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Anonymous #1
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i feel kinda down.
#7779021 - 12/19/07 07:13 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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i'm home for the holidays and i don't really get along with my parents too well. I don't have a car and i live out on a farm like 10 mins out of town so i'm pretty isolated. I've started lots of self harm again, especially with putting out matches on my legs and arms and cutting myself. I think it would be kind of nice to die tonight.
But instead i'm going to borrow my mom's car, and go pick up a fat bag of pot. I feel shitty, but tommorow might be better.
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weed925
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i know how you feel. today is my bday what did i do? nothing. y becouse my family is poor and dysfunctional. im trying to get things going and get a job. my parents could care less and i also dont have a car. and life SUCKS so i used to smoke allday to forget and make me happier + to help some problems i have now i try to limit that becouse no $ so i sleep or come on here and just read post after post or sleep. weed makes things go by alot easier/faster so just smoke when you feel down or go get some fresh air you should stop trying to hurt/kill your self its not worth it just know 1 day things will be better and dont forget that.
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EternalCowabunga
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Re: i feel kinda down. [Re: weed925]
#7779351 - 12/19/07 08:29 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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my parents suck too
smoke one for me
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MOTH
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"Hang in there."
You give yourself good advice. Take it easy.
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ZippoZ
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Re: i feel kinda down. [Re: MOTH]
#7781375 - 12/20/07 12:14 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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soon youll be back out of your families house, and back with some good friends. and you have new years to look forward too as well!
hang in there man, you'll be just fine.
-------------------- PEACE
zippoz "in times of widespread chaos and confusion, it has been the duty of more advanced human beings - artists, scientists, clowns, and philosophers - to create order. In such times as ours however, when there is too much order, too much m management, too much programming and control, it becomes the duty of superior men and women and women to fling their favorite monkey wrenches into the machinery. To relieve the repression of the human spirit, they must sow doubt and disruption" "People do it every day, they talk to themselves ... they see themselves as they'd like to be, they don't have the courage you have, to just run with it."
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tak
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Re: i feel kinda down. [Re: ZippoZ]
#7781548 - 12/20/07 12:54 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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A farm! Man, I dont know what the weather is like there, so its hard for me to really give advise...its 70degrees here. But if its decent out, go for a walk...no matter what the climate, im sure its beautiful out.
You can find beauty in everything if you look hard enough. Sometimes life is really tough, but when I look back I've had some real good times. I guess that is why they call it a roller coaster. Without the bad, the good wouldn't really exist.
Do you have sources for bud there? Hang out with them some, and spend some time doing what you want and away from the family.
Anyways, good luck...we're always here
-------------------- The DJ's took pills to stay awake and play for seven days.
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Ahab McBathsalts
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i posted the original post. Yesterday was pretty shitty. I feel a lot better today. I got referred to a councilor, so thats a pretty good step in the right direction.
-------------------- "Nobody exists on purpose. Nobody belongs anywhere. Everybody's going to die."
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tak
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Glad to hear it man, yesterday was a shitty fucking day for me too...for some reason I woke up feeling real depressed, worse than I ever have in my life. Today I feel much better.
I guess sometimes things have a way of working themselves out. I hope things keep getting better for you
-------------------- The DJ's took pills to stay awake and play for seven days.
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MeatyVitamin
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Re: i feel kinda down. [Re: tak]
#7788084 - 12/22/07 05:20 AM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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I'm kind of a loser myself, but if you need someone to talk to just send me a message and we could chat on msn or something...
-------------------- I like to keep my work life and my home life seperate. My job doesn't know I have a wife, and my wife doesn't know I have a job.
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Ahab McBathsalts
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actually i've been burning my leg with matches so much that it got infected, and i had to get anti-biotics. 
on the plus side i got a bunch of benzos because i'm a hazard to myself.
 
boo self inflicted pain. I'll quit you soon.
-------------------- "Nobody exists on purpose. Nobody belongs anywhere. Everybody's going to die."
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extrapale
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I love that picture (I love kitties!), good message too.
Everyone gets down sometimes and yeah life does have the ability to suck. I too have been through my share of hard times. Just remember that life is what you make of it, and there are always things to find joy in. Being in nature has always had a calming effect on me, and since you're on a farm, if I were you I would take the time to walk around, breathe in the fresh air, and spend some good quality time with mother nature. And forgive me if this is too imposing; I have no idea what your life is like and how you live it, but I have found that your diet/nutrition has a huge effect on your mood. When I start to feel down and out, I try to eat healthier and get some excercise, and it usually has a noticeable positive effect. So hang in there.
-------------------- "There's a fine line between genius and insanity. I have erased this line." -Oscar Levant "Our scientific capabilities have outrun our spiritual capabilities. We now have guided missiles and misguided men." -Martin Luther King, Jr
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carshissbymywinda

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evilnick, nothing is that important remember that it will help
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