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magnumzero
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Considering Possible Mental Health Cures
#7957963 - 01/30/08 09:28 PM (16 years, 2 days ago) |
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I'll try to make a long story short.
April I was put on 200mg of Zoloft for depression and anxiety (also Lamictal 250mg for mood swings and depression.) Eventually, my psychiatrist lowered the dose to 100. For new years, my resolution was to kick it. So come January 1st 2008, I had no more pills and was determined to ride-out the withdrawl storm. It was tough, but I am so proud to say that I did it, as was my shrink. For two weeks my life was running well. I had constructed a mentality to deal with life without the extra serotonergic charge.
Then the third week I started to get screwy. Anxiety came back like an asshole friend who shows up grinning on your doorstep a year after he stole your girlfriend and peaced out've state.
It is now week four. My moods were and still are eratic. I spike at manias and drop into dysphoric hells. I am angry, sometimes violently. My mind races races races and I can hardly piece together a coherent thought. The only way I can escape from the anxiety and rushing thoughts is disctraction.
Obviously drugs are an issue, but I am trying my best to stear clear of those. Cigarettes work, but I quit three months ago and I decided to never go back. Talking to people usually helps, but when I'm not texting them or not with them I immediately become dysphoric. I hate being alone.
So despite my best efforts, I'm having incredible difficulty keeping my shit together. Logical thought and life lessons I've gathered over the years prove useless. I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't want to depend medication. I want to do this on my own with my own brain and own willpower. I have all the positive thoughts there, but none of them have any affect. But I think I drastically need a radical change in perspective.
While still on the Zoloft, I smoked Salvia for the first time. My trip was incredible and the most terrifying experience of my life. But it was also the single most meaningful. From it, I learned how to slow down and cherish every moment of life. I feel the lessons I learned that October slipping.
I understand how dangerous it is to undergo a psychedelic journey while mentally unstable. I also understand that many psychedelics work wonders for psychological issues. I'm backed into a corner; my mind cannot work things out on its own, therapy doesn't help, and mood-medicines change who I am.
Help? Someone? I'm breaking down and don't know what to do.
Edited by magnumzero (01/30/08 09:30 PM)
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im_on_a_boat
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Re: Considering Possible Mental Health Cures [Re: magnumzero]
#7958035 - 01/30/08 09:46 PM (16 years, 2 days ago) |
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seems as though it's a real chemical imbalance and not just in your head/psyche.
do what you think is better of and will improve your quality of life..
maybe try different meds this time around.. ones with less side effects or less of the ones you tried earlier.. just enough to even you out.
if i were you i'd stick with out the medication for a while and let your brain adjust to not having it.. make sure to eat right, exercise and be healthy.. that adds a lot right there.
maybe try to change environmental factors that have negative impacts on you. sorry i cant be much help.. talk to your psych/parents/friends.. they know you better than i do.
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Le_Canard
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Re: Considering Possible Mental Health Cures [Re: magnumzero]
#7958049 - 01/30/08 09:50 PM (16 years, 2 days ago) |
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While it is commendable that you want to try coping without the psych drugs, it sounds like you need them. Take them for a while, get stabilised and then work out your problems. Then, you have a better chance of coping without them in the future.
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krypto2000
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Re: Considering Possible Mental Health Cures [Re: Le_Canard]
#7958087 - 01/30/08 10:00 PM (16 years, 2 days ago) |
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I think pschydelics could help you possibly, but I would strongly recommend against it, as the risks just seem too high right now.
As drkrobotnik said exercise and a healthy diet can really make a noticeable difference. I would also recommend meditation, it may be hard to start but once you do it can become addictive and it can do wonders for anxiety and depression.
All the same though, as the others have recommended, for the time being at least I would stick with the meds, they sound like they were doing some good. Try backing off on the dose further maybe, I don't know though, I'm no doctor.
Maybe if you can stay committed to eating healthy and meditating that will be enough, but you just gotta find out for yourself man.
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im_on_a_boat
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Re: Considering Possible Mental Health Cures [Re: krypto2000]
#7958104 - 01/30/08 10:02 PM (16 years, 2 days ago) |
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hell yeah. i meditated like deeply at work today. it was the strangest thing.. i wasn't even trying to do it.
like there was a bunch of people talking in the background so i guess that acted as white noise and i laid down and like just cleared my mind for about 20 minutes.
dont know where i went but it felt nice.
didn't feel nice to have to come back and go to work though..
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