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mikebart101
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When Did you Realize you Were God?
#7641588 - 11/15/07 07:58 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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What profound experience first led you to believe that you were the creator?
I was on the commuter rail, sitting in the open area next to the vestibule, with my friend next to me, and we were having a pretty in depth, personal conversation about one another's lives; sharing stories about work and school because we hadn't seen each other in a few months. It was just us at first, until bystanders standing in the small stairwells overheard our conversation and became intrigued. Actually they participated in what we were talking about. As time went by, I realized that all the bystanders were simply little bits and pieces of the stories I was sharing; a personification of my imagination. The man in front of me was a drywaller, I could tell by his boots; the man to my right was Portuguese; the guy sitting next to me WAS me. It was a beautiful, intriguing experience.
I work for a drywall company and had been discussing this with my friend and how most drywallers were Portuguese and great workers.
This was my 'epiphany', I suppose. What was yours?
-------------------- So we finish the eighteenth and he's gonna stiff me. And I say, "Hey, Lama, hey, how about a little something, you know, for the effort, you know." And he says, "Oh, uh, there won't be any money, but when you die, on your deathbed, you will receive total consciousness." So I got that goin' for me, which is nice.
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Re: When Did you Realize you Were God? [Re: mikebart101]
#7641593 - 11/15/07 07:58 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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I don't think I am the creator.
-------------------- “Strengthened by contemplation and study, I will not fear my passions like a coward. My body I will give to pleasures, to diversions that I’ve dreamed of, to the most daring erotic desires, to the lustful impulses of my blood, without any fear at all, for whenever I will— and I will have the will, strengthened as I’ll be with contemplation and study— at the crucial moments I’ll recover my spirit as was before: ascetic.”
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Re: When Did you Realize you Were God? [Re: Lion]
#7641702 - 11/15/07 08:26 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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When I first created, I knew I was a creator.. God made our being, in God's own image.. Thus.. We are part of God, and God is the sum of our being?
Heheh..
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Re: When Did you Realize you Were God? [Re: Gomp]
#7642069 - 11/15/07 09:53 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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I am not the creator, and even my self-metaprogrammer is not the creator. I could go all the way through my programs to meet that part of me that started programming myself (learning) and I would not be omniscient or omnipotent, I would still be created by something else.. and that means whatever i am a part of is truly a mystery...
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i once said while on an intense dose of dxm with my friend phillip that "we are either going to die or become gods" and then i made myself "throw up before i [became] too powerful"
i wonder what would have happened if i wouldn't have thrown up.
this struck me as odd when i thought back on the trip because i believe in one true God and have no clue where that came from.
dxm is a hell of a drug and i dont do that shit anymore. fries your brain.
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Re: When Did you Realize you Were God? [Re: mikebart101]
#7643482 - 11/16/07 09:45 AM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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What profound experience first led you to believe that you were the creator?
Science. All things are made of the same stuff. I don't however believe that "I" am the creator. I am part of all creation, which is one.
-------------------- "Don't believe everything you think". -Anom. " All that lives was born to die"-Anom. With much wisdom comes much sorrow, The more knowledge, the more grief. Ecclesiastes circa 350 BC
Edited by Icelander (11/16/07 09:46 AM)
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Re: When Did you Realize you Were God? [Re: Icelander]
#7643590 - 11/16/07 10:26 AM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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When icelander reminded me of the picture in my signature! Thanx again!
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Re: When Did you Realize you Were God? [Re: mikebart101]
#7643688 - 11/16/07 10:59 AM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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in a basement alone on close to 40 hits of acid
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Re: When Did you Realize you Were God? [Re: sherm]
#7643864 - 11/16/07 12:00 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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my first mushroom trip unlocked it for me.
but ever since, i can see it many aspects of my life. especially the fact that i have a daughter.
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Re: When Did you Realize you Were God? [Re: AnarchoTrip]
#7643882 - 11/16/07 12:04 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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when i was praying and i realized i was talking to myself?
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Re: When Did you Realize you Were God? [Re: Bridgeburner]
#7643909 - 11/16/07 12:09 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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Right!
-------------------- "Don't believe everything you think". -Anom. " All that lives was born to die"-Anom. With much wisdom comes much sorrow, The more knowledge, the more grief. Ecclesiastes circa 350 BC
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Re: When Did you Realize you Were God? [Re: Bridgeburner]
#7644248 - 11/16/07 01:32 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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b0red5tiff said: when i was praying and i realized i was talking to myself?

Good answer
-------------------- Welcome evermore to gods and men is the self-helping man. For him all doors are flung wide: him all tongues greet, all honors crown, all eyes follow with desire. Our love goes out to him and embraces him, because he did not need it. ~ R.W. Emerson, "Self-Reliance"
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Re: When Did you Realize you Were God? [Re: WhiskeyClone]
#7644457 - 11/16/07 02:18 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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WhiskeyClone said:
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b0red5tiff said: when i was praying and i realized i was talking to myself?

Good answer
The first time I had that thought was on a 10 gram mushroom trip. The trip was kicking my ass and I was totally not ready for it. I felt terrribly sick but could not vomit. I lost pretty much all muscle cordination and couldn't stand up at times, which freaked me out. I could barely see what was going on around me, it looked the same with my eyes open or closed. At times I couldn't tell if they were open or closed, which also really freaked me out. Basically I was losing it...fast and starting to panic.
I was having so many feelings and sensations all at once and it was overwhelming. I resorted to praying, something I hadn't done in years. As I was praying, mostly asking to not feel so sick anymore, I realized in a thought, which felt like a bolt of lightning, that all my life, every time I ever prayed, I was just talking to myself. At the same time I thought of the quote, "The mind is everything. What we think, we become." -Buddha. What the fuck...could I be creating this...could I be the creator?
As I was having these thoughts my world was merging into this one thing, nothing was seperate, when I looked down at my hand sitting on my leg, I couldn't tell where one ended and the other started, same with my foot on the floor. Everything was melting together, and it felt like my thoughts were doing the same thing. It was really getting to me and I was actually feeling quite fearful. These feelings on top of the thought about being God just pushed me over the edge. The thought scared the shit out of me because everything felt so true, so real. I wasn't ready to learn something like that. I pretty much freaked out, went up stairs and forced myself to pace back and forth. I hummed to myself to try and block out the thoughts I was too scared to face. It was probably the craziest night of my life.
I never have and never will take another mushroom dose that big. The next day I felt embarrassed for taking so much. It was stupid and the experience was terrifying at times, but I don't regret the trip. I am however glad that I was educated enough of the effects mushrooms and that death is almost impossible. During that trip I felt like I was literally dying, and if I wouldn't have been able to assure myself that I was eventually going to come down, I might have gone to the hospital. (I actually asked my friend a couple times if I was breathing, lol. He said, dude you're talking to me, of course you're breathing, and laughed at me.) It was the hardest trip to deal with, but also my most spiritually rewarding.
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Re: When Did you Realize you Were God? [Re: WhiskeyClone]
#7644489 - 11/16/07 02:28 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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When I realized that there were too many beliefs around the world of everything being one in the same in different religions and philosophies. Strange thing is very few of them had influences on another and they all share similar ideas about the universe, the type of "enlightenment" meditation can bring and similar ideas produced by psychedelics. There are too many coming to this realization without influences of another for it to be coincidence in my mind. Things that are taught by Christianity can help too. "God is omni-present and knows everything." "God is within each of us." Sayings like those that people like me have grown up with helped me come to the conclusion that God is everyone and everything, and vice versa. God is us, and we are God. (Reccomended books for reading that influenced my opinion are The Doors Of Perception by Aldous Huxley , and Stranger In A Strange Land by Robert Heinlein [fiction I know, but Smith comes to an amazing conclusion when he "groks".].
This is only my opinion, everyone is entitled to their own 
(While I myself grew up Catholic, I personally refuse to take part in organized religion, especially Christianity, too much controversy and problems within different sects, Protestants and Catholics etc. for me to believe there is a single "right" religion.)
-------------------- Hope for the best, expect the worst. Your world is how you perceive it.
Edited by cycoshitzo (11/16/07 02:31 PM)
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Re: When Did you Realize you Were God? [Re: FunkyLoFi]
#7644561 - 11/16/07 02:48 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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FunkyLoFi: It sounds like you were on the verge of entering Nirvana, if only you had let go of your fear of death
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Re: When Did you Realize you Were God? [Re: FunkyLoFi]
#7644701 - 11/16/07 03:30 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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FunkyLoFi said:
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WhiskeyClone said:
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b0red5tiff said: when i was praying and i realized i was talking to myself?

Good answer
The first time I had that thought was on a 10 gram mushroom trip. The trip was kicking my ass and I was totally not ready for it. I felt terribly sick but could not vomit. I lost pretty much all muscle coordination and couldn't stand up at times, which freaked me out. I could barely see what was going on around me, it looked the same with my eyes open or closed. At times I couldn't tell if they were open or closed, which also really freaked me out. Basically I was losing it...fast and starting to panic.
I was having so many feelings and sensations all at once and it was overwhelming. I resorted to praying, something I hadn't done in years. As I was praying, mostly asking to not feel so sick anymore, I realized in a thought, which felt like a bolt of lightning, that all my life, every time I ever prayed, I was just talking to myself. At the same time I thought of the quote, "The mind is everything. What we think, we become." -Buddha. What the fuck...could I be creating this...could I be the creator?
As I was having these thoughts my world was merging into this one thing, nothing was separate, when I looked down at my hand sitting on my leg, I couldn't tell where one ended and the other started, same with my foot on the floor. Everything was melting together, and it felt like my thoughts were doing the same thing. It was really getting to me and I was actually feeling quite fearful. These feelings on top of the thought about being God just pushed me over the edge. The thought scared the shit out of me because everything felt so true, so real. I wasn't ready to learn something like that. I pretty much freaked out, went up stairs and forced myself to pace back and forth. I hummed to myself to try and block out the thoughts I was too scared to face. It was probably the craziest night of my life.
I never have and never will take another mushroom dose that big. The next day I felt embarrassed for taking so much. It was stupid and the experience was terrifying at times, but I don't regret the trip. I am however glad that I was educated enough of the effects mushrooms and that death is almost impossible. During that trip I felt like I was literally dying, and if I wouldn't have been able to assure myself that I was eventually going to come down, I might have gone to the hospital. (I actually asked my friend a couple times if I was breathing, lol. He said, dude you're talking to me, of course you're breathing, and laughed at me.) It was the hardest trip to deal with, but also my most spiritually rewarding.
You Sir, have had a beautiful and powerful experience. After such an experience, (for most) nothing is really ever the same again as far as ones beliefs go. You have expanded your awareness and it's not so easy to believe in pat answers about life anymore. Good going brother. Great description of your experience.
-------------------- "Don't believe everything you think". -Anom. " All that lives was born to die"-Anom. With much wisdom comes much sorrow, The more knowledge, the more grief. Ecclesiastes circa 350 BC
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Re: When Did you Realize you Were God? [Re: sherm]
#7647046 - 11/17/07 09:14 AM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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sherm said: in a basement alone on close to 40 hits of acid
outside alone on 4 hits of acid and 1 bean
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Re: When Did you Realize you Were God? [Re: mikebart101]
#7647179 - 11/17/07 10:29 AM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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6 grams of mushrooms, and a lamp. 
Thats when i realized everything was one. I wouldn't call myself "the creater" but i would say that everything and anything is the same organism.
But ever since then I've been thinking about it, and it just makes more and more sense to me.
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Re: When Did you Realize you Were God? [Re: mikebart101]
#7647656 - 11/17/07 01:47 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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Hindus call the experience Moksha.
It's the realization not that you are the God, but a God, or better yet you're as much God as anybody or anything else.
A fairly liberating experence.
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Re: When Did you Realize you Were God? [Re: TheHateCamel]
#7647713 - 11/17/07 02:04 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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Moksha is liberation from birth and death, though. Whether this is in a psychological or larger metaphysical sense, who knows? I think the majority of people who have such realizations on psychedelics are not liberated.
-------------------- “Strengthened by contemplation and study, I will not fear my passions like a coward. My body I will give to pleasures, to diversions that I’ve dreamed of, to the most daring erotic desires, to the lustful impulses of my blood, without any fear at all, for whenever I will— and I will have the will, strengthened as I’ll be with contemplation and study— at the crucial moments I’ll recover my spirit as was before: ascetic.”
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