Hi Last night I tripped with Salvia and I experienced a very strange thing, something that shattered my whole being. I have tripped 10 times with mushrooms and 2 times with Salvia before, but yesterday was incomparable ! I really want to share it now.
So, I had dinner, watched a comedy on TV, read some posts here in the shroomery about Salvia and mushrooms, and decided that tonight is the night I will trip with Salvia. I was planning a Salvia trip since several weeks, just "waiting for the right moment" and that night was it. I had not smoked weed or drunk alcohol the day before, so I felt my mind clear and ready for a trip.
I prepared my room, darkened it, switched off my phone, lit some candles, and choose a nice ambient music to play very softly - Aphex Twin selected ambient works. I closed my eyes and tried to meditate during the first song, Xtal, and when the second track began I lighted my bong, which I had stuffed with 200mg Salvia 5x.
And than it began. At the end of the first toke I felt a push on my body, I somehow felt that I should toke one more time, I did, and suddenly I was not myself in my room anymore!
I was a part of an organizm, or a group of creatures, we were somehow connected. I felt I was sent to this world, to do something, but now I was returning to my origins. Like everything before has been an illusion , a dream, and now I had awakened from it. The others somehow told me that this was who I truly was, and everything else was not real. I was really a part of a symbiotic creature, I even felt my body was in a new form, like the new borders of my body were pressing it. Everything I was in our world was just a function of who I was here, my real being.
I became a "bit" scared, some part of me remembered our world and was afraid that I will never return to it, or i will return changed forever and insane. But than I somehow heard the music playing, and it reminded me that I was in my room, under the effects of a potent drug, and this was somehow temporary. Than the weird reality ended and I opened my eyes(i don't know if what I felt was seen by me, or just felt by me, the point is it was like real) and was in my room again.
Was this breaking through on Salvia? I somehow expected tunnels in the walls and new dimensions , the Green Goddess, and caleidoscopic colors. I have read trip reports where people turned into objects, but I turned into a living thing, made of several entitites, is this the same? I later decided that it depends on the personality, I am almost 23 and I am not the dreamer i was several years ago, for good or bad :-(), and I don't know if I believe anymore in spirit world and god...
I looked at my computer, and realized that just 12 minutes have passed, though it felt much much more. I began to come back to my senses , and return to my normal personality. I noticed that the music had been integral to my exerience, at the peak of the trip the beat was interacting with my body and almost shaping it. The music was like a wall, or rather it formed my body.
I was now thinking clearly, I felt my mind has never been more objective and accurate. I read in other trip reports of such afterglow effect of clarity of the mind. I began to analyze what had just happened. Had I had contact with alien entities? There was really something besides me there, many things actually! Or was there?
My rational mind tried to explain things. I decided that what I felt was not an alien world, but a very very different view of myself, of the different parts of my personality, a view that I had completely forgoten until now. Myself in the alien world was my ego here, and the other entities were other parts of my mind. Does those sound valid to u, or should I look for sense at all in the Salvia world?
I normally live my life, in the illusion of the world, and this illusion is necessary to survive and interact with other people. However, sometimes this illusion makes us forget some things and clouds us. So such a trip is a beneficial influence, even if it scares u for a while. Maybe everything is an illusion, or rather a valid viewpoint, of reality, which is one for all of us. But it is somehow very difficult to convey such inner feelings and realities with crude forms of communication like human language, so we, people, forget that which we don't seee everyday.
Salvia somehow made me look outside of life, step out of everything, outside of myself. That night I thought how I could use this in a positive way, to see how I could change myself for the better. I had in my mind the issues that have bothered me recently, the things in myself that prevent me from doing better. For example, I thought I should work harder for my career, and I really want to succeed. And i somehow understood that because i am focused on my personality and how to improve it, that's why my trip was centered around my being.
I was returning to the world, or going back to it, gradually becoming completely sober. This world is an that it is an interaction with other people like myself, and I felt that now I should make the choices I want to change my personality and life for the better(the real life, like job, love, friends, etc.) . And i felt that having the right attitude and mind and ideas is very important, but actually only the actions I will take as a result of these thoughts can change the world and my life in it repsectively.
I felt that right now I feel things differently, and I will forget them soon , so I wrote down some of the thoughts i had . I don't want to forget again, I want to change for the better!
Today I feel happy and relaxed :-)) I went to work and now I am writing this post, wanting to share my experience and looking for someone who will say "I understand u man". Isn't it great to have such a forum :-))
I am really looking for your comments of the mystery that is Salvia. Thanks for your attention, peace and love to u all
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