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Writings on Salvia
#7888185 - 01/16/08 01:04 PM (16 years, 16 days ago) |
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Reading another thread I was reminded of a journal entry I wrote while I was under the effects of salvia divinorum. Thought I would share and opinions are encouraged. The penmanship is.. very messy (stated to paint better perspective). Written about a year and a half ago.
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Journal,
Oh geeze!
SALVIA MAN, what a goddam experience. this is. one minute it feels like, really feels like! reality is going to show it self and its all really an expression of the ever streaming thoughts in my head and what I am experiencing is just the manifestation. but i don't want to believe it because its that doubt which creates my individualism... and dilemma. I thought my bed ang, and guitar were talking to me - as extensions/thoughts from my own mind. the now waits for you until you're ready. frig! i need to. my consciousness is inseparable. the wavelengths are the same, human consciousness, but the reactions and perceptions to this reality. it felt like the consciousness of this reality was trying to turn in on itself. its like it uproots your subconscious thoughts pertaining to any given event. the egos set response, automatic response to a thought or observance.
part of me feels like I am unwilling to embrace the truth because I am so terrified of it. the self. god. living within Gods creation. Harmonization. Perfection. Beauty.
I am petrified of this because I am afraid of myself.. this is the obstacle.
The monolith. the giant. the wall. but it isn't impossible.
The ego has you trapped with its web of self-perpetuated thoughts. Bogged down.
And then its gone. Was it all a dream? Can this experience be replicated through meditation and prayer? Its right infront of me. Its Eden and I am scared of hell of it.
Whaaaaat?
Why? Stop. Here comes the rain.
Its the individualistic/separate ideals that keep me from Eden. I... jeeze. If only I could let go of the ego, so entrenched within my being; so rooted. Then I would live in heaven. Its all in front of me. Or is it all a dream?
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I generally feel a lot more relaxed after a salvia trip (even my dad commented on it one time when I came back from the woods after smoking it). Despite what those stupid youtube videos depict for the most part (and I know it is superfluous to mention it here), I believe salvia is indeed a great mental medicine.
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Edited by WScott (01/16/08 01:08 PM)
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Re: Writings on Salvia [Re: WScott]
#7888208 - 01/16/08 01:13 PM (16 years, 16 days ago) |
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Shit scared the hell out of me for a good two weeks. Felt like reality came apart. The universe fell apart on me. When I came down I thought that surly things would spontaneously unfold on me at any moment. Scary.
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Re: Writings on Salvia [Re: WScott]
#7888341 - 01/16/08 01:52 PM (16 years, 16 days ago) |
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I have also noticed a pronounced afterglow following the use of salvia. I guess you could say that it might have helped along in my quitting cigarettes, although I probably would have quit anyway since I tend to do that a lot. It was weird though, just had so many thoughts that resulted from the experience. It was sort of distracting me from the idea of having a stoge, lol. Either that, or maybe it helped ease my mind from the things that might have driven me to smoke?
Anyway, thanks for sharing. That was an awesome write up, and strangely I can understand it a bit.
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backfromthedead said: Shit scared the hell out of me for a good two weeks. Felt like reality came apart. The universe fell apart on me. When I came down I thought that surly things would spontaneously unfold on me at any moment. Scary.
That's exactly how I felt after a certain acid trip. I was on my toes at all times, just expecting reality to crumble.
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Loving in truth, and fain in verse my love to show, That the dear She might take some pleasure of my pain: Pleasure might cause her read, reading might make her know, Knowledge might pity win, and pity grace obtain.
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