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PeterGriffin467
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Thinking about death
#7645686 - 11/16/07 08:19 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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Anyone else have an unhealthy obsession with worrying about death? I fucking hate it. Usualy it happens real late at night when I'm up by myself getting stoned and I'll just catch myself thinking about it. It's not always my own death that I think about its also worrying about how devastating it will be when my parents die. It sometimes effects my everday life negatively and I have no idea how to stop it.
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Rustifer
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The only parent I really ever had was my father, it was pretty devastating to me, but it's been 2 years since he died now and I'm doing fine with it.
But before that, I would often wondering like you do, that's all gone now. I don't know what changed but I don't worry about death anymore.
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I'm in the exact same boat as you man. I wouldn't say it's unhealthy though, it's perfectly normal but it does worry me a ton when it does come up. I already lost my mom when I was 17 and I'm having a hard enough time establishing myself. I can only imagine how it'll all go down the hole should my dad suffer the same fate.
Edited by Newbie (11/16/07 08:28 PM)
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Death is inevitable man.. it happens to everyone.. are you fearing death? or the process of dying (pain, loss, etc.)? If you can find meaning in the life of yourself and others, it may help you cope with the idea of death. Hopefully this helps
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Everyone dies, life goes on. I guess the easiest way to overcome your fear is to determine why you're worried about it. Do you believe in an after life, like a fear of going to Hell? Are you more worried about the repercussions your death will have in your circle of family and friends? Also, if you're anticipating devastation when your parents die, maybe it would be a good idea (if you haven't already) to talk openly with them about this kind of thing, share your feelings with them, etc. so that when they die, there will be nothing left unsaid, and hopefully nothing you regret. Unless they're in poor health, or you're forty something, you've probably got a lot of time before either of you die anyways.
If that doesn't work, maybe you could take up meditation - clear your mind.
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Yeah its not an every day worry but I'd say I do worry about that kind of thing somewhat often.
But whats weird is lately (the past week or two) I've had this really weird feeling like I'm going to die soon. Its hard to explain. Just like a feeling inside me that says I'm not gunna be around much longer... Kinda creepy...
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Re: Thinking about death [Re: Cameron]
#7645765 - 11/16/07 08:41 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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I think part of it has to do with I was a real stupid teenager always doing drugs and giving my parents a hard time so I feel guilty about what Ive put them through.
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try dying on mushrooms.
you will definitely have a new perspective.
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SOmetimes I think about siblings or family members dying, and try to shoo away the thought as fast as possible...just seems weird to think about it. Dunno. Me myself dying I am more ready for than dealing with a family member, especially considering no close family members have died yet. It'll be a very sad day when that day comes.
These thoughts are what makes it impossible for me to get angry at a close one, it's not worth wasting the precious time with fighting or anger. Just love.
If these thoughts affect you every day...well...I dunno what to say...except...it's a waste of time to obsess over these things. Just live life as it comes, dudeskee
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i do not have that problem
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Re: Thinking about death [Re: notapillow]
#7645970 - 11/16/07 09:40 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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Recently, yeah. My childhood has been getting 100% destroyed in the last few years, and the last/greatest part of it is probably going to go very soon. I don't know if he's just acting like he's dying for attention, or if it's real but it has the same effect either way.
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Re: Thinking about death [Re: PyroBurns]
#7646314 - 11/16/07 11:43 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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im so happy someone made this post. I think about death and dying so much that it's kind of ridiculous. It's only b/c i figured out a lot of the minor questions in my life and that's the one that has no answer. It worries me a lot, mushrooms have helped it but only temporarily. I always think about my dad dying and i check on him a lot to make sure he's still alive. Ive always been like this and never understood what happened to me as a child to bring this on. I just cant wait for the day that i can Truly accept death.
-------------------- Man is timid and apologetic; he is no longer upright; he dares not say "I think," "I am," but quotes some saint or sage. He is ashamed before the blade of grass or the blowing rose.Man postpones or remembers; he does not live in the present, but with reverted eye laments the past, or, heedless of the riches that surround him, stands on tiptoe to foresee the future. He cannot be happy and strong until he too lives with nature in the present, above time TRANSCEND
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too busy to think about dieing.
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Re: Thinking about death [Re: Skunk420]
#7646334 - 11/16/07 11:48 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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This actually happens to me alot as well. It's weird because it just crosses my mind at the oddest moments and there's really no reason to think about it. I'm just worried how I'd react if someone close to me died because it never really happened before.
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Re: Thinking about death [Re: Skunk420]
#7646335 - 11/16/07 11:48 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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who's too busy to think?
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im too stoned/drunk very chronic !! @ the Shroomery!! no explanation needed!
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Re: Thinking about death [Re: Skunk420]
#7646369 - 11/17/07 12:02 AM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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the trip is the thinking about the moment that you slip into death. the last moments of life that transition into death...this moment that you will one day face. it's unavoidable and it is real.
yeah, sometimes my stomach drops and i get a mini anxiety attack, but i drop it and think of something else. other times i just think 'yep, it'll happen and then it'll be over and then...well, then its over so it won't matter anymore, big deal.'
fucking death
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Re: Thinking about death [Re: Skunk420]
#7646373 - 11/17/07 12:04 AM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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Re: Thinking about death [Re: Skunk420]
#7646389 - 11/17/07 12:08 AM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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+kinda scary=same here
Edited by Skunk420 (11/18/07 10:16 PM)
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yes. I literally think about it every night for as long as I can remember. even when I was a kid. I'd always tell myself one day my bones will be in the ground and eventually eaten away into dust. sometimes I think to myself that various metal/plastic things will last longer than me.
up until a month or so ago I was scared about life after death. I read a book called "a soul's journey" and it made sense to me. Keep in mind I'm in Oklahoma, the buckle of the Bible belt, and never really had exposure to other religions.
good read.
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I practically never think about death, because I'm 20, and I'm usually thinking about finding a girl, getting a job, etc. I'll worry about death when it's staring me in the face - even then I don't think I'd worry, death is the sweetest relief there is in life
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I have that, "You're born, you die, you rot." philosophy, and it's not the fact that there's no afterlife for me that scares me, it's that transition from alive to dead that creeps me out. I just hope I die in my sleep.
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Re: Thinking about death [Re: Newbie]
#7647486 - 11/17/07 12:31 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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If only we were so lucky man. I wonder what the odds are for people dying naturally now-a-days, what with the galaxy of cancers you can get, heart disease, STDs, shroomeritis, etc. I really wonder what percentage of a generation reaches that age where they just drift off in sleep.
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Quote:
VisionsToReality said: SOmetimes I think about siblings or family members dying, and try to shoo away the thought as fast as possible...just seems weird to think about it. Dunno. Me myself dying I am more ready for than dealing with a family member, especially considering no close family members have died yet. It'll be a very sad day when that day comes.
yea same thing with me. noone really really important to me has ever died so i dont have the experience of dealing with death. I hate the thought of my mom and brother dying, so i laso try to shoe it away asap. One thing i probably want more than anything tho is for me to die befor my little brother. he is only 5 or so years younger than me, but i dont think i would be able to live without him in my life....he means everything to me.
one thing i know is that if you are living a good life and/or your trying to do everything you can to live a good life, death shouldn't be a concern for you.
like Talib Kweli says in the song "good mourning"...
"Everybodys time comes to be embraced by the light/ but YOUR ONLY SCARED TO DIE IF YOU AIN'T LIVIN' RIGHT"
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I think about death a lot. But not in a fearful way. I think of ways I might die. Nothing to do with fear, has to do with curiosity. Never be afraid of death, its going to happen eventually. Its a natural thing.
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death is over rated.
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My brother died about a year ago. I think about death all the time. It rarely fears me, its more of an intenst interest. All the different possibilities of what it feels like to die, what the zero moment feels like, the last thought, any unique ironies.
Honestly it seems weird to me to fear death. The only part of death i could ever fear is the act of dying.... never the afterlife, nor the possibility of being never more.
Loosing a brother really makes one think about existence. And after i lost my bro, i dont fear fear death. I will embrace it, toy with the act as much as i can when it happens, but i cant wait. It's gonna be one hell of a party.... or moment, probably a moment with the limit of infinity.
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sorry to hear that.
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Re: Thinking about death [Re: Merkin]
#7648986 - 11/17/07 08:44 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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the weird thing about death for me is that it's like going back in time to when you couldnt remember. The thought of not existing is mind boggling to me, my brain locks up like a faulty robot.
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I beleive that when you die you explode out in infinite directions into an infinite amount of particles. You, as ego, do not exist anymore.
The only thing I fear of death is who will be with me at the last moment. Will I die by myself, will I die at the end of a weapon of some stranger I've never met?
Will the last sound that I hear is the sound of my soul bursting out into infinite directions, and what does that sound like?
Another thing I think about all the time is do people know, say about 5 minutes before their death, that this is the last 5 minutes of their life. And what thought is that like? And do though last few minutes seem as if you've already seen this happening and then you just relax and let it happen?
Yeah.
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Well, my thought about death are ever changing.... by the moment, day, month...
One thing i have repeated is: Whenever i think about death, i always feel that the act of dying, the very act of feeling what it is like to die is a very familiar feeling. As if the act of dying turns the afterlife conscious on. Like during the death you say: "Oh no, not this again......wait 'this again!'..~!!! that means,,,, WEEEE!!! death has happend in the past, and will happen again..." ,ect. you get it.
Like you feel death, then the feeling of death feels so familiar, you start to regain a consious of something other than your life, an life separate from this world.
I can't wait to feel what it feels like to die. IT IS THE ULTIMATE EXERIENCE.
.... luckily we all get to experience it.
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that post didnt make any sense until like 75% of the way through. It's a familiar feeling that youve never felt before.
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