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psychejam
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I'm not going insane, I'm not going insane....maybe I am?!
#7887814 - 01/16/08 10:42 AM (16 years, 16 days ago) |
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So after two months of drug abstinence, I decided to smoke the crumbs of weed that I had left in the bottom of an old baggie - managed to scrape together not even half a bowls worth of weed.
What in Lord's name is wrong with me? I know full well I do not have schizophrenia or any form of psychosis, and am unlikely to develop anything (absolutely no history of mental illness in family - except my nan, who has mild alzheimers), yet I still managed to convince myself that I'm going crazy and that I will start hearing voices and all that shit. I can't even give myself a chance to listen for the schizo voices for fear of actually "hearing" something.. Which just scares me.
The feeling of not being totally 'with it' after smoking that half bowl of weed completely fucked my anxiety levels up the bumhole!
Can anyone relate?
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Sell Your Soul
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Re: I'm not going insane, I'm not going insane....maybe I am?! [Re: psychejam]
#7887820 - 01/16/08 10:45 AM (16 years, 16 days ago) |
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When I was doing acid on a regular basis I would get that way. Since I cut down drastically, however, that went away. Doing weed just relaxes me - no paranoia or anything. Of course, I only do it at night. I have to remain sober during the day for business reasons.
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AroundtheSon
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Re: I'm not going insane, I'm not going insane....maybe I am?! [Re: psychejam]
#7887829 - 01/16/08 10:48 AM (16 years, 16 days ago) |
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Don't smoke weed?
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psychejam
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Re: I'm not going insane, I'm not going insane....maybe I am?! [Re: AroundtheSon]
#7887837 - 01/16/08 10:51 AM (16 years, 16 days ago) |
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I didn't smoke weed for 2 months because of anxiety reasons. The anxiety and shizzle got a lot better, hence my reasoning for trying to smoke pot again.
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AroundtheSon
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Re: I'm not going insane, I'm not going insane....maybe I am?! [Re: psychejam]
#7887843 - 01/16/08 10:53 AM (16 years, 16 days ago) |
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Weed causes anxiety in a lot of people - I can relate. But if it bothers you - don't do it. 
Wait this one out - your not crazy - but then don't partake.
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Re: I'm not going insane, I'm not going insane....maybe I am?! [Re: AroundtheSon]
#7888077 - 01/16/08 12:36 PM (16 years, 16 days ago) |
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The lead up to before you smoked your half bowl, were you anxious that you were going to have a bad experience if you smoked, even slightly? I know that when I've had bad anxiety with marijuana that beforehand I was worried that it would happen.. and it does. I try to smoke with people for the most part for that reason, or to use my high for painting or something. Try meditating.
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Re: I'm not going insane, I'm not going insane....maybe I am?! [Re: psychejam]
#7888091 - 01/16/08 12:41 PM (16 years, 16 days ago) |
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Maybe weed is not for you
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