuff. Also I tend to go to a clown type universe anymore and thats the one that feels dark and unwelcoming. The unwelcoming feeling is intense anger directed towards me. Like I'm being hated. I would like to think I don't hate myself and that if this truly is a delve into our subconscious when we trip why is it when I land in clown town(we can call it that) that I feel so unwanted. Also trying to trip with my eyes open on this was insane I mean insane. Way more intense when you blast off. Anyways the anger directed at me has been so intense I almost don't want to trip for awhile. I'll still grow shrooms and make DMT but as far as doing them I'm not sure if I want to anymore for at least awhile. Any advice would be nice guys. I've probably tripped about 15 times in the past 2 months so idk maybe I'm pushing it a bit too much. Also I didn't start tripping till about 2 years ago and only did it frequently recently
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