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danlennon3
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I lost myself
#7883119 - 01/15/08 12:11 PM (16 years, 17 days ago) |
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I basically spent The past 9 months of my life in my house. I got no job,no school, no money and cant drive at this time. Because of my circumstances, I feel that my mind has gone through a change too. I'm not this happy, full hearted person who wakes up every day with a smile on my face excited for the day to come... I now wake up thinking how I am going to get through the day.I want to feel like I have a purpose again. I feel it is very difficult to get the strength and pull myself out of this mess. I have gone through such a drastic change, I feel like I cant be the person I used to be.
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im_on_a_boat
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dude you need to pull yo shit together brah.. good luck with it.
i dont know what happened to you, but snap out of it dude! if you want to do something (in this case, get your life together and your shit straight) then do it!
nobody is going to do it for you..
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danlennon3
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its not one specific event, its many many events which lead me to feel this way.Its 9 months of sitting around, thinking and dwelling. I have all the time in the world, yet I waste it away. I used to be full of ambition but currently I have no motivation. the only time I feel good is when I take my medication. I have been on it for 4 months and its helping me, but it cant help with all the other issues. by other issues I mean money, depression, paying for school, getting a job. It seemed like a lot went downhill since I had my 2 seizures...all my life I never had seizures, then out of nowhere I get 2. The seizures were stress related.
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Icelander
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learn to breath again. (like a baby)
-------------------- "Don't believe everything you think". -Anom. " All that lives was born to die"-Anom. With much wisdom comes much sorrow, The more knowledge, the more grief. Ecclesiastes circa 350 BC
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Cherk
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Re: I lost myself [Re: Icelander]
#7883829 - 01/15/08 02:55 PM (16 years, 17 days ago) |
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Quote:
Icelander said: learn to breath again. (like a baby)
yeah do this!
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I have considered such matters. SIKE
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Love Cap
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Re: I lost myself [Re: Cherk]
#7883959 - 01/15/08 03:19 PM (16 years, 17 days ago) |
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i say get off the meds.... those things are never ever good. and start meditation! you need to heal yourself, and ethnobotanicals are also great for that. society is designed to keep you as a robot, but you have to find your own way to deal with it and still keep up your spirits... and eventually (what i'm hoping to do one day) get out of this shit!
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im_on_a_boat
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here's an idea:
quit smoking.
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freddurgan
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yeah quit smoking, and learn to be accustomed to stillness? if you can't handle doing nothing then you're going to be bound for constant misery.
or redefine your "ambition". animals do nothing all the time. why can't you?
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Gomp
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First thought next time you wake up, let it be; What can I 'help create'/create today? ..
I heard that in a movie or something. I am kind of in the same spot as you. Winter came before I could fix my moped, and my MC is not to be driven on ice/snow. So I am kind of stuck.. I guess I got no real advice, but I would just hang in there.
"When going throgh hell, keep going!" ~ some president
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mushbaby
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Re: I lost myself [Re: Gomp]
#7887409 - 01/16/08 06:56 AM (16 years, 16 days ago) |
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Sounds like you need to get out of the house. But if you have been there for awhile even doing that can feel a little overwhelming. Is there a place in walking distance where maybe you could volunteer a couple of hours a week? Or an elderly person nearby that could use a little assistance? Get their groceries or walk their pet. Something little can make a big difference.
Then not only would that help you get up and out, but you'd be helping others too. That always makes me feel good.
I'm not gonna recommend quitting the meds. Sometimes we need them for a little while. I was on anti-depressants for about a year. Then felt I didn't need them anymore and quit.
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WhiskeyClone
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Quote:
danlennon3 said: its not one specific event, its many many events which lead me to feel this way.Its 9 months of sitting around, thinking and dwelling. I have all the time in the world, yet I waste it away.
I've been in funks like that. The only thing that seems to help is to do the productive things you don't feel like doing, one by one.
No matter what you do or don't do, you are responsible for the outcome. Just don't treat it all as one big problem. You can only do one thing at a time. This is good news! It makes things simpler. One thing, that's all you ever have to do.
Attack the corners. Pick one small thing and make it better. Ignore everything else for the moment. Either that, or sit and sulk and expect more of the same. It gets worse the longer you wait.
-------------------- Welcome evermore to gods and men is the self-helping man. For him all doors are flung wide: him all tongues greet, all honors crown, all eyes follow with desire. Our love goes out to him and embraces him, because he did not need it. ~ R.W. Emerson, "Self-Reliance"
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Ahimsa
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Hi, i try to keep myself to a regular day schedule. After a week i break the pattern for a day or so...
When i feel demotivated the schedule helps to organise my actions. Start with cleaning up he mess or so... repair somehing...
Hope this may benefit you.
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Living_Tribunal
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Re: I lost myself [Re: Ahimsa]
#7892999 - 01/17/08 01:08 PM (16 years, 15 days ago) |
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I'm doing the same shit,no job/school.It sucks...im really looking right now too
well keep your head up man!
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mushbaby
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THe job situation seems to be getting pretty bad. Seems everywhere I go I hear people are looking for work.
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JoseLibrado
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Re: I lost myself [Re: mushbaby]
#7893992 - 01/17/08 05:10 PM (16 years, 15 days ago) |
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CLEan up your FUCKING HOUSE!!
DOnt really know why, but i felt like it.
Start writing a book about your experiences.
Know that whatever bad is coming, the universe is balanced.
Remember the GOOD only is experience through the BAD.
-------------------- The mind is a creative tool. It searches to protect you, through message sensations(feelings). It is no different than a computer, you need to make sure its anti-virus program is in check and that it doesnt have a script that limits your experience, because of to much precaution. And remember the computer does not appear to respond to words of anger and frustration - just give it input, in the form of new meanings that you know to be true and its messages to you and the limits it lays out for you, will change. Guilt is an outcome of believing you are the cause of the problems. Yet, we are not a cause to something, we see is negative or bad - Unless you believe your intentions are directed towards a bad outcome....
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tthom580
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Ok, I'd say first off, don't listen to the crazy guy saying that anti-depressants are never good. I'd say he's probably never had a serious problem with depression, and doesn't understand how bad it really feels if he's suggesting only meditation to "heal yourself". Start small. Get out of the house as much as possible, try to eliminate things that allow you to sit around your house all day(when I got depressed, if I had enough weed, I'd sit in my room for a week straight.) Accomplish little things, exercise, etc. Things that you can see results and see things changing for the better. Keep a list of things you want to get done somewhere in your house where you see it alot so you always know something you can do. Most importantly, you just have to change what you're doing in general. If you're not happy with what you're doing now, then try something different, and if that doesn't make you happy, try something else. The fact is that staying in the cycle is never going to change your results, so you might as well keep moving.
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wyrdfreeg
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if you dont mind a dog on your lap, u can ride sidecar.. or if you got a skateboard ill pull u long behindm us i c ok music, if you punch your body its kind of like a rubber band drum skin ull make music,
"harmonize"
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