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Siekoaktiv
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Fucking horrible weed experience
#7860740 - 01/10/08 05:37 PM (16 years, 22 days ago) |
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I don't know what happened, but it was probably the depression I've been stuck in for the past few days, thinking about death and shit. Last night, I got really high, and I accidentally started thinking about death. I thought about what it would feel like to not exist anymore, and that got me started on thinking about all the great memories I have... I don't want to loose them, and I can't bear the thought of ceasing to exist. Nothing has ever felt this real, and yet everything feels so foreign. I don't know what to do... I would feel so much better if I believed in some sort of life after death, yet I can't force myself to believe it. The only thing that seems probable is just... death. Nothing after, just to stop existing... the thought of that scares the shit out of me.
-------------------- I'm in need of a sterile sporeprint, if anyone wants to do a trade for some seeds or something, or maybe just for free if you have a lot of them............. i'd really appreciate it NuggetPorch said - "YES! YES!!!! Coaster its Faint, but its fucking there YOU see it!!! Perhaps we are both on some sort of unusual wave length associated with unusual neuro-transmitters, mind expansion white light, or something we can not even begin to understand or fathom to conceive because it is a gift of insight or a curse given to us by powers beyond our control, something we are not meant to know."
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Cannabischarlie
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Re: Fucking horrible weed experience [Re: Siekoaktiv]
#7860765 - 01/10/08 05:44 PM (16 years, 22 days ago) |
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there doesn't have to be a god for there to be an afterlife.
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g00ru
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Re: Fucking horrible weed experience [Re: Siekoaktiv]
#7860767 - 01/10/08 05:45 PM (16 years, 22 days ago) |
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I know what you mean. Sometimes I think, I want there to be something after death. And then I get real with myself. And then I know that in all probability, there isn't, that it's just like before we were born.
I deal with the same problems, all I can tell you is that you're thinking of it within the context of eternity. I think of my own life as eternity. Its not death then nothing. Its death.
Really, you can't worry about it. Don't try to make yourself prepared. Don't try to come to grips with it, it's bigger than you are.
Just live, and any sort of inner peace will come with time.
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Siekoaktiv
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Re: Fucking horrible weed experience [Re: g00ru]
#7860777 - 01/10/08 05:48 PM (16 years, 22 days ago) |
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I just feel so trapped, you know? I wish this could go on forever, but there's 0% chance of that happening. I'm completely unmotivated to do anything at all, because it just feels like there's no point. I feel horrible.
-------------------- I'm in need of a sterile sporeprint, if anyone wants to do a trade for some seeds or something, or maybe just for free if you have a lot of them............. i'd really appreciate it NuggetPorch said - "YES! YES!!!! Coaster its Faint, but its fucking there YOU see it!!! Perhaps we are both on some sort of unusual wave length associated with unusual neuro-transmitters, mind expansion white light, or something we can not even begin to understand or fathom to conceive because it is a gift of insight or a curse given to us by powers beyond our control, something we are not meant to know."
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im_on_a_boat
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Re: Fucking horrible weed experience [Re: Siekoaktiv]
#7860783 - 01/10/08 05:51 PM (16 years, 22 days ago) |
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quit dwelling on it bro
make it best of it while you're here...
after all.. it's a beautiful ride.

in my dreams your blowin me.. some kisses.
just chill bro. maybe quit smoking.
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g00ru
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Re: Fucking horrible weed experience [Re: Siekoaktiv]
#7860785 - 01/10/08 05:51 PM (16 years, 22 days ago) |
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Siekoaktiv said: I just feel so trapped, you know? I wish this could go on forever, but there's 0% chance of that happening. I'm completely unmotivated to do anything at all, because it just feels like there's no point. I feel horrible.
In a universal sense, you're right, theres probably no point.
But within the context of your life and your life only, theres a HUGE point to being motivated. People think they're gonna go to heaven and get some fuckin prize for all the money they've made. Ya don't. There's no final report card (as far as I can tell). Just live to make yourself happy. In many cases success is part of that, and as we all know motivation is a huge part of success.
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Re: Fucking horrible weed experience [Re: g00ru]
#7860809 - 01/10/08 05:59 PM (16 years, 22 days ago) |
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Next time you're REALLY high, read some of this-
http://www.exitmundi.nl/exitmundi.htm
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origami.octopus
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Re: Fucking horrible weed experience [Re: g00ru]
#7860814 - 01/10/08 06:02 PM (16 years, 22 days ago) |
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hello death anxiety.
Some would say death is the greatest experience of all. I dont wanna die now, but i do wanna be aware of my passing.
I'm interested to see what people think about an ego death experience and if it effects death anxiety.
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Re: Fucking horrible weed experience [Re: Innominate]
#7860822 - 01/10/08 06:03 PM (16 years, 22 days ago) |
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Innominate said: Next time you're REALLY high, read some of this-
http://www.exitmundi.nl/exitmundi.htm
I'm literally gonna read every word on this site.
Thank you. 5 shrooms for you.
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ive had the same problems be4 and when i would contemplate it i would do really irrational things because i thought nothing matterd(this is how ppl get hurt) and then i realized ceasing to exist really isnt that bad think about be4 u were born u didnt exist, and u were fine dont worry about it bro i had the same problems but i got over it except i cant take over an 8th of shrooms cuz that feeling comes back and turns a good experience into the worst imaginable (and i really think most people cant imagine the horrors ive realized)
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Re: Fucking horrible weed experience [Re: Siekoaktiv]
#7860829 - 01/10/08 06:06 PM (16 years, 22 days ago) |
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Who says you lose all your memories when you die?
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Siekoaktiv
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Penguarky Tunguin said: Who says you lose all your memories when you die?
It just doesn't seem possible... memories are stored in your brain... and it's a very well known fact that the brain decomposes after death, just like everything else.
-------------------- I'm in need of a sterile sporeprint, if anyone wants to do a trade for some seeds or something, or maybe just for free if you have a lot of them............. i'd really appreciate it NuggetPorch said - "YES! YES!!!! Coaster its Faint, but its fucking there YOU see it!!! Perhaps we are both on some sort of unusual wave length associated with unusual neuro-transmitters, mind expansion white light, or something we can not even begin to understand or fathom to conceive because it is a gift of insight or a curse given to us by powers beyond our control, something we are not meant to know."
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Re: Fucking horrible weed experience [Re: Siekoaktiv]
#7860891 - 01/10/08 06:24 PM (16 years, 22 days ago) |
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Siekoaktiv said:
I just feel so trapped, you know? I wish this could go on forever, but there's 0% chance of that happening. I'm completely unmotivated to do anything at all, because it just feels like there's no point. I feel horrible.
But this WILL go on forever, as you know it! For most likely, once your life ends, so with it goes your consciousness. With no consciousness, you cannot be aware of your existance or lack thereof. Have not worry over things beyond your control, instead, attempt to focus your conscious mind on the present moment, for this is all you will ever truly have the ability to affect.
Do not give in to the dreaded apathy, I implore you! There is a lot of good stuff out there to experience. 
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Cannabischarlie said: there doesn't have to be a god for there to be an afterlife.
He never said anything about god.
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Re: Fucking horrible weed experience [Re: jewunit]
#7860922 - 01/10/08 06:30 PM (16 years, 22 days ago) |
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To to OP, I actually had that exact experience about a week ago. I mean dude.. I literally started flippin out inside my head, i managed to calm myself down. That experience will never be forgotten. Been thinking about all that stuff allot lately.
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Re: Fucking horrible weed experience [Re: DiabloSmurf]
#7860952 - 01/10/08 06:36 PM (16 years, 22 days ago) |
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Nothing after death is a possiblity. But just because that makes sense to you doesnt necessarily mean its true. Think about things youve seen or thought on psychedelics you would have never imagined. Their is a hell of a lot we dont know, and we are way more than just a body.
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Re: Fucking horrible weed experience [Re: Siekoaktiv]
#7860978 - 01/10/08 06:42 PM (16 years, 22 days ago) |
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Siekoaktiv said: I don't know what happened, but it was probably the depression I've been stuck in for the past few days, thinking about death and shit. Last night, I got really high, and I accidentally started thinking about death. I thought about what it would feel like to not exist anymore, and that got me started on thinking about all the great memories I have... I don't want to loose them, and I can't bear the thought of ceasing to exist. Nothing has ever felt this real, and yet everything feels so foreign. I don't know what to do... I would feel so much better if I believed in some sort of life after death, yet I can't force myself to believe it. The only thing that seems probable is just... death. Nothing after, just to stop existing... the thought of that scares the shit out of me.
Dawg I got the same shit goin on right now I feelz ya. But sometimes man, you jsut gotta say fuck it because you can't change it.
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Re: Fucking horrible weed experience [Re: Siekoaktiv]
#7860982 - 01/10/08 06:43 PM (16 years, 22 days ago) |
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Siekoaktiv said:
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Penguarky Tunguin said: Who says you lose all your memories when you die?
It just doesn't seem possible... memories are stored in your brain... and it's a very well known fact that the brain decomposes after death, just like everything else.
"Death is our eternal companion. It is always to our left, an arm's length behind us. Death is the only wise adviser that a warrior has. Whenever he feels that everything is going wrong and he's about to be annihilated, he can turn to his death and ask if that is so. His death will tell him that he is wrong, that nothing really matters outside its touch. His death will tell him, I haven't touched you yet.'"
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g00ru
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^ Sounds good. But when we die, we die.
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Re: Fucking horrible weed experience [Re: DiabloSmurf]
#7861081 - 01/10/08 07:05 PM (16 years, 22 days ago) |
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DiabloSmurf said: To to OP, I actually had that exact experience about a week ago. I mean dude.. I literally started flippin out inside my head, i managed to calm myself down. That experience will never be forgotten. Been thinking about all that stuff allot lately.
Yeah, I also won't soon forget my experience. It seems like it lasted 30 minutes, but from what I remember about the tv show that was on at the time, it was only about 10. I started getting so worried and freaking out, and I decided the only way to stop it was to go to sleep. Once in bed, I felt my heartbeat and it felt like it was going twice its normal speed. Finally, I was able to get to sleep.
-------------------- I'm in need of a sterile sporeprint, if anyone wants to do a trade for some seeds or something, or maybe just for free if you have a lot of them............. i'd really appreciate it NuggetPorch said - "YES! YES!!!! Coaster its Faint, but its fucking there YOU see it!!! Perhaps we are both on some sort of unusual wave length associated with unusual neuro-transmitters, mind expansion white light, or something we can not even begin to understand or fathom to conceive because it is a gift of insight or a curse given to us by powers beyond our control, something we are not meant to know."
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