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 rain_angel
EnLigHTenD MiNDRancHeR
Registered: 03/14/02
Posts: 493
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dude, ive been there too. you just have to look for the pros of your life. if even u dont see any, think of the things that make you happy. like when i was really down for alot of stuff, i would just go drive around by my self, and smoke a fatty, and self-reflect. instead of wishing it all away, attempt to change it for the better. and remeber that the only thing that doesnt change, is change itself. and as a stupid whore bitch's mom (she was one too) told me "this to will come to pass" and see was right. life is full of ups and downs, fuck it man, just go with the flow, you cant expect life to be perfect in every way, and when god throws shit at you, take it, and bust his ass with it! you will always find a way, if its meant to be. im betting u dont like yourself for many reasons, but some news for you... EVERYONE finds all thier own flaws, and harps on them. its not that your worse than others, or uglier, or dumber, its just what you as a human, that lives in todays beautiful snotty people society tend to think, like most regular people do. Fucking A, and if that doesnt help, watch a good t.v. show likes cops, or something on home and garden channel, then you wont feel bad after u see people that suffer from both dumbnation, and ulta-uglyness 
peace my friend
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myshoeisuntied
journeyman
Registered: 08/12/02
Posts: 73
Last seen: 20 years, 7 months
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 Re: slashed my wrist tonight.  [Re: rain_angel]
#938573 - 10/07/02 04:30 AM (21 years, 6 months ago) |
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ok so i could tell you not to kill yourself. but that seems rather ineffective not to mention a bit trite and lacking of tought.. but i think i can say that it is your life and make the choices you wish. but be aware that such a simple one will provide for a profound effect. i seriously reccomed that you , sounds crazy and maybe abit stupid, skydive i guarentee that it will, if only for a brief few seconds fill you with an extreme joy, from that i think that you may learn something- and from that make a new decision of course this is solely up to you , but when falling toward the earth at such a speed... well it doesnt make you think. i think it's the lack of tought that is amazing. good luck with your choice
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FlusH
Random person on Internet
Registered: 10/23/01
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Hey, I know what you are going threw. I have been shit on all my life as well and several almost successful attempts. The one quote that kept me going was "this too will pass". What help'ed me out was a 7 gram mushroom trip but that is not always the case with everybody. The trip allowed me to see my life from a third person perspective. Talking about your problems is also a great way to de-stress. You can realize the problem for what it is, and I think head shrinks are a waste of money. If you don't have anybody to talk to, then start typing. Take it easy man. don't feel guilty if smoking a j keeps you feeling level. Better than dead. And way better than any SSRI doctors push.
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 vkk_
DNA Timebomb
Registered: 02/03/02
Posts: 1,289
Loc: Planet Erf, Yo.
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Re: slashed my wrist tonight. [Re: moosehead]
#940534 - 10/07/02 04:15 PM (21 years, 6 months ago) |
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"Rest... yes. Forever sleep."
Ok, Yoda. 
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Larrythescaryrex
teardrop on the fire
 
Registered: 07/19/00
Posts: 11,004
Loc: further down the spiral
Last seen: 1 year, 4 months
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Re: slashed my wrist tonight. [Re: vkk_]
#940553 - 10/07/02 04:21 PM (21 years, 6 months ago) |
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hahaha....
really though, one of my favorite lines from the movie. I always here yoda say that when I feel depressed.
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Sunset_Mission said:
"larry the scary rex
verily scary when thoroughly vexed
invoke the shadows and dust, cast a hex
mercifully massacring memories masterfully
relocate from Ur to 8th density and become a cosmic bully
mulder and scully couldn't decipher his glyphs
invoke the shadows and dust, smoke infernal spliffs"
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UrbanistiC
Hmm....
Registered: 02/03/02
Posts: 262
Loc: Seattle, Wa.
Last seen: 11 years, 8 months
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Ive always heard that if you start to die, everything gets cold! Especially if you let out all your blood via slits to the wrist. There are far more effective ways to take ones life. If you want to feel ther warmth, try dousing yourself in gas and lighting a lighter! And by the way, your blood draining out of your boday is anything but painless. And what kind of outside influence could actually drive you to want to "take all of the pain away" ? I mean, do you feel that you just arent strong enough? Well, just felt like yapping a bit. Dont take it personal, no punn intended.
P.S. Try something like drinking rubbing alcohol. Or sniff some drain-o.
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uno
enthusiast
Registered: 04/06/02
Posts: 448
Last seen: 11 years, 10 months
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Re: slashed my wrist tonight. [Re: UrbanistiC]
#941148 - 10/07/02 07:38 PM (21 years, 6 months ago) |
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Don't you people know you should slit your wrists in a really warm bath?
Also, this world isn't very great and its going to hell in a handbasket VERY fast.
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mr_minds_eye
Disposable Wage Whore
Registered: 01/22/02
Posts: 1,948
Loc: Samsara
Last seen: 11 years, 2 months
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Re: slashed my wrist tonight. [Re: uno]
#942851 - 10/08/02 12:33 PM (21 years, 6 months ago) |
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Death isn't the end. Who knows the nxt phase could be even shittier than this one. I used to cut myself it was a relief. Learn how to alter your mind without drugs. When you feel down just say OM.
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Peaceful_Nomad
On the Path ofthe Feather
Registered: 06/23/02
Posts: 447
Loc: Sometimes Kansas - Maybe ...
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Larry~
The following poem is not to encourage self-destruction. To paraphrase,
the subject of the poem couldn't handle life any longer and committed
suicide. He went to heaven, where God gave him/her everything they needed
to be happy.
Everything was great for this person in heaven, until he/she noticed others
around him/her doing tasks for God. He/She asked God to be included in the
tasks being assigned, and God said he/she already had that chance in life and
blew it.
There is no perfect solution to imbalances we encounter in this physical plane.
EVERYBODY struggles with self-destruction at one point or another in their
life. I like to approach life (on a daily or momentary basis) as being already
dead, and the miracle I experience IS Life (physical reality). Easier said than done,
of course, but it gives me a foundation within my mind and soul to work with.
Hang in there and keep on keeping on. Here is the poem. You may need to read it
a couple of times for it to sink in. Peace to you ~ Peaceful Nomad
The Suicide
by Edna St. Vincent Millay
"Curse thee, Life, I will live with thee no more!
Thou has mocked me, starved me, beat my body sore!
And all for a pledge that was not pledged by me,
I have kissed thy crust and eaten sparingly
That I might eat again, and met thy sneers
With deprecations, and thy blows with tears, ~
Aye, from thy glutted lash, glad, crawled away,
As if spent passion were a holiday!
And now I go. Nor threat, nor easy vow
Of tardy kindness can avail thee now
With me, whence fear and faith alike are flown;
Lonely I came, and I depart alone,
And know not where nor unto whom I go;
But that thou canst not follow me I know."
Thus I to Life, and ceased; but through my brain
My thought ran still, until I spake again;
"Ah, out I go not as I came, ~ no trace
Is mine to bear away of that old grace
I brought! I have been heated in thy fires
Bent by thy hands, fashioned to thy desires,
Thy mark is on me! I am not the same
Nor ever more shall be, as when I came.
Ashes am I of all that once seemed.
In me all's sunk that leapt, and all that dreamed
Is wakeful for alarm, ~ oh, shame to thee,
For the ill change that thou has wrought in me,
Who laugh no more nor lift my throat to sing!
Ah, life, I would have been a pleasant thing
To have about the house when I was grown
If thou wouldst leave me playing in the sun!
And this thou didst deny, calling my name
Insistently, until I rose and came.
I saw the sun no more. ~ It were not well
So long on these unpleasant thoughts to dwell,
Need I arise to~morrow and renew
Again my hated tasks, but I am through
With all things save my thoughts and this one night,
So that in truth I seem already quite
Free and remote from thee, ~ I feel no haste
And no reluctance to depart; I taste
Merely, wit thoughtful mien, and unknown draught,
That in a little while I shall have quaffed."
Thus I to Life, and ceased, and slightly smiled
Looking at nothing; and my thin dreams filed
Before me one by one till once again
I set new words unto an old refrain:
"Treasures thou hast that never have been mine!
Warm lights in many a secret chamber shine
Of thy gaunt house, and gusts of song have blown
Like blossoms out to me that sat alone!
And I have waited well for thee to show
If any share were mine, ~ and now I go!
Nothing I leave, and if naught attain
I shall but come into mine own again!"
Thus to Life, and cease, and spake no more,
But turning, straightway, sought a certain door
In the rear wall. Heavy it was, and low
And dark, ~ a way by which none e'er would go
That other exit had, and never knock
Was heard thereat, ~ bearing a curious lock
Some chance had shown me fashioned faultily,
Whereof Life held content the useless key,
And great coarse hinges, thick and rough with rust,
Whose sudden voice across a silence must,
I knew, be harsh and horrible to hear,~
A strange door, ugly like a dwarf. ~ So near
I came I felt upon my feet the chill
Of acid wind creeping across the sill.
So stood longtime, till over me at last
Came weariness, and all things other passed
To make it a room; the still night drifted deep
Like snow about me, and I longed for sleep.
But, suddenly, marking the morning hour,
Bayed the deep~throated bell within the tower!
Startled, I raised my head, ~ and with a shout
Laid hold upon the latch, ~ and was without.
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
Ah, long~forgotten, well~remembered road,
Leading me back unto my old abode,
My father's house! There in the night I came,
And found them feasting, and all things the same
As they had been before. A splendour hung
Upon the walls, an such sweet songs were sung
As, echoing out of very long ago,
Had called me from the house of Life, I know.
So fair their raiment shone I looked in shame
On the unlovely garb in which I came;
Then straightway at my hesitancy mocked;
"Its is my father's house!" I said and knocked;
And the door opened. To the shining crowd
Tattered and dark I entered, like a cloud,
Seeing no face but his; to him I crept,
And "Father!" I cried, and clasped his knees, and wept.
Ah, the days of joy that followed! All alone
I wandered through the house. My own, my own,
My own to touch, my own to taste and smell,
All I lacked so long and loved so well!
None shook me out of sleep, nor hushed my song,
Nor called me in from the sunlight all day long.
I know not when the wonder came to me
Of what my father's business might be,
And whither fared and on what errands bent
The tall and gracious messengers he sent.
Yet one day with no song from dawn till night
Wondering, I sat, and watched them out of sight.
Asked them if I might go, ~ but no one heard.
Then, sick with longing, I arose at last
And went unto my father, ~ in the vast
Chamber wherein he for so many years
Has sat, surrounded by his charts and spheres.
"Father," I said, "Father, I cannot play
the harp that thou didst give me, and all day
I sit in idleness, while to and fro
About me thy serene, grave servants go;
And I am weary of my lonely ease.
Better a perilous journey overseas
Away from thee, than this, the life I lead,
To sit all day in the sunshine like a weed
That grows to naught, ~ I love thee more than they
Who serve thee most; yet serve thee in no way.
Father, I beg of thee a little task
To dignify my days, ~ 'tis all I ask
Forever, but forever, this denied,
I perish."
"Child," my father's voice replied,
"All things thy fancy hath desired of me
Thou hast received. I have prepared for thee
Within my house a spacious chamber, where
Are delicate things to handle and wear,
And all these things are thine. Dost thou love song?
My minstrels shall attend thee all day long.
Or sigh for flowers? My fairest gardens stand
Open as fields to thee on every hand.
And all thy days this word shall hold the same:
No pleasure shalt thou lack that thou shall name.
But as for tasks~" he smiled, and shook his head;
"Thou hadst thy task, and laidst it by," he said.
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truekimbo2
Cya later, friends.
Registered: 12/08/02
Posts: 9,234
Loc: ny 
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does anyone else remember a time before the word emo?
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FungusMan
I81U812
Registered: 08/06/05
Posts: 3,112
Loc: Everywhere
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Re: slashed my wrist tonight. [Re: truekimbo2]
#8222793 - 04/01/08 01:08 AM (16 years, 19 days ago) |
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Does anyone know if this pussy croaked yet? I seriously doubt it 
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skateordont
I'm just a rockn roll clown
Registered: 12/06/07
Posts: 399
Loc: Flander's Fields, eh!
Last seen: 11 years, 2 months
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Re: slashed my wrist tonight. [Re: EndlessSpace]
#8222796 - 04/01/08 01:09 AM (16 years, 19 days ago) |
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START WITH A GALLONN of BLEEECH... then IV some DRAINO
pussy
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pifff
Stranger
Registered: 02/09/07
Posts: 77
Loc: NJ
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Re: slashed my wrist tonight. [Re: EndlessSpace]
#8222805 - 04/01/08 01:11 AM (16 years, 19 days ago) |
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LMAOO ...EMO!!
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NationofStrangers
Beeeeyah!!!!
Registered: 09/25/03
Posts: 515
Loc: Austin TX
Last seen: 15 years, 6 hours
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Re: slashed my wrist tonight. [Re: skateordont]
#8222825 - 04/01/08 01:17 AM (16 years, 19 days ago) |
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Man i want you to know.. i do not know you but i have been going through a really depressed time in my life as of late. i would not tell anybody but suicide does run threw my head on a daily basis.. you will be ok man.. everything gets better... all i have been doing is taking it one day at a time ya know?? you really have no need to die bra... im sure their are people out there that love you.. you know what i have found comforting? a girls touch. i know i have not had a girlfriend in it seems like ages, or the touch of one. I'm sure you can find somone to just give you a hug man. I know the feeling, it seems like i get really depressed so i drink.. then im even more depressed because i got drunk again.. man if you need to talk about anything shoot me a PM... youll be ok man please do not hurt yourself... i have had a lot of friends pass away from suicide and i know every single one of them did not desereve to die... they all had so many people that cared for them.. you may not beleive it now but they do. i am sure you have somebody... hang in there bro.
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moosehead
poop deck
Registered: 02/04/02
Posts: 9,741
Loc: pnw
Last seen: 3 days, 10 hours
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Re: slashed my wrist tonight. [Re: pifff]
#8222837 - 04/01/08 01:21 AM (16 years, 18 days ago) |
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The dude was depressed 
I find that to be more grounded than a lot of the shit i read in this forum.
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FungusMan
I81U812
Registered: 08/06/05
Posts: 3,112
Loc: Everywhere
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Re: slashed my wrist tonight. [Re: moosehead]
#8222845 - 04/01/08 01:23 AM (16 years, 18 days ago) |
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I do try to guide people into not killing themselves, unless they do it outside. Some poor shmuck has to clean your emo ass up.
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Acaterpillar
A little mad...
Registered: 06/09/07
Posts: 18,693
Loc: Down the rabbit hole
Last seen: 6 months, 11 days
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Re: slashed my wrist tonight. [Re: FungusMan]
#8222892 - 04/01/08 01:47 AM (16 years, 18 days ago) |
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Find a medium you enjoy expressing yourself through. This can do wonders.
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AtticusProphet
just a tool
Registered: 02/07/08
Posts: 1,065
Loc: within you and without yo...
Last seen: 13 years, 8 months
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Re: slashed my wrist tonight. [Re: Acaterpillar]
#8222970 - 04/01/08 02:34 AM (16 years, 18 days ago) |
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Quote:
Find a medium you enjoy expressing yourself through. This can do wonders.
blood works
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Cowgold
Bullshit
Registered: 04/04/05
Posts: 12,486
Loc: .
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Wysefool
I AM SKELETON JELLY
Registered: 12/26/02
Posts: 6,643
Last seen: 25 days, 15 hours
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Re: slashed my wrist tonight. [Re: Cowgold]
#8223015 - 04/01/08 03:34 AM (16 years, 18 days ago) |
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I wonder how this thread would have gone if it was just posted today. People used to be a lot more supportive here. 
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