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Anonymous #1
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On mushrooms and had to get this stuff out
#7802927 - 12/27/07 04:26 AM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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So, I'm kind of starting to come down from a bad mushroom trip, and really wanted to get some stuff out.
-I am a selfish person -I am lonely -I try too hard -I feel too unique, but suspect that I'm going through the same shit that a lot of other people are -I am a very anxious person -I am socially awkward and lack in many good true friendships (as well as relationships with girls), though I have a couple people that are really close to me -Sometimes I crave attention -I hate the fact that I am making this thread -I'm too serious, I really need to figure out how to lighten up in general. -I think and analyze way too much -Being an introverted person can suck -I have low self esteem -I feel like I have more issues than everyone else -I could use someone to talk to..someone who can just fucking relate with me so I feel more grounded, normal, and like everyone else. -I don't know how to go about fixing all these personality traits.
The mushrooms are definitely pointing all these issues out to me. While I would like to say they are an exaggerated result of me tripping, I actually think they are pretty accurate.
My brain needs to chill the fuck out right now. > <
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Anonymous #2
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Re: On mushrooms and had to get this stuff out [Re: Anonymous #1]
#7803047 - 12/27/07 07:03 AM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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sounds like you had a good trip.
these things you mentioned are not really bad. Your problem might be that you care too much. Put all that passion into having fun, instead of trying to put on a front...and you will be golden.
But in the end, it doesn't matter. Life is not a popularity contest, you dont need to win am Oscar to live forever, or be stapled to a cross. Just have fun, and do what you want.
Maybe try doing something new too, working out can be very rewarding, and build self esteem/confidence. Make a list of things you would like to do in life, and then start doing them. Most goals are achievable, but you need to know what they are first.
But seriously. Everyone is selfish, and everything we do is selfish even if we trick ourselves into thinking its not...a way to make us feel better.
You are probably really unique, which will cause you to be socially awkward, and anxious. This fact means you need attention, and probably dont know too many outlets to get your message out, and that is why you make these posts. Being socially awkward, with time on your hands will make you over analyze situations, give you low self esteme, etc.
And you are right, you are not the only one, more people feel exactly like you than you will ever know, exept they all hide in their caves.
All these things you listed are not problems, only symptoms of maybe one or two personality traits you have of many.
How old are you?
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Anonymous #3
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Re: On mushrooms and had to get this stuff out [Re: Anonymous #2]
#7803086 - 12/27/07 07:25 AM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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I think you should add to the list that you are too hard on yourself.
And about only having a few friends, my guess is you are just counting true friends. My experience is that true friends are rare indeed I have never had more than about 3 or 4 true friends.
And unique is GOOD! Who wants to be like everyone else? There are alot of dull unimaginative people out there.
Get some sleep and come back and read this when you aren't so drained. Maybe things will seem better then.
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Anonymous #4
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Re: On mushrooms and had to get this stuff out [Re: Anonymous #1]
#7803105 - 12/27/07 07:38 AM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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Quote:
First Man: I think, I think I am, therefore I am, I think.
Establishment: Of course you are my bright little star, I've miles And miles Of files Pretty files of your forefather's fruit and now to suit our great computer, You're magnetic ink.
First Man: I'm more than that, I know I am, at least, I think I must be.
Inner Man: There you go man, keep as cool as you can. Face piles Of trials With smiles. It riles them to believe that you perceive the web they weave And keep on thinking free.
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Anonymous #5
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Re: On mushrooms and had to get this stuff out [Re: Anonymous #1]
#7803354 - 12/27/07 09:51 AM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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-I feel too unique, but suspect that I'm going through the same shit that a lot of other people are
No, you are completely alone in whatever you are going through. Dont lie to yourself with that stupid hopeless bullshit.
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Anonymous #6
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Re: On mushrooms and had to get this stuff out [Re: Anonymous #1]
#7803368 - 12/27/07 09:58 AM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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Anonymous said: So, I'm kind of starting to come down from a bad mushroom trip, and really wanted to get some stuff out.
-I am a selfish person -I am lonely -I try too hard -I feel too unique, but suspect that I'm going through the same shit that a lot of other people are -I am a very anxious person -I am socially awkward and lack in many good true friendships (as well as relationships with girls), though I have a couple people that are really close to me -Sometimes I crave attention -I hate the fact that I am making this thread -I'm too serious, I really need to figure out how to lighten up in general. -I think and analyze way too much -Being an introverted person can suck -I have low self esteem -I feel like I have more issues than everyone else -I could use someone to talk to..someone who can just fucking relate with me so I feel more grounded, normal, and like everyone else. -I don't know how to go about fixing all these personality traits.
The mushrooms are definitely pointing all these issues out to me. While I would like to say they are an exaggerated result of me tripping, I actually think they are pretty accurate.
My brain needs to chill the fuck out right now. > <
You and the rest of us have the same issues. Focus on love and happiness, don't give too much attention to these things that bother you. Feeling miserable about yourself will only make you behave more miserable. Treat yourself with understanding and love and try to do this with everybody else.
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Anonymous #2
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Re: On mushrooms and had to get this stuff out [Re: Anonymous #6]
#7803686 - 12/27/07 11:50 AM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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It is so fucking easy to find everything wrong with yourself, especially when you are feeling down, or alone.
Try making a list of good personality traits man. It is much harder, especially for someone like you. Keep the list going, and realize that you are unique, and it is anyones loss who doesn't want to be a part of your life.
Be proud of who you are, and don't let others get you down.
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Anonymous #1
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Re: On mushrooms and had to get this stuff out [Re: Anonymous #2]
#7803878 - 12/27/07 12:37 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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OP here,
I wanted to thank you all for helping me out.. I feel like you've sort of put things into perspective for me. It still feels kinda weird to think that so many other people are going through this---that I am not a minority. But I'm working on it.
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How old are you?
I am 19.
I'm going to continue this thread in Physical and Mental well being where I cross-posted last night while I was tripping.
http://www.shroomery.org/forums/showflat.php/Cat/0/Number/7802931/an/0/page/0
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Anonymous #7
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Re: On mushrooms and had to get this stuff out [Re: Anonymous #1]
#7805750 - 12/27/07 10:07 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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i think all your problems can be aptly summed up as you put too much emotional investment in the things that happen in your life
just to give you an example...
you invest too much in feeling accepted and understood thus you feel lonely when faced with the reality that even when surrounded by your closest friends, they can never know what you're going through and will never relate on any meaningful level
you invest too much in people liking your actions and not judging you negatively thus you experience internal tension as you question your natural impulses(anxiety)
etc etc
99% of the shit that you experience is completely trivial(if not 100%)
by concentrating on non-issues you turn them into real issues
your life is better than 99.9% of the people that have EVER existed on earth, try seeing things from an ACTUALLY unfortunate perspective for some enlightenment
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