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emilbus
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letter to my chick
#7672933 - 11/23/07 11:26 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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I'm first going to start off by saying i know Ive came on here numerous times with complaints and shit talking about my situation and how fucked it is. i know I'm stupid, but as of now there is something keeping me back and for everyone who knows my story should know what I'm talking about. if you have a hard time with me doing the right thing then fuck off. anyway, i was trying to sleep but couldn't cause all the shit that was going through my head so i got up and started writing which turned into a letter. i did edit it and its now a full letter. why I'm posting it? i dunno, i guess I'm a loser, but here you go anyway:
disappointment
for a while now Ive been at a loss for words. it was much easier for me to be fake and do random shit for you without showing the least bit of disappointment then to try and put all my thoughts into words well enough for you to understand. right now, 5 minutes ago, i was trying to sleep and all these thoughts kept running through my head and was making it unbelievably hard to sleep. that and all the noise Elijah is making. what the fuck is he doing anyway, oh, getting high and eating what little food we have. kinda brings back memories, shitty ass memories. anyway, I'm getting off track. i cant believe how much of an irresponsible, immature, whiney, "adult" you have turned into. for the past three years you have done nothing more then talk about wanting and raising kids and how great you would be. we have had countless conversations about how fucked up some moms are and the kind of shit they did while they were pregnant and even after. we both agreed on how fucking stupid some of these girls were that you, yourself, convinced to smoke while pregnant. we looked down on bonnie for the longest time cause she was smoking while she was pregnant. then when i heard you ask me for the first time if you could smoke i really couldn't believe my ears. i thought to myself, "she must be fucking joking". then i noticed you were hanging out with Sean and bonnie more and you were coming home high. YOU STUPID FUCKING BITCH! you have my kid in your stomach, supposedly, and your going to fucking smoke. your not healthy as it is, your not taking any vitamins, and you lay around all fucking day. real fucking smart. on top of all this you have chlamydia. I'm sorry but Ive never cheated on you and i really don't think i could have it for 3+ years and never know. thats just fucking stupid. I'm giving you the benefit of the doubt, which is probably the dumbest shit Ive ever done, and take the blame. i probably got it before we were dating, then gave it to you and we have both had it for 3 years without knowing. oh, those times that we went to the hospital for your stomach problems, they would have said you had chlamydia and not UTI. anyway, you know for a fucking fact that this shit can cause damage to the baby as well and you still do nothing. you even have the fucking medication and I'm pretty sure they are still sitting in the bottle. nice....... all i really have to say is I HAVE NO RESPECT FOR YOU AT ALL and i really don't care if your feeling shitty. i hope you feel like shit for the next 7 months. you really disappointed me and I'm ashamed that you will be the mother. i do know that these are strong words, but trust me, i chose them very wisely. ill leave you with this: GROW THE FUCK UP. THERE IS A LIFE IN YOUR STOMACH THAT WE CREATED. STOP BEING SO FUCKING SELFISH, STOP THINKING ABOUT YOURSELF, AND DO WHATS BEST FOR THIS CHILD'S HEALTH. YOU BETTER FUCKING PRAY THAT THERE ISN'T ANY DAMAGE DONE AT ALL AND THAT ITS NOT TOO LATE. one last thing, i will be testing if this child is mine the second its born.
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GGreatOne234
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Re: letter to my chick [Re: emilbus]
#7672946 - 11/23/07 11:31 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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lol, you're not going to actually send/give that to her are you?
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Nemo_Hoes
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GGreatOne234 said: lol, you're not going to actually send/give that to her are you?
You are a very funny hippie.
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Re: letter to my chick [Re: emilbus]
#7672971 - 11/23/07 11:39 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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emilbus said: I'm first going to start off by saying i know Ive came on here numerous times with complaints and shit talking about my situation and how fucked it is. i know I'm stupid, but as of now there is something keeping me back and for everyone who knows my story should know what I'm talking about. if you have a hard time with me doing the right thing then fuck off. anyway, i was trying to sleep but couldn't cause all the shit that was going through my head so i got up and started writing which turned into a letter. i did edit it and its now a full letter. why I'm posting it? i dunno, i guess I'm a loser, but here you go anyway:
disappointment
for a while now Ive been at a loss for words. it was much easier for me to be fake and do random shit for you without showing the least bit of disappointment then to try and put all my thoughts into words well enough for you to understand. right now, 5 minutes ago, i was trying to sleep and all these thoughts kept running through my head and was making it unbelievably hard to sleep. that and all the noise Elijah is making. what the fuck is he doing anyway, oh, getting high and eating what little food we have. kinda brings back memories, shitty ass memories. anyway, I'm getting off track. i cant believe how much of an irresponsible, immature, whiney, "adult" you have turned into. for the past three years you have done nothing more then talk about wanting and raising kids and how great you would be. we have had countless conversations about how fucked up some moms are and the kind of shit they did while they were pregnant and even after. we both agreed on how fucking stupid some of these girls were that you, yourself, convinced to smoke while pregnant. we looked down on bonnie for the longest time cause she was smoking while she was pregnant. then when i heard you ask me for the first time if you could smoke i really couldn't believe my ears. i thought to myself, "she must be fucking joking". then i noticed you were hanging out with Sean and bonnie more and you were coming home high. YOU STUPID FUCKING BITCH! you have my kid in your stomach, supposedly, and your going to fucking smoke. your not healthy as it is, your not taking any vitamins, and you lay around all fucking day. real fucking smart. on top of all this you have chlamydia. I'm sorry but Ive never cheated on you and i really don't think i could have it for 3+ years and never know. thats just fucking stupid. I'm giving you the benefit of the doubt, which is probably the dumbest shit Ive ever done, and take the blame. i probably got it before we were dating, then gave it to you and we have both had it for 3 years without knowing. oh, those times that we went to the hospital for your stomach problems, they would have said you had chlamydia and not UTI. anyway, you know for a fucking fact that this shit can cause damage to the baby as well and you still do nothing. you even have the fucking medication and I'm pretty sure they are still sitting in the bottle. nice....... all i really have to say is I HAVE NO RESPECT FOR YOU AT ALL and i really don't care if your feeling shitty. i hope you feel like shit for the next 7 months. you really disappointed me and I'm ashamed that you will be the mother. i do know that these are strong words, but trust me, i chose them very wisely. ill leave you with this: GROW THE FUCK UP. THERE IS A LIFE IN YOUR STOMACH THAT WE CREATED. STOP BEING SO FUCKING SELFISH, STOP THINKING ABOUT YOURSELF, AND DO WHATS BEST FOR THIS CHILD'S HEALTH. YOU BETTER FUCKING PRAY THAT THERE ISN'T ANY DAMAGE DONE AT ALL AND THAT ITS NOT TOO LATE. one last thing, i will be testing if this child is mine the second its born.
Yo, have you stopped smoking along with her? because if you haven't, you may actually be precipitating her behavior... i'd know that if I were with somebody and they had a meth/heroin/whatever habit, it'd be pretty fucking hard for me to quit too, just because i "suddenly" became pregnant with their baby.
were you completely sober for at least 3 weeks before you impregnated her? if not then your sperm's also prolly as equally to blame. same difference.
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Re: letter to my chick [Re: Nemo_Hoes]
#7672973 - 11/23/07 11:40 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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That's fucked up. Is it too late to abort and leave her ass?
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emilbus
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i haven't smoked in over a year and as far as being sober all i do is drink. i really don't want to take the abortion road and yes i could
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emilbus
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i haven't smoked in over a year and as far as being sober all i do is drink. i really don't want to take the abortion road and yes i could
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Psilocin Dreams said: That's fucked up. Is it too late to abort and leave her ass?
I guess she;s 2 months,I'd go for it. I thought the exact same shit bro, ABORTION.
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Re: letter to my chick [Re: emilbus]
#7673026 - 11/24/07 12:18 AM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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I feel really bad for you or any guy who gets trapped like this. Shit like this is why I want to get a vasectomy.
All I can say is good luck. Try to get her to have an abortion. If that doesn't work then get a paternity test the second the baby pops out. Man...I wish I was fucking gay sometimes when I hear about stuff like this.
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Nemo_Hoes
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You can get a paternity test whike the baby isin them womb.
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Re: letter to my chick [Re: Nemo_Hoes]
#7673107 - 11/24/07 12:51 AM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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thats rough. good luck man, good luck.
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Edited by igwna (11/24/07 12:51 AM)
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alphabeatu
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Re: letter to my chick [Re: emilbus]
#7673112 - 11/24/07 12:53 AM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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yeah man,you sound pretty torn up so all i can say is i hope everything works out for the baby
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Re: letter to my chick [Re: alphabeatu]
#7673183 - 11/24/07 01:13 AM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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Smoking weed isn't really bad for the baby at all, but I can see where you're coming from. Smoking cigarettes is terrible!
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Crystal G said:
were you completely sober for at least 3 weeks before you impregnated her? if not then your sperm's also prolly as equally to blame. same difference.
Uhhhhhhhhh.... no that's not how it works. The reason it's bad for the mom is because they share the same blood.. and guess what nicotine goes into your blood, not your sperm or eggs lol..
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Re: letter to my chick [Re: emilbus]
#7673218 - 11/24/07 01:27 AM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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Cannabis is actually good for pregnant mothers, but it's far better that she vaporizes or eats edibles.
http://www.tc.columbia.edu/centers/cifas/drugsandsociety/analyses/dreher1.html
The url contains the entire abstract of the study. The brief is as follows:
Comparing the heavily exposed and the non-exposed infants, the Brazelton clusters on day 30, showed that the offspring of heavy-marijuana using mothers had significantly higher scores on:
- the Orientation cluster
- the Autonomic Stability cluster
- reflexes
- habituation to auditory and tactile stimuli, and to animate auditory stimuli
- higher degree of alertness
- capacity for consolability
- less irritability
- had fewer startles and tremors
- better physiological stability at one month
- required less examiner facilitation to reach an organized state
- more socially responsive
- the quality of their alertness was higher
- their motor and autonomic systems were more robust
- they had better self-regulation
- they were more rewarding for caregivers than the neonates of non--using mothers at one month of age
From the Schools of Nursing, Education and Public Health, the University of Massachusetts , Amherst . Received for publication Sep. 21, 1992 ; accepted June 30, 1993 .
Also, I quit smoking cigs by chewing whole Licorice Root it really helps. Good luck.
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Caribou_Lou said: Smoking weed isn't really bad for the baby at all, but I can see where you're coming from. Smoking cigarettes is terrible!
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Crystal G said:
were you completely sober for at least 3 weeks before you impregnated her? if not then your sperm's also prolly as equally to blame. same difference.
Uhhhhhhhhh.... no that's not how it works. The reason it's bad for the mom is because they share the same blood.. and guess what nicotine goes into your blood, not your sperm or eggs lol..
That's obvious, but no conclusive study has been done on whether the sperm quality or the quality of a fertilized egg can impact the formation of the fetus (I'm sure it does, in some way or another). I mean, there's a reason you are required to be drug free when you are donating sperm and eggs, am I correct?
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Re: letter to my chick [Re: emilbus]
#7673524 - 11/24/07 04:52 AM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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let us know how it goes.
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