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ultimo101
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Mushrooms for self healing
#8030929 - 02/16/08 11:38 AM (15 years, 11 months ago) |
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This is a post I would like to dedicate to my previous mushroom trip. It started out like most trips. My girlfriend and I munched 5 grams dry and suffered from a stomach ache for a while. I noticed that my vision was extremely shaky during this period, like a earthquake. Very similar to my only DXM trip. This was making me nauseous but we both manage to get through it. No pot was smoked this night which is why I believe this all came out.
Once the trip kicked in, it was your typical 5g trip haha, listened to some good music like mozart, ozzy and megadeth in a dark room. My visuals themed around spilling beer bottles. Various characters made up in my head spilling beer and such. Very cartoony but I was bothered by wasting the beer haha. After that it seemed like physical objects were dripping and melting. Then I felt as if I was melting off the bed haha.
Once we touched earth again I told my girlfriend about a dream I had the night before in which my grandfather called me as I was dying. This brought out a memory of her grandfather (her only memory of either of her grandfathers) and things got emotional.
This triggered me. I felt bad as I love this girl and I hate her crying... Then it happened. I realized how angry of a person I am. Tears were falling out of my face like crazy. Now i hadnt cried for at least an entire year prior so this was trippy. I realized that instead, raw anger was how I dealt with things. I started thinking about how my grandfather could die at any moment, why dont I spend more time with him? I started thinking about my father, how I dont believe in his values, money. I have learned my whole life the value of money through him, but I hate it. I really do, and these mushrooms taught me to think for myself for once.
The strangest part was thinking about my dead grandfather. Through my blood and veins it felt like lightning was flowing through. The adrenaline gained was EXTREMELY intense. I was forcing myself to ask myself a question. "Do I disgrace that man?" Doing drugs and drinking every weekend, basically fucking up my life. My heart was beating faster than it ever had and I knew I had to calm down or I might have had a heart attack.
For about 3 hours, my girlfriend and I bonded talking about these kinds of things. How Im mean to her sometimes, and it really broke my heart how upset she was. I didnt even know I was doing it.. Tears could not stop, nose was running all night.
I vowed to myself that I am never smoking pot with my mushrooms as this night, ironically, was the most emotionally healthy thing I have ever done to myself.
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just me
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Re: Mushrooms for self healing [Re: ultimo101]
#8030948 - 02/16/08 11:47 AM (15 years, 11 months ago) |
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norml840
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Registered: 10/19/07
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Re: Mushrooms for self healing [Re: just me]
#8030980 - 02/16/08 11:56 AM (15 years, 11 months ago) |
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it feels good to swallow your pride and just let the emotions flow naturally. i bet you felt like you were walking on air after you got all that off your chest. a deep meaningful cry every now and then is good for the soul.
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Chronic7

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Re: Mushrooms for self healing [Re: norml840]
#8030988 - 02/16/08 11:59 AM (15 years, 11 months ago) |
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for real, better than lashing out in anger, then crying 
i always think about how i need to be nicer to my mum and shouldve made more contact with my dad when i trip, you become truely thankful of this life your living right here now and all who made it possible.
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ultimo101
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Re: Mushrooms for self healing [Re: Chronic7]
#8031020 - 02/16/08 12:16 PM (15 years, 11 months ago) |
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Yes I was really grateful for all my mom does for me. It all made sense at the time to spend more time with them.. but its alot harder when your sober to just change your life ya know? Its more gradual than you think it will be when tripping lol
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just me
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Re: Mushrooms for self healing [Re: ultimo101]
#8031036 - 02/16/08 12:23 PM (15 years, 11 months ago) |
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i know its kinda cliche, and taking words of advice from a shoe company that who knows what kinda sweat shops they run..., but "just do it" a lot of my friends ive helped out of the slump they were in by telling them to put action to there words. its your pride that gets in the way when youre sober. you pride was ripped away while you were in your trip and you realized all those things about yourself because you had nothing to gain/lose/or anyone to impress. so some simple yet REAL words of advice, "Just Do It" u ever heard the verse about if you have conflict with a brother drop whatever it is youre doing and make things right with them b4 you return to your life? im guilty of the same things, i dont tell my fam and friends enough that i love them, but if i were to die today, theyd all know i loved them unconditionally. Best of luck ultimo. hope your ppl hear the words they need to hear from you soon. peaceloveGodbless
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