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Konyap


Registered: 06/30/07
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Google yourself and see what you find.
#7742369 - 12/10/07 07:32 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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and the thing is the harder i try the worser i get but if i dont try shit just stays the same
like thinkin hard in a easy chair or bein afraid i have no fear
jus lyrics like that show me what the hell i am now
i decided last night to work on my paper again and the whole time im arguing with myself over what parts to keep in or out, by the time im done ive almost deleted a page and all the shit in my head as some moking tones with it along with alotta cursing when they beleive im fucking up and i lettally mean arguin, not my thought, but my actions basically arguin with my thoughts
i feel like i died or ive been dead to be quite honest cause my body doesnt seem to lie ever to my head, i get angry i twicth, confused i blow air out my mouth, when sad my left eye'll close
im afraid to tell anyone the truth bout myself cause i really dont want to share hell with them, cuz theyve known me for so long and basically saw me fall apart
im afraid that if i die i wont give a fuck bout myself, like all my shit ill run throu my head and ill be like finally, kinda like havin so much pain your kinda waitn on death
but at the same time im happy, like i get excited jus to see other people good and i kinda play off it, cuz everyone can tell that im out to lunch
i dont/tryin to kno who i am and its fuckin me up, i jus wanna sit back and jus exist for a minute with out judgin myself
i dont want this to be an sos but lookin back it is i just felt like ventin really tho feed back'd be cool
somehow i kinda feel better being a asshole, i feel better when people try to critize me to help me and i just blow them off, not even tryin to argue back, just sorta mockin them
i think im better at being immature then mature
i read this again for some reason even tho i wasnt gonna change it, see completly nonsense
Edited by Konyap (05/18/09 10:52 PM)
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D4NK
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Re: completely fuckin skitzed [Re: Konyap]
#7742901 - 12/10/07 09:44 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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I had a friend that talked like this a lot. I never knew what to tell him. He went schitzo after snorting/eating a bunch of X, hasn't been the same since.
Sorry man, dunno what to tell you.
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EternalCowabunga
Being of Great Significance



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Re: completely fuckin skitzed [Re: D4NK]
#7742944 - 12/10/07 09:52 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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everyone's got a role to play. at the worst you will be a good example of what not to be. you're fine with me though
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Cakes
some guy




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Re: completely fuckin skitzed [Re: Konyap]
#7742966 - 12/10/07 09:58 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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Brugman
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Quote:
EternalCowabunga said: everyone's got a role to play. at the worst you will be a good example of what not to be. you're fine with me though
that's some serious stuff..
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Konyap


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Re: completely fuckin skitzed [Re: Cakes]
#7742992 - 12/10/07 10:07 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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lol eternal yea last time i shroomed i figured i was gonna die but i was like shit everyone knos me so it wont happen again
thnx for the support tho whether answered or not it makes me feel betta, i detest pity!
now i jus gotta go back out and follow thru with this asshole thing or else i expect to be dealin with everyones bitchn
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