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christus
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Something I wrote on the nature of unhappiness (on shrooms)
#7808724 - 12/28/07 09:40 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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As I was coming down from a rough trip, I started writing whatever came to my mind. A little piece on the nature of depression is what resulted.
I feel that this writing was heavily influenced by psychedelics, hence why I posted in this section. Please move my post if it's inappropriate for this section.
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What is it to be unhappy? To be truly unhappy in the purest sense of the word; not merely annoyed or put off by an inconvenient circumstance or happening, but to be constantly tortured by a nagging shard of feeling whose cause is unknown or tangible.
Many expressive works throughout history have been fueled in creation by the "powerful" emotions: love, hate, grief, rejection... all of what mankind chooses to define as the extreme aspects of human emotion. What many fail to realize is the simple power of the feelings that have been marginalized. A few of the somewhat "mild" feelings, such as frustration, loneliness, and dissatisfaction may be perhaps the root cause of the true, miserable state of unhappiness. An unhappiness brought on not by some tragedy or happening out of one's control, but by a gradual attrition of emotional and mental health.
I want to articulate as best as I can what it means to be overwhelmed and inescapably encompassed by unhappiness. It begins with a physical manifestation; an odd, uncomfortable sensation somewhere in the middle of the chest, extending downwards (I'll call this "gnawing"). This "gnawing" persists as long as the mind is not completely occupied (i.e. distracted). The next facet is restlessness... perhaps walking around, turning on the T.V., watching for twenty minutes, getting up, checking the computer, walking to the bathroom in hopes of bumping into someone to distract you from the cycle of restlessness, then repeating. A third aspect to this state of unhappiness is the ultimate dissatisfaction with everything. A sandwich just doesn't hit the spot, your favorite website simply bores you, a Coke just doesn't taste right, or music you once loved grinds on your eardrums. These things combine into one feeling, which turns into an insatiable desire to escape, to run... yet you're haunted by the knowledge that no matter what you do, these horrid manifestations will continue to wilt your mental and emotional constitution.
As the progression of the many elements of unhappiness gain a larger foothold, a deep sense of helplessness begins to set in, challenging an individual's feelings of self worth and capabilities... leading to an ultimate downward spiral that compounds on itself.
The strange thing about unhappiness, unlike the easily understood and explained "extreme" emotions (these are often event driven), is that it's hard to pinpoint what brings it on. I liken it to how poison finds its way into soil: a painfully slow process of leaching. Maybe a compounding of "extreme" events suppressed, much like buried trash, slowly leaching its way into the mind on the afflicted... yes, that's it. Surely it couldn't be so simple.
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Edited by christus (12/28/07 09:41 PM)
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Re: Something on the nature of unhappiness I wrote (on shrooms) [Re: christus]
#7808763 - 12/28/07 09:51 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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This article makes alot of sense, well written.
And your right about restlessnes i have been through that many times, finding myself doing those exact things.
When u think about it u do tend to use distractions to sidetrack feelings of unhappyness and depression. I wouldnt threw a short period of E abuse (and thankfully it was short, cause it fucked my memory) due to things getting me and i didnt realise it. In reality when i was off the pills i felt worse.
I have recently (just started 2day) getting into meditating
http://www.how-to-meditate.org/
Very good site.
I have only began with breathing meditation, its purpose being to slow the mind down and clear your head of any thoughts. Your mind is very busy even when u dont realise it. And when you acheive a clear mind u get into a lucid state. With a mind clear of any thoughts and distractions you are able to relax.
Doing this everyday for a short period can have great effects, and is the first step into the next steps of meditation.
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meditation actually gives you more time by making your mind calmer and more focused. A simple ten or fifteen minute breathing meditation as explained below can help you to overcome your stress and find some inner peace and balance. Meditation can also help us to understand our own mind
I tried this 2day and i believe it helped me through a very special experience which happened once before but had a slight issue (its complicated)
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Re: Something on the nature of unhappiness I wrote (on shrooms) [Re: veda_sticks]
#7808961 - 12/28/07 10:43 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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Well, there's unhappiness, and then there's depression.
Unhappiness is crappy, but at least you can get out of bed in the morning. I can identify with what you have to say, but I think you may be over sensationalizing what sounds to me like just not being completely content with your life.
It's not easy to be truly happy, and I don't think most people are. It takes pro activism and, usually, some work.
99% of the world, it seems to me, lives their life in a just short of happiness phase, waiting for the moments that make life worth living. It's human nature to want more than what we have.
Makes me want to become a Buddhist Dem boyz are on ta somthin'
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Re: Something on the nature of unhappiness I wrote (on shrooms) [Re: g00ru]
#7812460 - 12/30/07 01:42 AM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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I really like the analogy of leaching...
IMO, coming out of a depressed state is very much like leaching excessive nutrients out of a pot of soil. Just as it takes numerous runs of clean water to accomplish, so does it take many runs of positive emotions, moments, and interactions to leach unhappiness/depression out of a mans soul...
As nutrients are not toxic to plants in the proper amounts, neither is unhappiness to humans... It's when we become saturated w/ unhappiness that the problems start. Imbalance sets in, and the pendulum swings to depression.
So often in this state do we begin to believe that unhappiness needs to banished from our life, often going to extreme lengths to drive it away. Only when we realize that this emotion is necessary as a balance to contentment/bliss do we achieve inner peace. The ying to happiness' yang...
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Re: Something on the nature of unhappiness I wrote (on shrooms) [Re: Agave]
#7812593 - 12/30/07 03:11 AM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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walking to the bathroom in hopes of bumping into someone to distract you from the cycle of restlessness
lolwut?
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Re: Something on the nature of unhappiness I wrote (on shrooms) [Re: truekimbo2]
#7812609 - 12/30/07 03:37 AM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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Funny, it sounds like what I've dealt with every day for the past few months. I need a good dosing to clear my head, I've been dropping back into my rut lately, and I could really use a shift in perspective right about now, because from where I sit, it all looks fucked.
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Re: Something on the nature of unhappiness I wrote (on shrooms) [Re: Skeeblix]
#7812864 - 12/30/07 09:08 AM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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Your article is not at all bad.
It has kind of a small scope, which is not at all a bad thing.
Take what you clearly know through this fine demonstration, and attempt to understand the contextualization in EVERYTHING.
I will explain further only if you wish.
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