During my junior year through senior year, I had a big crush on this one chick. We had English class together and right away we just really hit it off. Anyways, we became really good "friends" over those two years, yet I always felt like we should be more than friends for some reason. she had a boyfriend,(kind of an arrogant dickhead even if he was one of my good friends) for those two years. Even though she had a boyfriend, we still continued to flirt together all the time and we still hung out a lot. Still, to this day, I kick myself in the ass for not being more aggressive when I was trying to get with her. Not only that but I was way to nice. Once we graduated, we started to hang out a little less and eventually we stopped hanging out all together. It was my fault. I was frusterated that I couldnt get her and then one day I just said to myself "If we cant have a sexual relationship together then I guess I dont want to have a relationship at all". So I moved on. I hadnt seen her in two years since the end of senior summer. During that time span, I thought about her every once in a while and I'd miss her on occasions. Anyways, a couple nights ago, I was coming home from a buddies house and I decided that I'd stop for gas. I pulled up next to this SUV, and a largely built man was standing by his vehicle pumping his gas. From the moment I layed my eyes on him, I wanted to walk up and punch him in the face. Why? I had no clue, I thought it was strange that I felt this way about this random stranger. Well, I went in, payed for my gas and as I was walking back to my car, who did I see staring directly at me with a joyous look on her face. It was her, the girl I desired for nearly two years in High School, she was my lone crush. We then anxiously approached each other and we gave each other a big hug. It felt wonderful, holding her in my arms felt like an eternity. We just didnt want to let each other go. Then we talked for about 5 minutes, I gave her my number and then we exchanged our goodbyes. I got home and I felt really good. I thought "You know, it was nice seeing her tonight, I hope she calls me". Then I had a revelation, it was VALENTINES DAY. I then thought to myself, "I hadnt seen her since high school (2years) and what day do I see her on, the day thats meant for romantic couples. The day of love, passion, sex, Valentines day. My initial thought when I saw her was, " o what a strange coincidene heh". I went from thinking that to, "are her and I really meant to be, was me seeing her again fate"? Right now I'm pretty confused, I mean what do I do? Do I try and go after her again or do I continue to move on with my life? Honestly, whats really been killing me was that hug. I've never felt that much sexual tension between her or any women for that matter. Holding her in my arms just felt so right, it felt more right than ever at that moment. I didnt want to let her go and I especially dont want to now. I need advice, im just feeling a little confused from this. Any Ladies that read this, and if you do respond, please tell what you'd be thinking about if this happened to you. I cant help but wonder if shes put two and two together like I have. O and that guy that was pumping the gas is now her boyfriend. Forgot to mention that.
-------------------- To those that don't know me, I am your guide. To those that don't like me, I am misunderstood.To those that don't see me, open your eyes, I am there. To those that don't hear me, listen, I am talking. To those that know me, I AM. > "Some call me the gangster of LOVE"......... - Steve Miller
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hey, if you feel any kind of connection, id say go for it, see were it takes you
no harm in trying again, and their is nothing to lose, you can either try and fail and be back were you started
or you can try fail and gain a good friend back
or you can try, and maybe hook up
if it were me, id chill with her more, become great friends again, and then later down the path see whats up with a relationship
whats the rush??
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ego tripping at the gates of hell
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im not obessed by any means. It was just really frusterating to see her with someone else, especially on Valentines day. I just felt like it should be me and her going out to dinner, not her and that douche. YEAH....... hopefully though she calls me cuz neither of us had a pen or anything to write on so I couldnt get her number, which could be a problem.
-------------------- To those that don't know me, I am your guide. To those that don't like me, I am misunderstood.To those that don't see me, open your eyes, I am there. To those that don't hear me, listen, I am talking. To those that know me, I AM. > "Some call me the gangster of LOVE"......... - Steve Miller
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