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notapillow
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OK. so get this...
#7916084 - 01/22/08 06:05 PM (16 years, 10 days ago) |
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Today i go to work. this dudes house. i do odd jobs for him and help him build stuf, plan stuff bla bla bla
so aperently 2 nights ago one of is room mates OD'ed she had been living there like 2 months and i remember when she first came and saw the place. i ahve hund out with her a few times, smoked with her .ect
2 nights ago TOM the other room mate heard sobing coming from her room, and had a bad feeling, then heard other stranger noises like an hour later. no one wanted to intrude on her, but in the morning after she diddnt come out to breakfast they knocke don the door and found her sprawled out on the floor with half her body under the bed. bloody bile pouring from her mouth. she was completly unresponsive. they took her to the ER she died, they brought her back, now shes in a coma
soooTODAY it was my JOB to clean all the bile and death off the floors. and to pack up and organize all her belongings........
IT WAS HEAVY
i mean i found her needles, her spoons, her belt in the closet.
whip its thrown in every wich place
but bigest of all i foud her journals. filled with horridly depressing and omonis poetry lyrics, drawings andd collage.
i read her preverbial suicde note that was locked in criptic forshadowing and metaphore.
she strugled with alot
she was gay, her dad had died i guess 5 yaears to the day that she OD'ed. her family was abusive i guess. and she felt generaly unloved and un cared for.
she was such a sweet littele thing
she wanted to be a jazz singer....
send good vibes her way guys.... shit i need a bowl right about now
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Re: OK. so get this... [Re: notapillow]
#7916102 - 01/22/08 06:08 PM (16 years, 10 days ago) |
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Man, that sucks... I'm sorry to hear that.
My prayers are with her, her family, and you as well
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notapillow
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i got payed 45 dollers btw
also i had to make part of a fence
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Re: OK. so get this... [Re: notapillow]
#7916112 - 01/22/08 06:10 PM (16 years, 10 days ago) |
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Something like that is never easy to deal with. It's gonna be with you a long time before you can go an entire day without thinking about it.
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Re: OK. so get this... [Re: notapillow]
#7916117 - 01/22/08 06:10 PM (16 years, 10 days ago) |
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OOOh wow, i really really hope she pulls through. That's so horrible that it happened. She took her chemical depression seriously. wow, there is something about you finding all of that info too. like discovering the life of someone, and you are the one to whom it was presented...guess you have a part in her wellbeing now, by getting all the good vibes possible sent her way.
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Re: OK. so get this... [Re: notapillow]
#7916119 - 01/22/08 06:10 PM (16 years, 10 days ago) |
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wow, sorry to hear that man, thats must have been rough.
I hope she recovers and turns her life around. Fuck man.
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Re: OK. so get this... [Re: notapillow]
#7916126 - 01/22/08 06:12 PM (16 years, 10 days ago) |
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why did you read her journal and such?
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Re: OK. so get this... [Re: sui]
#7916131 - 01/22/08 06:12 PM (16 years, 10 days ago) |
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that sucks. give her a hug for us when she comes out of the coma
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Re: OK. so get this... [Re: notapillow]
#7916132 - 01/22/08 06:12 PM (16 years, 10 days ago) |
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Damn man...sorry you went through that.
If I lived around you I'd definitely smoke a bowl with you. On the off chance, PM your location?
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notapillow
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Re: OK. so get this... [Re: sui]
#7916137 - 01/22/08 06:14 PM (16 years, 10 days ago) |
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oh yeah i had to pretty m,uch pack her whole life away then fucking kill any remnents with bleach
it was a weird day 
i dont know how im gonna deal with it really.
she was so nice.
i never suspected it....
i feel for her too. its very har bootteling up creative emotinal energy. she was a slave to her own dreams. like most of us good people
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Re: OK. so get this... [Re: notapillow]
#7916146 - 01/22/08 06:16 PM (16 years, 10 days ago) |
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my uncle's wife has been in a coma for 2.5 years... it's such a hard thing, because he knows she's not coming back, but her parents are refusing to pull the plug hoping for a miracle.
comas can be such treacherous things... best of vibes to her
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notapillow
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Re: OK. so get this... [Re: demiu5]
#7916149 - 01/22/08 06:17 PM (16 years, 10 days ago) |
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Quote:
demius said: why did you read her journal and such?
cus i found them 
nothing to personal. alot of it is wrighten in 3rd person. she always calls herself "she" and she alludes to the fact that some one will find her words soem day.
also she had like 9 of them it wasent like her secret daily journel. it was filled with lyrics she was wrighting. and loads f drawings. lots of faries
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Re: OK. so get this... [Re: notapillow]
#7916156 - 01/22/08 06:19 PM (16 years, 10 days ago) |
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fuck man i suggest just trying not to think about the bad shit i mean shes not dead yet, she could still recover, and if she does maybe this will be an eyeopener for her.
Sucks they had you clean it up though. Just think positive thought and dont get sucked into bad space.
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notapillow
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Re: OK. so get this... [Re: notapillow]
#7916159 - 01/22/08 06:19 PM (16 years, 10 days ago) |
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also she made it clear she did not liek oregon. she came from minisotta
she was trying to start a new life out here.
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Re: OK. so get this... [Re: notapillow]
#7916164 - 01/22/08 06:19 PM (16 years, 10 days ago) |
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What is "omonis poetry"?
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Re: OK. so get this... [Re: notapillow]
#7916165 - 01/22/08 06:20 PM (16 years, 10 days ago) |
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Heroin's not really a good way to start a new life.
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notapillow
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Re: OK. so get this... [Re: sui]
#7916174 - 01/22/08 06:21 PM (16 years, 10 days ago) |
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Quote:
suimush said: fuck man i suggest just trying not to think about the bad shit i mean shes not dead yet, she could still recover, and if she does maybe this will be an eyeopener for her.
Sucks they had you clean it up though. Just think positive thought and dont get sucked into bad space.
i think ill be ok on that front
i can deal with alot of fuck up shit
but ya knwo, i never know how somthigns gonna hit me till im on the floor, anyway im trying to not let it consume me. im just sending love her way and hoping she wakes up.
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notapillow
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Quote:
Penguarky Tunguin said: What is "omonis poetry"?
ohmonis (sp) whatever
forsadowing
she said she was gonna do it in her wrighting. i dont wanna quote her , and i dont wanna get into just how creepy and sad some of her wrighting was but belive me she poured herself into it completly.
semms liek all she did here was work, shoot dope and wright to herself all night long....
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Re: OK. so get this... [Re: notapillow]
#7916216 - 01/22/08 06:27 PM (16 years, 10 days ago) |
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oh
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piller don't type/spell so well. gotta read into the writing and sound it out 
pillow, i really am sorry this happened, for her, her friends, and you. but this is life man, these are some of the things that happen. take what you've learned and felt from this situation, and apply it to your life
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