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Re: I feel like fuck [Re: notapillow]
#7906476 - 01/20/08 05:02 PM (16 years, 12 days ago) |
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see, fools try to tell me, the times are hard, be out on the streets tryin to find a job its the same old song so sad and melancholy but i got my own tape and its a much better copy i think that y'all are tripping you should go ahead with out me if you think that any difficulties would ever stop me
the only thing I'm scared of is wasting my chances cause our responsibility is taking advantage of the gifts that we was given for making advances. (agent 23
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notapillow
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Re: I feel like fuck [Re: Tangerines]
#7906500 - 01/20/08 05:10 PM (16 years, 12 days ago) |
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Tangerines said: Man I went to a Chinese Buffet and I feel like I need to go dump 10 pounds in the toilet. 
Playin Edward 40 Hands later tonight. 
And btw, I noticed you eat a SHIT LOAD of pizza.
ya i wansnt gonna say nothing. bit i think im on day 9 if not more of daily pizza intake
its how i make it throught the day
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Re: I feel like fuck [Re: coulterIV]
#7906507 - 01/20/08 05:12 PM (16 years, 12 days ago) |
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You're not alone broham
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notapillow
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thanks i know im not
some time its just hard to convice myself what i knwo is worth knowing
ya know?
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Re: I feel like fuck [Re: notapillow]
#7906530 - 01/20/08 05:18 PM (16 years, 12 days ago) |
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OH, I know.
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Pillow I can totally hear what you're saying about playing music. I wish I could jam with ya but I'm down here in san diego.
Emotions are like the weather, sometimes stormclouds roll in and block out the sun and its hard to see when it'll end, but the storms always blow through. All you can do is keep honing your skills and looking for work and wait for your mojo to come back. You've got a ton of mojo, more than most people could ever hope for, you're just feeling temporarily down, you'll be back on your feet soon!
I just went through a week of severe depression--full on couldn't eat, couldn't sleep--just laying there all day watching TV feeling like I was being eaten from the inside. Then the sun came out and I went for a couple of long walks and had some coffee and I'm feeling better. It'll pass--just fucking go get some exercise, work up a sweat, that always helps. If you like coffee that can help a lot too.
And now I leave you with some uplifting lyrics from da boys:
Well the first days are the hardest days don't you worry anymore cause when life looks like easy street there is danger at your door think this through with me let me know your mind whoa oh what i want to know-oh... is are you kind?
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Re: I feel like fuck [Re: notapillow]
#7906574 - 01/20/08 05:29 PM (16 years, 12 days ago) |
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notapillow said: thanks i know im not
some time its just hard to convice myself what i knwo is worth knowing
ya know?
This is hands down the shittiest time of my life..I'm in school right now pretty much because my parents wants me to "succeed" in life w/e that means. Last semester I think I got like a 1.0 gpa..I don't know what to do w/ myself..so yeah, my point is..life fucking sucks lolz. They want the best for me but not even I know what's best for me..I'm so confused. But life isn't always fun & games ya know? You have to learn to live in the moment no matter how shitty that moment may be.
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Re: I feel like fuck [Re: Noviseer]
#7906582 - 01/20/08 05:31 PM (16 years, 12 days ago) |
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thanks noviseer
indeed. waves. thats all i think about usualy.
some are a going up and some are a goin down. 
iv had so many real deal bouts with depression in my time it always scares me when i get lost in the black. but i know better now.
its just the jaded bordom i get struck with sometimes, then i just feel like. "shit am i just waiting to die, am i just eatin pizza and playing bass untill i rot"
also, i know i got da mojo. i have it inside me to make people listen. thats somthign people have always made clear to me.
what i shoulc be doing is trying to get some lyrics down on paper. but bleehhh
well well well you cant never tell
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reeferaddict69 said:
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notapillow said: thanks i know im not
some time its just hard to convice myself what i knwo is worth knowing
ya know?
This is hands down the shittiest time of my life..I'm in school right now pretty much because my parents wants me to "succeed" in life w/e that means. Last semester I think I got like a 1.0 gpa..I don't know what to do w/ myself..so yeah, my point is..life fucking sucks lolz. They want the best for me but not even I know what's best for me..I'm so confused. But life isn't always fun & games ya know? You have to learn to live in the moment no matter how shitty that moment may be.
tru dat bro
i feel ya. SOOOO many of my closest oldest freinds are in that boat. im just glad im so retarted my parents where on my side about not going to collage. i would still take classes. early childhood edu is one im interested in. but truly i feel liek that will only make me dumber. fill my head with worthless dribble. i already know how kids work, how they learn, how they play, and how they grow, i know cus im still one myself. going to school will only distence me from the purity and inoccence i kling to dearly
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Re: I feel like fuck [Re: notapillow]
#7906632 - 01/20/08 05:48 PM (16 years, 12 days ago) |
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notapillow said:
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reeferaddict69 said:
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notapillow said: thanks i know im not
some time its just hard to convice myself what i knwo is worth knowing
ya know?
This is hands down the shittiest time of my life..I'm in school right now pretty much because my parents wants me to "succeed" in life w/e that means. Last semester I think I got like a 1.0 gpa..I don't know what to do w/ myself..so yeah, my point is..life fucking sucks lolz. They want the best for me but not even I know what's best for me..I'm so confused. But life isn't always fun & games ya know? You have to learn to live in the moment no matter how shitty that moment may be.
tru dat bro
i feel ya. SOOOO many of my closest oldest freinds are in that boat. im just glad im so retarted my parents where on my side about not going to collage. i would still take classes. early childhood edu is one im interested in. but truly i feel liek that will only make me dumber. fill my head with worthless dribble. i already know how kids work, how they learn, how they play, and how they grow, i know cus im still one myself. going to school will only distence me from the purity and inoccence i kling to dearly
yea..I'm starting to think that maybe college isn't for me, or maybe later but not at this time. bloody Fucking hell...although I'm currently taking a career development class to hopefully help me at least narrow down my list of shit I want to do w/ myself.
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Re: I feel like fuck [Re: notapillow]
#7906637 - 01/20/08 05:49 PM (16 years, 12 days ago) |
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notapillow said: im just down in the dumps.
no job, no money. no real life to speak of 
its juct this crippling feeling that i am worthless and i am gonna die. usualy i can just absorb it and go on with my day. but this futile job hunting is just getting me down 
the only thing that even comes close to making me feel good is thumping my bass.
But just as many people feel like that with money and a job.
Its all in your head man.
Meditate, become a monk, they are proven to be the happiest people on our planet.
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Re: I feel like fuck [Re: Ego Death]
#7906646 - 01/20/08 05:51 PM (16 years, 12 days ago) |
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Ego Death said:
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notapillow said: im just down in the dumps.
no job, no money. no real life to speak of 
its juct this crippling feeling that i am worthless and i am gonna die. usualy i can just absorb it and go on with my day. but this futile job hunting is just getting me down 
the only thing that even comes close to making me feel good is thumping my bass.
But just as many people feel like that with money and a job.
Its all in your head man.
Meditate, become a monk, they are proven to be the happiest people on our planet.
damn, I wanna be a monk. What's the closest thing to being a monk tho?
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Re: I feel like fuck [Re: Ego Death]
#7906647 - 01/20/08 05:52 PM (16 years, 12 days ago) |
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Ego Death said:
Meditate, become a monk, they are proven to be the happiest people on our planet.
I agree wtih the meditate part, but become a monk? If he does that, he won't be coming around here anymore. What's worse - if he does come back, he may end up preaching Jesus. No no, just do the meditation part.
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I am pretty sure monks are celibate....
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Re: I feel like fuck [Re: Ego Death]
#7906661 - 01/20/08 05:55 PM (16 years, 12 days ago) |
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Ego Death said:
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notapillow said: im just down in the dumps.
no job, no money. no real life to speak of 
its juct this crippling feeling that i am worthless and i am gonna die. usualy i can just absorb it and go on with my day. but this futile job hunting is just getting me down 
the only thing that even comes close to making me feel good is thumping my bass.
But just as many people feel like that with money and a job.
Its all in your head man.
Meditate, become a monk, they are proven to be the happiest people on our planet.
who proved that  in south east asian and such being a monk is nothing. every family is expected to have at leased 1 son in a monistary.
iv been study meditation and to a lesser extent buddhism since i was in 6th grade. iv thought about being a monk. but resigning myself to an order, group, sect, or anything of that sort just makes me feel uneasy.
there is one place in west marin tho. called the green gultch zen center. and i always have it in the back of my mind that no matter how hard i fuck up in life. no matter how dire my sittuation is. if i can make it back to marin i can live there for free. work and live of the land with like minded people.
its always out there
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Re: I feel like fuck [Re: notapillow]
#7906671 - 01/20/08 05:59 PM (16 years, 12 days ago) |
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I wanna live in the middle of nowwhere on a farm and live off it! FUCK society!!
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You could always join the Amish.
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andyistic said: You could always join the Amish.
The Amish are a society to
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notapillow
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ya, omish are quite uncolorful
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just play your music man. everything will work out you just gotta keep going. sounds corny but its true 
Youll find somethin, hit up music stores. Thatd be such a sweet job.
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