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psychedelicarl
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LSD trip report (first bad trip)
#9455836 - 12/18/08 12:25 PM (15 years, 2 months ago) |
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Last week I happened across some good lucy for the first time in almost a year. I could only get like a 5 strip (probably about 250mic total judging from the strengt of the trip) so I wanted to plan out my whole trip with a non-chronological to do list. On it were things that Ive always wanted to do tripping but have never really had the chance (watch a few videos, take a shower, go into the woods with a boombox and drawing utilities etc.) I had the day off work and no one was going to be around so I was looking forward to a very introspective day. The plan was to wake up at 9am, dose, then go back to sleep until the trip woke me up...
9-ish am, wake up and dose. At this point Im just too fucking excited and theres no way I can sleep so I play mirrors edge for about an hour until it starts to become tedious and I realize I must be tripping. I go for a short walk outside and decide to start off my list with a joint and then a shower (which was less amazing then I thought, but enjoyable nonetheless -I plan to retry at a higher dose later.)
Next I watch a few videos and listen to a few specific songs I had been writing down for the occasion. I surf you tube for a few minutes and end up on a screamer video advertised as a "really cool illusion" Ya fuck off.. The screamer sends my trip in a bad direction so I put on Anoushka Shankar radio and try to relax.
For the next hour or so I just listen to music while drawing and writing a few things. Im just getting ready to move the production outside when I get a call from my dad...
He tells me that he needs me to pick up his truck and take it into the shop. I didnt want to, but I didnt really see any way out of it other than saying "But papa Im tripping at the moment do not even ask me to drive your truck," and my dad probably wouldnt be too cool with that, and anyways it was an excuse to go for a drive which I enjoy very much on lsd.
So I go get his truck and drive to the shop, tis is when things get weird. Ive never really tripped around people who didnt know and accept that I was tripping before and I really underestimated the awkward tension/difficulty of trying to converse with a sober stranger. To make a long story short I sound like Im half retarded talking to the mechanic which sends me into a paranoid restless state.
Now I have to sit in a waiting room while I wait on the truck. For a little over an hour I sit in a room with only one other person and listen to some music with my headphones in. I drift in and out of the trip at this point, at times the feeling of paranoia is so strong that it completely pulls me away from the body high and visuals. Then after another difficult conversation I get in the truck and leave. When Im on the road I check my phone to see that I missed 3 calls while sitting in the waiting room with my headphones in (phone was on full volume) the fact that this happened with other people in the room really bothers me for some reason.
I get home and do some trials unicycling for a bit and spend the remainder of the day on my porch listening to music and painting <-that picture.
At the end of the day I feel like too much of my trip was wasted on my unforeseen task which makes me feel sad/defeated. It seems silly to me now only a day later that an internet video and a waiting room could send me into such a bad place, but at the end of the day yesterday I was ready to break down and start crying. But I think that probably has a bit to do with the fact that the chance to trip is rare for me so its a defeating feeling knowing that I couldnt realize my hopes for the trip.
...maybe I just expected too much from this trip.
...and maybe next time I get a chance to trip Im going to fake an illness starting a day or so in advance (=
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Re: LSD trip report (first bad trip) [Re: psychedelicarl]
#9455862 - 12/18/08 12:30 PM (15 years, 2 months ago) |
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That sounds like a pretty cool story.
I always like running into difficult circumstances while tripping. I feel like I've accomplished something having made it through it, and even though shit like that is trivial when sober it still helps immensely dealing with anxiety, social interactions, etc. in day to day life.
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Re: LSD trip report (first bad trip) [Re: psychedelicarl]
#9455880 - 12/18/08 12:32 PM (15 years, 2 months ago) |
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" I surf you tube for a few minutes and end up on a screamer video advertised as a "really cool illusion" Ya fuck off.. "
oh dude thats teerrible! i mean it sounds kinda funny cuz im sure most of us know how scary that can be, but it totally sucks you had to go through that tripping!
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Re: LSD trip report (first bad trip) [Re: krypto2000]
#9455898 - 12/18/08 12:34 PM (15 years, 2 months ago) |
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You make a good point. My experience yesterday really changed the way I go about my everyday tasks now, I guess I don't really take my ability to communicate for granted any more.
I had to go back to the shop again today for some more work, it was much easier and I got a totally different vibe from the people there today, like now they realized I'm not a wack job.
I think this sorta gave me some closure too.. and why I can reflect on what happened and talk about it more easily.
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psychedelicarl
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Yeah man... it just shocked the shit outta me. I'm surprised how edgy it made me really.. considering that I had intentionally put some gory/scary videos on my list which didn't really affect me. I guess it was just the shock of it tho..
I'm usually not too fond of gore, but while tripping I find it kinda ..interesting. Anyone else get like this?
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Re: LSD trip report (first bad trip) [Re: psychedelicarl]
#9455946 - 12/18/08 12:42 PM (15 years, 2 months ago) |
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Come to think of it I've never been scared of anything that.. well, really should be scary while tripping. Gore just is kinda weird to me. The worst it'll do is make me feel awkward cause it's so fake and unnatural, even if it looks real, you can tell (in movies) the guys acting. At least when tripping it's obvious.
I can get plenty scared of stupid shit though. Thinking everyone is waiting for me as I pass to stab/shoot me, going down stairs, going across bridges, being anywhere near a car, thinking I'll randomly piss/shit/vomit and not notice, thinking I'll kill people and not notice, etc.
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psychedelicarl
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Re: LSD trip report (first bad trip) [Re: krypto2000]
#9455960 - 12/18/08 12:46 PM (15 years, 2 months ago) |
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yeah dude I know exactly what you mean..
I can remember one time a couple years back when me and 2 friends took like 600µg each and went for a walk (ended up two cities away by morning.) But as we were walking on one road about to go under an overpass we all simultaneously got a feeling like we were about to be hit from behind by a bus and we all turned to look... it was kinda cool/weird ...we were really into the collective mind that night.
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Re: LSD trip report (first bad trip) [Re: psychedelicarl]
#9455986 - 12/18/08 12:53 PM (15 years, 2 months ago) |
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You can always say you're sick when someone asks you to do something when you're tripping.
I don't even answer my phone.
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psychedelicarl
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Re: LSD trip report (first bad trip) [Re: Epigallo]
#9456013 - 12/18/08 01:00 PM (15 years, 2 months ago) |
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yeah I would have, but my dad lives pretty close to me and I thought ignoring him/telling him I was sick might cause him to come over which was really something I wanted to avoid.
...oh the importance of set and setting......
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Re: LSD trip report (first bad trip) [Re: Epigallo]
#9456017 - 12/18/08 01:01 PM (15 years, 2 months ago) |
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Yah, I'll often turn my phone off. I hate talking on the phone when I'm tripping, one of the most awkward things I can think of doing. It feels like I'm talking to an inanimate object, it makes me not want to talk to the person on the other end, and I just wonder why if they wanna talk to me that they're not here.
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Re: LSD trip report (first bad trip) [Re: psychedelicarl]
#9456132 - 12/18/08 01:24 PM (15 years, 2 months ago) |
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thats too bad it was a 'waste' for you. i hate when shit interrupts my trip, but usually it makes for not a terrible day.
i can see being in a waiting room around peaking time sucking A LOT, but other than that it seemed fun.
BTW i was drawn to that pic of your painting, now that i know its yours makes me feel a bunch better.
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Re: LSD trip report (first bad trip) [Re: Big_Whoop]
#9456177 - 12/18/08 01:31 PM (15 years, 2 months ago) |
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Always something to learn from each trip
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