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Dobie
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Feel like goin crazy
#7990082 - 02/07/08 01:07 AM (15 years, 11 months ago) |
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Life is just getting to me lately I don't know why I am posting this but fuck man life is getting to me majorly I can't take this being kept down bullshit I need to do what I feel like and not having the fucking state tell me what to do. This whole best friend dieing thing is really getting to me and I don't know what to do
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ZippoZ
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Registered: 06/17/03
Posts: 13,227
Loc: Pongyang, North Korea
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Re: Feel like goin crazy [Re: Dobie]
#7990093 - 02/07/08 01:11 AM (15 years, 11 months ago) |
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dawn always comes after the darkest hour.
i wish there was somthing i could say or do to make you feel better man, but you just need some time....
youll get through this bro.
peace
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zippoz "in times of widespread chaos and confusion, it has been the duty of more advanced human beings - artists, scientists, clowns, and philosophers - to create order. In such times as ours however, when there is too much order, too much m management, too much programming and control, it becomes the duty of superior men and women and women to fling their favorite monkey wrenches into the machinery. To relieve the repression of the human spirit, they must sow doubt and disruption" "People do it every day, they talk to themselves ... they see themselves as they'd like to be, they don't have the courage you have, to just run with it."
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Dobie
Dopeless Hopefiend


Registered: 08/15/02
Posts: 52,841
Loc: ON DA BLOCK
Last seen: 5 months, 30 days
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Re: Feel like goin crazy [Re: ZippoZ]
#7990102 - 02/07/08 01:16 AM (15 years, 11 months ago) |
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I don't know this shit just fucking sucks man I know I fucked up majorly in the past but just the idea of having to have permission to leave the state is fucking with my mind I have been clean of the heroin for 70+ days but Fuck man I really feel like sticking it too the state but I know that is only gonna leave me in jail again. I miss my friend. I always sat and wondered if we would still be close when we were old I never thought I would lose him when he was only 26 years old makes me wanna do a fat shot of dope just so I can see him again. It kills me that he never got to see me clean to give him hope he just wanted to get high one last time why did that last time have to kill him. I almost fainted when I seen his body yesterday. There are so many things I wish I could change and I can't and it drives me FUCKING NUTS
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ZippoZ
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Registered: 06/17/03
Posts: 13,227
Loc: Pongyang, North Korea
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Re: Feel like goin crazy [Re: Dobie]
#7990113 - 02/07/08 01:22 AM (15 years, 11 months ago) |
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man i hear you about the state. im not supposed to leave IL, but here i am in nevada at the moment. i still dont have my license for my dui charge (which i beat in court) but still dont get my license for 2 months simply because i refused to blow.
parole and probation is a bitch man, no doubt about it. but it will end. in the mean time, you live in a big fucking state, explore it!
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zippoz "in times of widespread chaos and confusion, it has been the duty of more advanced human beings - artists, scientists, clowns, and philosophers - to create order. In such times as ours however, when there is too much order, too much m management, too much programming and control, it becomes the duty of superior men and women and women to fling their favorite monkey wrenches into the machinery. To relieve the repression of the human spirit, they must sow doubt and disruption" "People do it every day, they talk to themselves ... they see themselves as they'd like to be, they don't have the courage you have, to just run with it."
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Dobie
Dopeless Hopefiend


Registered: 08/15/02
Posts: 52,841
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Re: Feel like goin crazy [Re: ZippoZ]
#7990131 - 02/07/08 01:27 AM (15 years, 11 months ago) |
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I can't explore shit without money or a car or a licence. My situation is fucked but I really don't wanna make it worse I have fucked my life up and it sucks majorly but I guess time heals wounds and shit But for fucks sake I really need to smoke a damned bowl right now
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ZippoZ
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Re: Feel like goin crazy [Re: Dobie]
#7990268 - 02/07/08 02:06 AM (15 years, 11 months ago) |
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then smoke a bowl, and chill out work yourself out a plan, get a beater of a car, and figure out how to make some money with it (job?) travel the state!
if you dont have a license for whatever offense you got convicted for, get a hardship license, or a working license i have one in my home state, it allows me to drive for work purposes, and as im self emplouyed, work purposes are quite flexable.
im sure that you could pull the same deal.
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zippoz "in times of widespread chaos and confusion, it has been the duty of more advanced human beings - artists, scientists, clowns, and philosophers - to create order. In such times as ours however, when there is too much order, too much m management, too much programming and control, it becomes the duty of superior men and women and women to fling their favorite monkey wrenches into the machinery. To relieve the repression of the human spirit, they must sow doubt and disruption" "People do it every day, they talk to themselves ... they see themselves as they'd like to be, they don't have the courage you have, to just run with it."
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Dobie
Dopeless Hopefiend


Registered: 08/15/02
Posts: 52,841
Loc: ON DA BLOCK
Last seen: 5 months, 30 days
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Re: Feel like goin crazy [Re: ZippoZ]
#7990321 - 02/07/08 02:22 AM (15 years, 11 months ago) |
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I can't smoke because of probation I don't know if I can get a hardship licence to tell ya the truth But it is something I need to check in on I got a DUI in the courts right now. So I won't know when I will be getting my licence till that gets done and over with.
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ZippoZ
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Registered: 06/17/03
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Loc: Pongyang, North Korea
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Re: Feel like goin crazy [Re: Dobie]
#7990419 - 02/07/08 02:49 AM (15 years, 11 months ago) |
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you can get a hardship license, or a judicial driving permit, or whatever they call it in your state. you can get one even while you have a pending dui.
as much as we all hate the legal system, the majority of the time they will still let you go to work. And a good lawyer can help you loosely define work.
its not a question of if it can be done, its a question of if you are willing to, or can pay for it
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zippoz "in times of widespread chaos and confusion, it has been the duty of more advanced human beings - artists, scientists, clowns, and philosophers - to create order. In such times as ours however, when there is too much order, too much m management, too much programming and control, it becomes the duty of superior men and women and women to fling their favorite monkey wrenches into the machinery. To relieve the repression of the human spirit, they must sow doubt and disruption" "People do it every day, they talk to themselves ... they see themselves as they'd like to be, they don't have the courage you have, to just run with it."
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