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demiu5
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large(r) doses are not for me right now (n,n)
#7847983 - 01/08/08 01:34 PM (16 years, 24 days ago) |
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i just don't think i'm ready for them again. another terrifying, thought-i-was-dying experience.
i think part of the problem is the scramble to get the pipe back safely without the liquid running everywhere (this makes a huge fucking mess, trust me)
this time, though, the come up hit me as i was pulling on the first hit. maybe i should've stopped at the second hit, but the third was so tempting.
colors were different and patterns were much sharper (physically sharp, like a knife). i vaguely remember seeing/feeling a 'female' presence in the center of the chaos that kept folding in on itself and me.
i lost track/control of my breathing again, couldn't feel my chest moving at all when i placed my hand over my heart, but my heart was racing.
towards the end, though, was incredibly beautiful. it felt as if i was drifting in and out of consciousness, and at one point i hit my pillow face first and everything just stopped (except the trip itself)
i think if/when i decide to dose high again, i will definitely have my roommate or one other friend here with me so if i start freaking out someone can try and calm me down
oddly enough, i actually felt physical pain in my head/brain between my eyes once i was almost completely down
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2859558484
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Re: large(r) doses are not for me right now (n,n) [Re: demiu5]
#7848777 - 01/08/08 04:11 PM (16 years, 24 days ago) |
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if you wanna do high doses you gotta be able to let yourself go completely, including your bodily functions. know that youre working with a very kind molecule, one that has been held sacred for thousands of years.
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demiu5
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Re: large(r) doses are not for me right now (n,n) [Re: 2859558484]
#7849010 - 01/08/08 04:54 PM (16 years, 24 days ago) |
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yea i know. when i first started using this chemical, these high doses were not a problem and breakthroughs were marvelous, but recently they have been difficult mentally and physically. i think a large part is how much i used in the last two months, and this is the nice way of letting me know i need to continue with this break
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notapillow
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Re: large(r) doses are not for me right now (n,n) [Re: demiu5]
#7851335 - 01/08/08 11:31 PM (16 years, 24 days ago) |
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that reminds me almost verbadum of the "shotgun" trip i had when i quite litteraly blew my fucking head off. i only took one hit. but to this day that was the most physicaly intense trip i have had. i think i inhaled for too long. my chest also felt liek it was caving. my breathing also became scattered, and i also collapsed on the pillow burrying my eyes deep into it. i remember trying to count breaths. but the time between breath 1 and 2 seemed like a millenia so i quit that and just road it out glad your ok dude
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demiu5
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Re: large(r) doses are not for me right now (n,n) [Re: notapillow]
#7851581 - 01/09/08 12:10 AM (16 years, 23 days ago) |
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by any chance did you write out and/or post it? i'd love to read some detail if so.
the breathing always seems to be an issue on any significant sized dose, as well as heart rate. this is why i think i would like to start having a sober sitter so they could monitor my vitals if i start worrying about them
in all honesty, i would have no fear of dying while in the throes of this beautiful chemical if it weren't for the fact that the death would be reported as a result of dmt use
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notapillow
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Re: large(r) doses are not for me right now (n,n) [Re: demiu5]
#7853314 - 01/09/08 12:14 PM (16 years, 23 days ago) |
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too true. that woudl be a mega downer
china cats 70mg iv thread is still to this day ` the most amazinglt well put high dose trip report i have read.
he says that when he cam down his wife was crying and holding him in her arms. and that his pulse had gone far to high to count.
CC also has a history of heart problems so it truly would be sad to loose ny of the intrepid
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