I pitched with a few friends and we got 100 tabs for 500 on a saturday afternoon. I had the first one with my gf at 2:30. this was my third time doing acid.
this time as the effects began to accelerate (t +30 mins) it felt much different than my previous experiences. I was very focused on my vision, waiting for the eye candy. an hour went by and i was very anxious and shaky. we were sitting in my car(it was freezing outside) while the effects came up but we had to move for unimportant reasons. i did not want to drive right away, the drugs were not harmonizing with me yet. i began to think. think about how i could back out of my parking spot. think about how i needed to defrost the windows. thought about all the processes involved in driving and reasoned every detail out to a safe simple answer. after about 15 mins of preparing myself to drive, we drove. only for a minute to the block beside us. *DON'T DRIVE WHILE INTOXICATED* we sat and talked for another half hour before emerging from the car into the frozen world outside (about 4:00pm) we agreed that this was the best acid we each have ever had, by far. so we took another hit. everything outside looked amazingly beautiful and my mind was intensely clear. i was NOT hallucinating. my gf however, said she could not beleive how crazy her visuals were from that one hit, she was seeing rainbows flowing everywhere, with people she knew floating in the sky and many many many more trippy visuals. every time she talked about them i was kinda jelous. not so much jelous but just bummed out that i wasnt seeing anything.
but i was, i could see anything i wanted. i was able to look at the clouds every so often and observe all the motions that every little whisp of cloud was making and see the slow motion of the super huge swirls and waves of air. i was able to predict when wind would come, and could see all the sky around me slowly flowing in one huge motion. this was not a halucination. it was a crystal clear perception and understanding of everything around me. I have used mushrooms and shrooms together with e many times to help enlighten myself and acheive a clear state of mind to learn and grow in, but this acid and my mind that night made one hell of a team.
we met a friend later that night who also hallucinated madly and agreed that this was very good acid. I would like to ask if anyone else has had experiences with acid and having no visuals... i feel that hallucinations are simply differences between an individuals reality and the universe we all occupy. i learned more this night than i have in my whole journey through all my life. here is an interesting bit:
-I am in the car with my gf beside me and my good friend in the back. we are listening to shiny toy guns and talking about how amazing they are. we stop talking often, and while we do i am focusing all my mind power on taking in all information possible from the world around me and figurring out "how it all works" (if i may). (i can very easily read a person and see/understand their feelings. have been able to for many months) I begin to understand everything happening around me, except the people of course. But then i notice a vibration inside me, vibrating very fast. this is the same vibration i was feeling as the acid came up, and it made my hands quiver and feel weak, i assumed it was anxiety earlier. with my new knowledge i realize that this is my vibration, as it resides within me. for this whole night so far i had not relaxed at all, until now. i decided to rid the annoying shaky vibration from me by relaxing. as i did this the vibration slowed exponentially, but was still very fast. (a rough estimate being 200 to 20 hz(cycles)/second) it felt really good to release this vibration, whatever it was. my mind slowed itself and my body loosened, but it remained at this frequency. i "pushed" harder for the vibration to slow and it did, this time sliding down to maybe 6 cycles/second, so still sorta fast(but super slow compared to earlier). at this time i noticed that the cycles were in rythm with the music(at exactly 4 cycles/beat) , which i realized was because i was listening to and feeling the music, so obviously this vibration would be in sync.(im a musician, guitar/vocals) I then lower the vibration even further until on cycle is one beat. this was a groovy feeling, and the feelings from the music were much more intense. I felt pleasure, slightly sexual, but overall just a very good feeling. i lower the vibration more after a second and it slows until i feel it flatline. this reminded me very much of stretching a waving sting until it was flat. as it flatlined it was much like an orgasm, but the feeling came from the middle of my body, chest area. deep inside. felt amazing, and ive had it before. after that i felt refreshed instantly and opened my eyes(from blackness, no visuals still) and saw what was around me. i noticed that the girls in the car with me had changed somehow, and thats when it hit me. I had tried to tell my gj earlier that i might have some sort of ability in which i can do things with my mind, like feel what people feel, talk to cats(i perfer to say, understand them enough to communicate on their level) and cause feelings in other people, but it didnt come out clear at all(i was having trouble with words that night and felt that they did not have much meaning, causing me difficulty in communication.) and after this whole vibration thing i said "did you guys just feel something happen?" and sounded very tripped out, they both turned at the same time with very similar looks on their faces, both suddenly alarmed. one said "what do you mean?" and i replied with a gesture to my chest "like inside!" and they both said yes at the same timeish, they were kinda freaked out and my friend in the back said "that makes me uncomfortable", which i told her i could totally understand. then i explained what i have just explained about what i did with the vibrations, and they both said that they felt the changes in the same order and intensity that i described, with the drops in frequency and the sexual bit and the end orgasm of the soul(or whatever you wanna call it). this was very interesting for me b/c i had always sorta thought that all the other instances of me doing this(twice, one very creepy, the other not so bad) was all in my head, but this.... wow... hard to beleive for some, i can imagine, but beleiveable to many many others, i know.
READ THIS: THE ADVENTURES OF A RELUCTANT MESSIAH perfect for anyone seeking enlightenment, as it helped me far along the way.
I wrote this cuz i want some comments, so get typing!
peace, love, and harmony. Matt.
-------------------- Learn to grow, then eat to Learn. Thank you Nature for this food I'm about to eat, Thank you God for this magic from head to feet, Thank you Mushrooms for what I feel, and Peace, Bud, thanks for the deal.
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