The other day I was pondering a lot of my past psychedelic experiences, dreams and visions, and I realized that a female or goddess figure has appeared in my life on numerous occasions. This may be a long post, but I think all of these experiences warrant some deep contemplation. Please if you've had similar goddess experiences, or would like to share with me some insight, please do. This probably isn't near as interesting for you all as it is for me.
Especially during DMT trips have I seen female figures, usually cloaked in ultra-bright neon colored garb (or plain white in one instance).
Guess I should go into more detail. One night I loaded a good dose of about 50-60mg. of DMT, calmed myself down and took 2 really huge tokes (usually I can get the whole dose in 2 inhales, which is good). This was in an absolutely pitch black room, sitting cross-legged. There may have been 1 or 2 people in the room, but they remained as quiet as possible.
Immediately this female figure appeared. Her hair was white, face white, and she was wearing a white dress. She was holding up what seemed to be a square white table cloth with stitches around it. As I looked at the table cloth, she whipped it at me and I was taken back.
Immediately from a single little point in space, geometric patterns began to fold outwards into elf shaped creatures (not my first experience with these entities). These creatures were very bright colored, and consisted of patterns of various geometries. They began to try showing me various umm....actions I guess is how I'd put it. I got confused as to what they were showing me, and immediately upon becoming confused they "grabbed" my attention and insisted (telepathically it seems) that I pay attention and learn these simple lessons (they've assured me in the past that they're trying to teach simples lessons).
On a sidenote, I find it hilarious (and amazing) that these are the very same group of entities that McKenna communicated with, he even explains some details of my experiences, far better than I've been able to.
Anyways back to the story, cause I haven't shared the weird part yet. A few weeks later, I show up to my friends costume party. My good friend walks up to me wearing a white wig, white face paint, and a white dress. She tells me "I dressed to this party as an omen, and I don't know if it's a good omen or a bad omen, what do you think"? It made me cry, because it was all too much to take in, and I'd never had something so REAL happen to me.
The fact of the matter is (for all you scientifical minds trying to dis-count my perception of the experience), she had no prior knowledge of my experience. She's one of the most trustworthy people I know, she would have no reason to lie to me, and none of the few friends who knew about my experience told anyone. Things are still unexplainable to me AND my friend, about this whole thing.
Afterwards, she had a dream of her and I, where she felt that we litereally exchanged parts of our soul. Last I saw her, she said she wanted to tell me about one of the strangest things that's ever happened to her, and it involved me somehow. Unfortunately, we only had a minute to talk and I haven't seen her since. I have to go over there soon.
Anywaaaays...there's one of my experiences with this goddess figure.
Another time, more than 2 years before this, I smoked a hefty dose of DMT and this goddess appeared in front of me, dressed in beautiful neon purple garb, with jewels encrested around her body and face. Again, in pitch black darkness, but this time by myself.
She touched my forehead (I felt it), and from seemingly outside of myself and I saw a bright yellow octagon light up on my forehead. It seemed to me as if I was being initiated (or beginning an initiation) into some sort of cosmic knowledge, or something. After that I had erotic thoughts of this goddess, and I felt this odd sensation in my mouth. I couldn't figure out what it was for several minutes (not wanting to turn the light on, still having heavy visuals). I finally figured out it was the sensation of connecting the very tip of my tongue to the underside of my 2 front teeth. I still don't understand why this happened, but it feels incredibly peculiar on DMT.
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Another time (more recent than the other 2, but still a ways back). I smoked a hefty dose (I don't fuck around with minor doses) at the same time as a good friend. I felt something rising up out of me, uncontrollably, and I began creating this very strange tone with my vocal chords (since then, this has happened several times). I cannot create these tones while not on DMT it seems. My friend thought that he was hearing a camel, as in he seriously thought they were actual camel noises. Seemed laughable at the time, until the next night.
The next night my roommates are looking through "the birthday book", which contains various info (from what sources, I'm still unsure) on each birth date of the year, all 365 days. It has a specific tarot card for each birth date. They holler at me really excited like, to get my ass over there. They presented to me the tarot card for my birthday, the High Priestess, from the Haindl Tarot deck.
Here's the card:

Short description of this card:
The High Priestess is the Goddess, manifested as the moon, the seas, the night and the Earth. Light fills the card, radiating from her palms, pouring down from a globe over her head. Her dress seems to pour down like rain on the camel and the darkland. She is the divine life principle.
- That card is VERY ominous to me, when I look at it.
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Well fuck, if that isn't weird, I don't know what is. It even goes deeper than that!
I once ate a small dose of mushrooms on a full moon and fell asleep while still on the peak of the experience. The girl I was sleeping next to (I miss you soooooooo incredibly much) had told me that night, that the bigger the purple ring around the moon appears to be, the more enlightened or aware you are during that moment (and during certain mushroom trips that ring is HUUUGE). Well that night I had a dream, that I was in south america in a hut, on some psychedelic, standing next to a dreadlocked girl. I was confused and she seemed perfectly all right, not a bit confused and all knowing. It almost seemed like it was the end of the world. I looked up to the full moon and the purple ring spread to make the whole sky purple.
So this tarot card (and the tarot in general) seems to be instrumental to my path. I've just recently started tying all of these goddess experiences together, so no conclusions yet.
I had a dream more recently, where this beautiful woman was was walking a camel by it's reighns (sp?), leading me to this "holy land" for lack of a better definition. On this land, you dug a whole, poured your intent into it and something grew out of it that was very rewarding. It was sort of vague. I had another dream when I was 15, where I experience this colorful, twisted band of energy rise up this magnificently huge and old, tree. When it filled all of the whole tree and all of the branches, I felt released into the great cosmos. A sort of oneness experience.
I've been typing this post for far too long, so I'm gonna have to think about it more and elaborate more soon.
We are all so very unique, all on our own different paths and can gain so many various sorts of personal meaning from various experiences (kind of a vague statement, but I'm tired). The great mystery of it all, is so invigorating!
-------------------- "Cosmic Love is absolutely ruthless and highly indifferent: it teaches its lessons whether you like/dislike them or not." John C. Lilly
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How funny that you of all people replied. When I was typing about my dream with the big tree and the colorful band of energy, the photo in your signature popped up in my mind (cause I've seen your posts). That picture is AWESOME!!!
I also can relate to you I've realized, after reading a bunch of your posts (even before I signed up for this site, when I was just browsing).
It is nice knowing other cool people are having similar synchronicities. I've had a lot of people try to dis-count my perceptions and whatnot, but a lot of experiences remain unexplainable by science, or anyone. Although I do keep a scientific viewpoint a lot of the time, sometimes having such a hard-edge scientific view, does me no good.
And sometimes it's all too easy to forget these astonishing synchronicites! They are of great inspiration, and are not to be overlooked!
-------------------- "Cosmic Love is absolutely ruthless and highly indifferent: it teaches its lessons whether you like/dislike them or not." John C. Lilly
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