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Anonymous #1
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Porn guilt...
#8802083 - 08/20/08 05:54 PM (15 years, 7 months ago) |
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hey everybody, just had ta get this off my chest and this seemed a good place.
Being a child of the internet age, I discovered pornography at a relatively early age. I continued for several years and didnt see anything wrong with it. Then, a couple of years ago, I stumbled upon a video in which a girl took a load in her ass, squeezed it out, and then happily lapped it up, seeming (pretending?) to enjoy it. At first, of course, I was repulsed, but after a few more watches I started to kinda enjoy it. Something about the degrading aspect, or whatever. Anyway, it seems like im not alone in this as at least five of the pornos on the Top Fifty List on cduniverse.com cater to this particular act. Now, I've always thought of myself as not-quite normal, but not crazy. But when I think about what my friends and family would think of me if they found out somehow i get all depressed. I know i'm the same kind, intelligent person ive always been but i cant help feeling like a sicko. Am I hopeless? I've read about porn habituation, with people requiring more hardcore porn as they get more desensitized to it. Is that a possibility here?
I know there are plenty of people like me (on one mainstream porn torrent site a video compiling dozens of the act received well over 1,000 downloads) but I still feel like a total perv. Can I still be a good person and watch this kinda stuff? I could NEVER actually participate in it myself cause its fucking disgusting, but damn is it fun to watch!
Also, I might as well add, my favorite actress, the goddess Hillary Scott, has done this on no less than 15 seperate occasions, even in movies she herself has directed!
whew! that felt good, any thoughts?
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Anonymous #2
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stop worrying about what people would think about you and indulge in your desires
so long as you're not hurting anyone (unless they ask you to ) what does it matter?
guilt is a useless emotion
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Anonymous #3
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Is that a possibility here?
Yes. Internet pornography can be a dangerous addiction that escalates out of control. Its no joke. If you feel compelled to write this, then I say you probably have a problem with it.
Like all drugs and vices, you can go all out and devote your life to it... try to keep it in check and indulge occasionally... or get it out of your life completely. Most addicts who no longer want the first choice, think they can live with the second one. But often, once addicted, you have to get it out of your life completely. You will have more self esteem if you do.
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Anonymous #4
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The only reason you feel guilty is because society has told you so. You should read on some of Ted Kazynskies memories. Might make you feel a little better. Different outlook.
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Anonymous #5
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Dude, relax. Trust me everyone looks at some wack ass shit on the internet and likes it. They'd never admit it..but when they're alone with the computer and a bottle of lube everyone has their weird, sick, perverse and secret fetishes. I only use those words because thats what people's public persona and society would call it.
Porn site statistics show this too..the most viewed hardcore fetish is bestiality. And "vanilla" porn doesn't do nearly as well as stuff like anal, gang bangs, ass to mouth, bondage, swallowing. .you get the idea. There's nothing wrong with you..this is normal. This is a sad effect that our puritan origins still has on us. Look at Japan..wow..just wow.
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Anonymous #6
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Yeah, as you get decensitized you need higher quality... however, doesn't always mean hardcore.
I've always been cool for solo women or lesbian videos, but as time progressed I can *only* get anything from Asian solo women vids, and it can't be American asian or a long face asian, has to be specifically a nice moonface asian with no cock visible.
It's always been no-cock visible for me, but meh. I don't kknow what I'm talking about, I'm just saying I found an asian fetish and asians ftw!
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Anonymous #7
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Anonymous #6 said: I'm just saying I found an asian fetish and asians ftw!
Agreed, they are so much more classy than the American bitches.
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Anonymous #8
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dude, you're not even close to weird. my dad once recorded every porn search me and my brothers did with a program in the router or some shit.
when he threw the book of porn searches to me, i looked at the searches knowing which ones were mine, and realized that one of my brothers was into way more hardcore shit than me, and i used to hate myself for being an unJesus like sinner every time i whacked off to porn.
the act you describe is like a 3/10 on the weird porn fetish scale. find a really hot non-nude web whore and see if you can jerk it to her. i bet you that you can, and that means you're more normal than most people.
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Anonymous #9
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Anonymous #1 said: any thoughts?
Just keep jerking off, who cares it's natural. It's porn everybodys doing it.
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Anonymous #10
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If you feel bad about it, then yes, of course you should stop. You should always listen to your conscience.
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Anonymous #6
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fuck conscience.
conscience is what people listen to before they turn themselves in after committing a perfect crime.
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Anonymous #11
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the only time I felt guilty about porn is when I downloaded a bunch of illegal kiddie porn.
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Anonymous #12
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Anonymous #11 said: the only time I felt guilty about porn is when I downloaded a bunch of illegal kiddie porn.
did you beat off to it?
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Anonymous #11
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no, it was more of a taboo thing that kind of turned me on
I jerked off an hour later if that counts as jerking off to it.
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Anonymous #6
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was it asian?
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Anonymous #11
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Well, the closest to asian was some indian girl. And I saw a mexican girl, and a white girl.
It was pretty fucked, never again.
The girls seemed to be enjoying themselves though.
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Anonymous #13
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Everyone is everything changing.
Only someone who has decieved themself in a consistant catagory of character.
You could be a perv for 10 years and then decide to stop and never perv again. Is perving itself bad? Not unless its a problem for you or others.
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Anonymous #14
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You should just shoot heroin instead
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Anonymous #15
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Anonymous #14 said: You should just shoot heroin instead
and then beat off to porn. opiates make orgasms 100x better
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Anonymous #11
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Anonymous #15 said:
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Anonymous #14 said: You should just shoot heroin instead
and then beat off to porn. opiates make orgasms 100x better
lol shut up, you can get a boner on opiates...but a orgasm is near impossible, and when it does happen, it feels like nothing.
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