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 shaggy101
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 Good people click here 
#2139680 - 11/27/03 03:43 AM (20 years, 4 months ago) |
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eh..stop me
16 X 8
simple?
oz to issues she says..she
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 Re: Good people click here [Re: shaggy101]
#2139692 - 11/27/03 03:58 AM (20 years, 4 months ago) |
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okayyy... 
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shaggy101
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Re: Good people click here [Re: shaggy101]
#2139696 - 11/27/03 04:01 AM (20 years, 4 months ago) |
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lead and iron ..
should I really delve . Fuck no. spare your perfection >/>?<>
16x8
Can u taste it?
doesnt matter ..to much
to liittle 
goodbye
beste of wishes on tnhe falsety stop now before the whore fights back.. I remeber Dally getting cut by a tramp?" male orfemale ?? it didnt matter but still he choose and lost......I am sure it was because of her ..yet like Jimmy Buffet Said its my own damn fdault..doesnt change
sweet numbers
proof is proven
7x3
16x8
lead and iron
never let them stay( )
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Re: Good people click here [Re: shaggy101]
#2139715 - 11/27/03 04:41 AM (20 years, 4 months ago) |
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ok.... and what substance have u taken ??
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shaggy101
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I wish buddy ..oh god how I wish that was still a variable
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bigfatdork
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Re: Good people click here [Re: shaggy101]
#2139748 - 11/27/03 06:01 AM (20 years, 4 months ago) |
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and if the SU
(dying with every spark
and the lingering of life)N.
Black spots,
reaching fingertips of god,
(melt my wings and hotter still
(pleasant, the first lance of pain
as a newborn takes a breath
or cries in deadly silence) with faith
to plummet, now turn to face the light
the true test of illusion) as
if you were the sun,
...and so your sun winks out, and still you burn.
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"But it was alright, he had won the battle against himself, He Loved Big Brother"
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bigfatdork
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Re: Good people click here [Re: bigfatdork]
#2139750 - 11/27/03 06:03 AM (20 years, 4 months ago) |
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or could you mean...
When the point
first ( wholly certain
Bursts the color of alarm
Turn) shocks the vibrance whirls
sheep eyed glances
forcing flame from dull acceptance
(look of shock to child : Cry) > (the poor seep
or river of an ocean flood) Then
Heat mount and splinter fester
(the leaf go round again
and caring not much for the wind but
(love being love and known for conquering all things
(for sure he is an honorable man
as
are
they
all...)))
bringing forth terrible fury to that which did Impale
Goes ( the homespun tattered cross
Leads the hordes of steaming masses)
now to face( ripping black hardened
(with the curly brown smile laden) evil
and in a flurry of hair and reddened pavement-
stands now sate
smelling of the wind
remembers ( sticky words and healing)
Amputated Lust
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"But it was alright, he had won the battle against himself, He Loved Big Brother"
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Re: Good people click here [Re: shaggy101]
#2140013 - 11/27/03 10:23 AM (20 years, 4 months ago) |
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*gives you a hug*
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I would rather have had one breath of her hair, one kiss from her mouth, one touch of her hand, than eternity without it. One.
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To love is to admire with the heart; to admire is to love with the mind. - Th?ophile Gautier.
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Re: Good people click here [Re: sykobish]
#2141603 - 11/28/03 02:30 AM (20 years, 4 months ago) |
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shaggy101
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Re: Good people click here [Re: shaggy101]
#2141614 - 11/28/03 02:49 AM (20 years, 4 months ago) |
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I really dont know what half of that stuff meant.. I shouldnt drink so much and post
I know what lead and Iron meant though, I have a feeling it is going to intergrate into a song soon.
lead is bullets
and iron is blood
I hate being this way, but I have to deal..alone?
I dont think I can open up, its really hard even to do it here anonymous.
When the misery takes control the passion is all directed wrong sooo wrong..and it isnt me but it is very real.
I may kill myself.
I have to face this, it is the only way to stop it from happening..A huge part of me is sure it is hopeless..the part of me fighting is getting weaker, and I am losing the battle every day
I am stupid to. I quit smoking 12 days ago.
I needed to.. I feel terrible all the time, like I need something
cold beer,work and mental stimulation are what I am "using"
its funny I thought tonight I am 21 I started smoking when I was 9, I am trying to quit something I have done for more then half my life.
Bigfatdork I really liked that stuff you wrote.. did you just write it?
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MorbidHamster
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Re: Good people click here [Re: shaggy101]
#2141661 - 11/28/03 05:11 AM (20 years, 4 months ago) |
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I seriously wouldnt go killing yourself mate, it'll do more harm than good. What's wrong mate? If you need to talk just pm me, im some random person from the world and if you feel you cant open up in a public forum you can do it private if it helps. Im guessing you got screwed over by a lady? Thats about all i can make out about now... 
+peace+
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bigfatdork
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Re: Good people click here [Re: shaggy101]
#2141833 - 11/28/03 09:02 AM (20 years, 4 months ago) |
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Quote:
shaggy101 said:
Bigfatdork I really liked that stuff you wrote.. did you just write it?
I wrote it some time ago when I was playing around with the experemental side of poetry. Most didn't get it, but I thought in your state of mind you just might, and it did seem to apply (as far as I could tell) to your jumbeled post.
Glad you liked it.
BTW "and if the SU
(dying with every spark
and the lingering of life)N."
=
And is the sun also meant/held/was looked at as, dying with every spark and the lingering of life
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"But it was alright, he had won the battle against himself, He Loved Big Brother"
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shaggy101
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Yes it is about a girl I was seeing. Its hard to say that though I am not stable and I always have had trouble with my mind and "emotions"
Its wierd because with her I feel I am the king of the world, everthing is great I love being me, but without her I want to die?
I dont understand it yet thats how I feel...I hate feeling.
I called her last night and we talked for like 2 hours(like we used) it was nice on a frienship level, but I said some kinda cold things to her, which seemed to intrigue her, and she sent me some wierd signs..
One thing that kinda bugged me was she said she needs a boyfriend.. when itw as only a few weeks ago she broke things off with me because she wanted to be single.
I think she does want to be back with me, but I also know she is afraid of me
That hurts almost more then being rejected..I would never hurt her
these next few weeks are going to be crazy.
If she wants a boyfriend, she will have one soon, and I might still have a chance..
I might need some help from you guys to keep me in a good state of mental health.
with quiting smoking on top of this I am really doing bad..my blood is boiling.
I really dont want to lose this time, does anyone have any advice?
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Re: Good people click here [Re: shaggy101]
#2145956 - 11/30/03 04:17 AM (20 years, 4 months ago) |
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Hey man. Advice? Not sure but heres my thoughts anyways. I agree "feeling" can suck. I find if I can somehow deal with something in my mind, some issue, come to terms with it I can throw it out and move on to the next. Eventually your head becomes cleaner. You seem very artistic/intellectual? Get your shit out! Write write and write some more if thats your thing. Seperate real from fantasy but let it flow. As for the girl, dont know either of you but go for it. She makes you feel good so she is probably good for you. Keep her in the loop of your head somewhat, let her know when your up and down and have her help you keep up. Nothing wrong with help. I wouldnt be here if it werent for my woman. So what if that makes some think Im weak, Im happyish and thats all I care about(well I do care about others too, but you know what I mean?)
Well if that made no sense or doesnt apply to you sorry, I do wish you the best. Peace
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Re: Good people click here [Re: shaggy101]
#2146306 - 11/30/03 09:59 AM (20 years, 4 months ago) |
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It sounds to me like you may be too dependent on this person for your happiness.
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shaggy101
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Re: Good people click here [Re: ponyboy7000]
#2147139 - 11/30/03 03:49 PM (20 years, 4 months ago) |
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ponyboy that is good advice, I am going to think about what you said in that first paragraph somemore.
adrug, that is exactly right, but what do I do about it?
I am making myself be happy on my own, but deep down I know the real reason I am doing that and not just leeting myself sink is for her..which I guess defeats the point
I half to go, I am having post thanksgiving dinner with my group of old friends, before dinner I am going to jam with my band 
one of my favorite things to do!
I am so lucky, I dont have the right to feel this low
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Re: Good people click here [Re: shaggy101]
#2147187 - 11/30/03 04:01 PM (20 years, 4 months ago) |
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You probably aren't going to like this answer, but separate yourself from her for awhile. Completely. It sounds like you're just hanging on to the old happiness and she's letting you. That can't be good for you. May I ask why you said she is "afraid" of you? What is she afraid of?
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sykobish
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Re: Good people click here [Re: shaggy101]
#2149822 - 12/01/03 03:41 PM (20 years, 4 months ago) |
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Sweetheart, don't you go doing anything drastic. I would be very upset if you stopped coming around here for some reason.
I agree with adrug about how you should separate yourself from her. There are many things that make you happy. You mentioned jamming with your band. You are blinded by love and so caught up in her that you think she is the only thing in your world. Step back and look around you. Your friends, your band, anything else that brings a smile to your face and makes you happy. There's other things, not just her. But you need to take the blinders off in order to see it.
I wish you luck in getting her back. I hope things work out for you. But please, keep in mind, that if it doesn't it's not the end of the world. Remember the good times. Be friends if it's possible. But keep in mind that you are a great guy and some girl out there would love to share her life with you. Everything happens for a reason. You can't grow as a human being if you don't experience life. Which includes good times and bad times..
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I would rather have had one breath of her hair, one kiss from her mouth, one touch of her hand, than eternity without it. One.
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*-_Thread_Jacker_-*
To love is to admire with the heart; to admire is to love with the mind. - Th?ophile Gautier.
Seek not every quality in one individual - Confucius.
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