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My mental health is dwindeling..
#7918341 - 01/23/08 12:54 AM (16 years, 10 days ago) |
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I'm sitting here in my computer chair. Thinking about death, life, family, health, and a lot of other stuff. I was going to make this post long and winded but I won't. Basically, I think I'm developing schizophrenia or bipolar or some related mental condition. When researching schizophrenia I noticed that the onset is usually late teens early twenties. I'm 18 years old so I definitely fall under the majority of people who start getting all the nasty symptoms of schizophrenia. I haven't had any hallucinations yet but, I dunno, it's hard to explain how I'm feeling right now. I have the same feeling I would get on a bad psychedelic trip. Like..I can't think positive at all..I don't enjoy anything anymore. The only thing I do now is fuck around on the shroomery and yea, that's pretty much all I do. I don't know what to do now. I don't have any friends anymore cuz I stopped answering their calls. My emotions are intensified to. Luckily I have a great family who cares for me a great deal tho..although I haven't really talked to them about this yet. I just wanna be happy & normal again. To those who have experienced something similar or know someone who has had a similar ordeal I would greatly appreciate advice. I would hate to go on medication so I wanna avoid that at all costs. I also for sure have ADD, OCD, Mild tourettes, depression. thx
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Re: My mental health is dwindeling.. [Re: Anonymous #1]
#7918490 - 01/23/08 01:56 AM (16 years, 10 days ago) |
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if'ya want someone to talk to and have msn just add me, junkme100@hotmail.com
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beneath
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Re: My mental health is dwindeling.. [Re: Anonymous #1]
#7918800 - 01/23/08 05:33 AM (16 years, 9 days ago) |
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I have schizophrenia, acute depression and whatever other label i could be assigned.
It just sounds like you are depressed man, schizophrenia is a pretty extreme state of mind, don't worry about it.
It doesn't matter what category of illness you could fit in, all that matters is learning to deal with any problems in your life, one step at a time.
You have to take care of yourself.... force yourself to eat right, go for a walk(at least 30 minutes) because exercise is really helpful in these situations, and have a good sleeping routine. No matter how much you don't want to do any of this, force yourself to do it, it WILL help you.
I know how much it feels like you may not want to but just do it, there's nothing to lose from doing it.
I'm not on any meds right now because i have a decent sleeping routine, it was really helpful to me.
You will be alright.
I've literaly been completely insane and having good food/going for walks/good sleeping routine has helped more than i could have ever thought.
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Anonymous #1
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Re: My mental health is dwindeling.. [Re: beneath]
#7918866 - 01/23/08 06:28 AM (16 years, 9 days ago) |
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beneath said: I have schizophrenia, acute depression and whatever other label i could be assigned.
It just sounds like you are depressed man, schizophrenia is a pretty extreme state of mind, don't worry about it.
It doesn't matter what category of illness you could fit in, all that matters is learning to deal with any problems in your life, one step at a time.
You have to take care of yourself.... force yourself to eat right, go for a walk(at least 30 minutes) because exercise is really helpful in these situations, and have a good sleeping routine. No matter how much you don't want to do any of this, force yourself to do it, it WILL help you.
I know how much it feels like you may not want to but just do it, there's nothing to lose from doing it.
I'm not on any meds right now because i have a decent sleeping routine, it was really helpful to me.
You will be alright.
I've literaly been completely insane and having good food/going for walks/good sleeping routine has helped more than i could have ever thought.
It's more than just depression methinks. I'm sure part of it is my fucked up sleeping routine lately..in fact I don't really have a sleeping routine. I go to school and work right now so my hours at work go around my school schedule so it isn't consistent. I didn't get any sleep at all tonight in fact and I'm going to work in a half hour.
Analyzing my situation further I notice part of it is probably situations I've been ignoring..thus building up to the point of being extremely destructive. One of which is the workload of school & work lately. I'm considering moving back in w/ my parents cuz I don't think I can handle this much longer.
Part of it is thinking about death and over-analyzing the fuck out of everything leading me to believe nothing really matters on a cosmic scale so fuck it..what do you guys think? Man, this really fucking blows guys..will this pass over time? Would moving back in with my parents be a good idea? I wouldn't wish this feeling upon my worst enemies.
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Re: My mental health is dwindeling.. [Re: Anonymous #1]
#7919262 - 01/23/08 09:52 AM (16 years, 9 days ago) |
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YOu are just going through withdrawl of all the nasty beliefs that have run amok in your brain.
Thoughts are addictive. Especially the old ones that our parents and cultural means of beliefs have shown us.
You are going through a withdrawl of all the thoughts and feeling associated with thinking that the meaning of life is, something to be thought of as serious...rather than something which doesnt matter on a cosmic scale.
TAOISM showed me that indeed nothing does matter. However, there is a positive side to this as well.
When NO one THING or nothing, does not matters - all are important and worthy of life, when they are deemed by conciosness to be.
YOu have realized this and see no purpose in life. Im here to tell that although what you say is true "ALL purposes in life is subjective"
To remember - when we believe that "all purpose is relative, all meaning is relative" we assume an objective reality that exists within the universe. The objective reality being "All purposes are subjective"
I have shown you nothing that is new, rather i have calibrated it in a way that shows the positive aspect to all of this.
Follow the subjective purpose you see in life - choose to find something that fills your life with something you see are satisfying that hunger, we suffer from.
We are in a process, that is self-sufficient, you are the process. WE ARE.
Love and peace, is my purpose right now.
So to you i say, may you love, in peace.
-------------------- The mind is a creative tool. It searches to protect you, through message sensations(feelings). It is no different than a computer, you need to make sure its anti-virus program is in check and that it doesnt have a script that limits your experience, because of to much precaution. And remember the computer does not appear to respond to words of anger and frustration - just give it input, in the form of new meanings that you know to be true and its messages to you and the limits it lays out for you, will change. Guilt is an outcome of believing you are the cause of the problems. Yet, we are not a cause to something, we see is negative or bad - Unless you believe your intentions are directed towards a bad outcome....
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Re: My mental health is dwindeling.. [Re: Anonymous #1]
#7919281 - 01/23/08 10:08 AM (16 years, 9 days ago) |
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It definately just sounds like depression, with a side of "analyzing the fuck out of everything".
Try meditating; it worked for me.
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beneath
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Re: My mental health is dwindeling.. [Re: Anonymous #1]
#7919368 - 01/23/08 10:52 AM (16 years, 9 days ago) |
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if my sleeping routine isn't good then i halucinate and hear voices and with a good sleeping routine i feel a bit better.
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Analyzing my situation further I notice part of it is probably situations I've been ignoring..thus building up to the point of being extremely destructive.
This could very well be true, it's true for me, there's things i thought were'nt a big deal and i just brushed them off but all those small things can mount up and start to crush you, Don't ignore anything bothering you ,think of why it's bothering you and try to figure out a different perspective on it to make it go away or diminish how much it's bothering you.
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If you're smoking pot a lot, I advise you to take a little break off and see if that helps.
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2end4
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Yeah if you were totally schizo, there wouldn't even be that much structure to your posts. I agree with beneath, there is nothing better than regular sleeping, eating, and workout schedules. Just sounds like your brain needs rest. It probably doesnt know when one day starts and one day ends.
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Anonymous #1
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EternalCowabunga said: If you're smoking pot a lot, I advise you to take a little break off and see if that helps.
I don't smoke anymore.
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Re: My mental health is dwindeling.. [Re: Anonymous #1]
#7922837 - 01/24/08 12:48 AM (16 years, 9 days ago) |
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Your brains develops new neural pathways based upon how you use it. Examples: If you spend all your time playing baseball, you'll get better at baseball If you spend all your time watching TV, you'll get better at passively accepting information If you spend all your time thinking about, and dwelling upon, bad thoughts, you'll only get better at it, and potentiate the problem.
I realize this doesn't help if you voluntarily can't stop thinking depressing thoughts, but its something to work towards. If you can't get yourself over a bad thought, just come up with a code word; a magic word that, once you say it, cuts off your thought train. HINT: "fuck it" works amazingly
Exercise is one of the easiest ways to reduce depression. Exercise makes your body feel like it has purpose, releases those oh so good endorphins (google runner's high). Start small if need be, take walks, look at the beauty of nature, think of how lucky you are to be able to take any path you choose in life.
Hobbies make happiness. I have accepted the fact that life is pointless, but hey, fuck it! Because life is pointless, a point is left to be given to it. Find some hobbies, and they can be turned into the focus of your life. For example, I love botany, and now I'm spiraling down every crevice of my hobby I can find. Perhaps photography, growing a garden, getting into an exercise (like biking), etc.
You know what I find to be the best cure, better then anything else? Getting out there and doing something! Just go out, go out and do anything! Go to the library and read a few books, go on hikes through the woods, walks through your neighborhood, bike rides, anything!
Good luck, may you find your path to happiness.
PS I'm no expert, but these have all worked for me
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Re: My mental health is dwindeling.. [Re: kybish]
#7922875 - 01/24/08 01:02 AM (16 years, 9 days ago) |
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well said kybish.
It really does sound like depression. There have been a few times where I really thought I was going crazy. Depression can really fuck with you in many more ways than most people think. I know that a lot of people here are against medication, but it is something to look into. If you are not happy, and have not been for awhile I would suggest at least looking into it. I had a very positive experience with lexapro.
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