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Dobie
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Staying sober
#7768216 - 12/17/07 02:07 AM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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Is not only hard its depressing. I cant take my mind off drugs I guess it dont help I spend all my time here and on irc, But it seems the only friends I have left are here online. Pretty fucking lame aint it.
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Dobie
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Yeah I have been sitting here for like a week now the wild side in me is yelling GO DRINK AND PUNCH SOMEONE. I need to fuck some skanks or something
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bumble
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Lack of inspiration?. We cant be sober and "high"?, getting into a field we really enjoy should stop thoughts about being stoned. One of the biggest lessons I learned with drugs is not forgetting that magic I felt, all those inspirational ideas, actually take the time to incorporate them into sober life.
Thats the way it is for me anyways, maybe you guys stay blank minded the whole time.
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bumble
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Re: Staying sober [Re: bumble]
#7768929 - 12/17/07 10:55 AM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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lol punch someone and fuck skanks, somehow I feel I responded to the wrong ppl
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2FiNiTe
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Re: Staying sober [Re: Dobie]
#7768954 - 12/17/07 11:02 AM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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Yeah man staying sober is pretty hard to do. I was on Oxy and H for almost 5 years. About 6 months ago I finally left FL and moved out west and got sober..or semi-sober ( I still smoke bud ). The hardest part wasn't getting past the withdrawal, it was getting it out of my head and my thoughts.
I'm not really sure how I did it, but one day I realized "hey I haven't thought about Oxycontin all day" and it just got better from there.
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Re: Staying sober [Re: bumble]
#7768987 - 12/17/07 11:10 AM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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Dobies,
You should focus on work right now and maybe look into a hobby for your free time. For the hard drugs/beer problem, just smoke some pot when you feel the need to get fucked up.
That's a good baby step in the right direction I think.
Peace
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Yeah man, I hate how having to be sober means know weed.
I think weed should help with people trying to bust and addiction. It sure has helped for me at times.
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Dobie
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Re: Staying sober [Re: 2FiNiTe]
#7769303 - 12/17/07 12:13 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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Last night was the first night I didnt have a dream about shooting up since I got clean It has been 23 days now I think I wish I could smoke weed I cant I got 18 months of felony probation when I got busted. I had to kick dope in a jail cell. Probally the best for me though I dont know if I could of done it any other way
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Re: Staying sober [Re: Dobie]
#7770049 - 12/17/07 03:09 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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I don't know what you are going through right now, but the biggest thing that helps me when I get depressed is exercise. I would run until my body would ache. It helps take your mind off of the pain, and the next day you feel a little bit better, and every time you do it you feel a little bit better. Community service helps a lot too.
Do you have any hobbies/goals? If not, find something you enjoy that you can work at, and build up. Music works for me. As weird as it sounds music (drums, piano) kept me away from drugs even pot.
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Re: Staying sober [Re: Dobie]
#7770209 - 12/17/07 03:58 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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Yeah dobie like everyone says, it slowly gets easier and easier after every clean day goes by.
But if you were using a needle, you will always have moments for the rest of your clean life every once and a while when you feel like caving in.
All my best, GG
How many people do you know so far that are no longer in the flesh because of it?
How many dead?
Have you lost count yet?
GG
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Dobie
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Actually I dont know anyone that has died physically just a bunch of people that are walking zombies I was always the one that pushed things and came close to overdosing turning blue and falling over is not fun
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Re: Staying sober [Re: Dobie]
#7772284 - 12/17/07 11:48 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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Dobie,
you have to believe that there is a better life, which compared to the rough, painful life that you've been living, there most certainly is. we can't always fathom that there exists a brighter light at the end of the tunnel, when in the midst of an addiction...but there is ALWAYS a better possible life for EVERY addict out there, usually a much much better one.
getting sober is tough. staying sober can be even more tricky though, in my opinion. I've been sober on and off for over 5 years, beginning when i checked MYSELF into rehab at the age of 18. Basically I've been sober for constant periods of up to 10 months, a couple of times, but always falter and gradually end up right back in the shit. my brain wants to think that perhaps my dilemma has more to do with 'willpower' than it actually does, and that perhaps this time, things will be different. they never fucking are. that's the tragedy of this affliction. whether we call it a disease, a disorder, or just 'AMAZINGLY bad decision-making-syndrome', it really doesnt matter..the point is that medicating our bodies with poisons.."moderately"..it just doesn't fucking work for us. "moderation" is just a nice sounding word.
some of my best friends cannot understand this affliction. they ask me why i don't just try harder to be more casual in my drug/alcohol use. "moderation is the key", as we hear all the time. but believe me i've tried literally dozens of times to approach using drugs differently than before. however i always end up back in the same place...a little bit uglier, a little bit dumber, and alot more humiliated, than the previous time. being an addict is no way to live your life man. it robs you of your very spirit, your inner peace, and just about anything else worthwhile in this world.
don't pity yourself or feel shameful. look ahead and move the fuck on with your life. youre young, what honestly is holding you back from living a life at least ten times better than your addicted one? envision a better, more positive place in your mind, and work your way towards that place day by day. you might have cravings, but you don't HAVE to use. you've been sober for 23 days? that's not bad..you've already gotten through the nasty physical withdrawals, now your test will come in the form of mental temptations, second-guessing yourself, wondering if maybe you could just do a little bit for old time's sake. fuhgetaboutit. you know better. the choice is entirely yours right now, you really don't have to use. but if you make the unfortunate decision to cave in, then things will start feeling alot more out of your control again, which in a very real way they would be.
believe in making something better for yourself. it's entirely reasonable.
sorry if that was overly preachy or whatever, but i can really relate to what youre dealing with.
good luck.
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Dobie
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Re: Staying sober [Re: Soularize]
#7772592 - 12/18/07 01:31 AM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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Nah its actually one of the better ones I have gotten
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Re: Staying sober [Re: Dobie]
#14627662 - 06/17/11 11:24 AM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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Yeah it was a good one.
Dobie, what works for me is just deciding to quit everything. Look at it as a weakness, feel like a pussy for needing a chemical to get you through your day. If you are like me you started using drugs because you thought they were cool, or to fit in with an older crowd or something. Just realize that being alive in this world is enough of a trip as it is you don't have to alter it. Also when you have been sober for over 60 days things change, you start to have certain emotions/feelings again that you haven't felt since you were a kid and you realize what drugs (even pot) were taking away from you. Look at it how you used to look at trying a new substance. Its a brand new experience see what its like, see where it can take you, imagine all you can do with the money you save and a sharp mind. I was addicted to opiates for over 5 years by the way, never shot up but I know what it is like to constantly relapse I thought about just killing myself several times only thing that got me through was having a family that I couldn't do that to.
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You sound like your doing great really, just keep kicking ass and it should get better soon. Goodluck man.
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Re: Staying sober [Re: Dobie]
#14631784 - 06/18/11 02:33 AM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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Dobie said: I cant take my mind off drugs I guess it dont help I spend all my time here and on irc, But it seems the only friends I have left are here online
Your problem is staring you in the face. I am going through a similar thing, about three months out of a five year, IV dope and fentanyl habit. I'm on buprenorphine now, down to 1.5mg/day. I could have done it without (I think, maybe not), but I wouldn't be able to hold my job.
I tried quitting so many times in the past years and it never worked. The main reason wasn't the bupe so much (I had it then too, but refused to take it when I had a full agonist), it was that I didn't have anything else I liked to do. Like you say I would spend my time sober on the computer, or lay in bed watching TV feeling bad about myself.
These days, I have a nice little routiene going where I wake up every day and I know exactly what I'm going to do. I incorporate exercise, music, nature, healthy meals, work, and spending time with people into my day, then I spend a bit of time on the computer if I have time in between those things.
If I stop doing these things, and just sleep in or something, I get depressed in a few days, start fiending for dope, the cravings suck and make my life unlivable. As long as I keep my routiene, I can keep it together. I know it is not as easy as it sounds, but my life has gotten so much better, I really have no desire to go back to that shit, and for a long time I never thought I would say something like that.
I know it goes against what the medical community says, but stop thinking of yourself as an addict and try to think about who you really want to be, and be it.
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Dobie said: I cant take my mind off drugs I guess it dont help I spend all my time here and on irc, But it seems the only friends I have left are here online
Your problem is staring you in the face. I am going through a similar thing, about three months out of a five year, IV dope and fentanyl habit. I'm on buprenorphine now, down to 1.5mg/day. I could have done it without (I think, maybe not), but I wouldn't be able to hold my job.
I tried quitting so many times in the past years and it never worked. The main reason wasn't the bupe so much (I had it then too, but refused to take it when I had a full agonist), it was that I didn't have anything else I liked to do. Like you say I would spend my time sober on the computer, or lay in bed watching TV feeling bad about myself.
These days, I have a nice little routiene going where I wake up every day and I know exactly what I'm going to do. I incorporate exercise, music, nature, healthy meals, work, and spending time with people into my day, then I spend a bit of time on the computer if I have time in between those things.
If I stop doing these things, and just sleep in or something, I get depressed in a few days, start fiending for dope, the cravings suck and make my life unlivable. As long as I keep my routiene, I can keep it together. I know it is not as easy as it sounds, but my life has gotten so much better, I really have no desire to go back to that shit, and for a long time I never thought I would say something like that.
I know it goes against what the medical community says, but stop thinking of yourself as an addict and try to think about who you really want to be, and be it.
 Words of wisdom.
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