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Caribou_Lou
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Strange Trip
#7624917 - 11/12/07 09:24 AM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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This might sound weird, but last night I was tripping and I felt like I was a newborn baby and nothing really made any sense. I felt like my whole life was meaningless and the only difference between the mind of a baby and my own mind was everything I have been trained to learn since I was a baby. I felt like I couldn't talk because words didn't mean anything to me, I actually thought I would never talk again in my life. I was devastated, I was laying in my bed trying to fall asleep but I kept thinking that after I had this realization my life would never be the same again. My whole life I never really thought about our existence and I realized that everything I do in my life is really just meaningless at the end of the day. I felt like I've been lied to my entire life, but it was just my perception of reality that I've always had. I just wanted to die right then, I have never thought about wanting to die until last night. I have heard of so many people that have killed themselves and I never understood why anybody could do that, but last night I felt like they must have had the same epiphany as me and then they just wanted to end their life. I guess some things in life are better off unquestioned, but last night I couldn't accept that as an answer.. it was just so crazy to me how nothing really adds up. I had to eventually tell myself that I am so lucky to be alive and if I died it would just be so selfish of me because I have been given everything to be alive. The very small chance of everything in our world working out the way it did, enabling us to exist was amazing to me. Wow.. it was intense. Everything I read about bypassing filters made so much sense to me. My whole perception of who I am meant nothing to me.
It was pretty scary at one point, but it wasn't that bad I guess. I came home from work and ate 30 grams wet blended with OJ and I smoked a lot. It was about 11:00 when I started to come up and I was just exhausted from work. Do you think I had a somewhat bad experience because my body was so tired? I'm glad that this happened, but I definitely wasn't at the time and it was pretty terrifying. Next time I will only do shrooms when I have nothing else to do that day at all. This was my second trip by the way, I tripped on friday and I ate 3 grams followed by another 3 a couple hours later and had a great time. Have you ever had similar thoughts?
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EllisDSox
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Have you ever had similar thoughts?
Indeed I have as, I am sure, have many others on here. It's a matter of your social conditioning being stripped away. All it leaves behind is a single point of awareness- the raw relationship between the mind and the universe. The first time you get stripped down to this point is scary for almost everyone who goes through it, but when you accept it as something that is liberating you rather than damaging you, the beauty of such an experience becomes apparent.
Ram Dass speaks of something similar here- http://youtube.com/watch?v=2K6lD6EeGBU
It's a form of ego loss, in my opinion. Everything you have ever been told about yourself, how you are, and how you are supposed to think and live is gone. In this state you are left on your own to interpret the world around you- unless you're prepared for such an experience it's utterly terrifying, but if you're ready it can induce a type of temporary enlightenment.
Do you mean you tripped last friday, as in three days ago? If so, you might want to space your trips out a little more, but obviously just go with what works best for you. Don't be scared- your consciousness is being expanded and ascending its usual patterns.
Good luck in your future trips, and I think you'll find this experience may well turn out to be a positive one in the long run. After such a trip, I personally would take a break of at least a month from psychedelics to integrate the experience, realise why it scared me and then move on. Don't dwell on the negative- focus on what this has taught you about yourself, take it as a growing experience then just carry on with your life.
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Caribou_Lou
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Re: Strange Trip [Re: EllisDSox]
#7625079 - 11/12/07 10:23 AM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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You described it perfectly. Yeah I knew I should have waited, but I just wanted to trip again because the first time was so good. Honestly I wasn't in such a good mood before I started tripping, I realized I shouldn't have taken them soon after I did.
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thedudenj
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wow that guy is so stoned or combo of being really old and stoned of just the after math of all the energy hes absorbed. Im tripping so hard and so high from energy of some one via proximity and what they did in the past two days. i cant imagine when im that old. We souls are badass and people need to truely be thier soul and in turn learn all about their energy color so that they can be it to the best of their ability but be it in a postive fashion rather then a degrading one. YAR
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EllisDSox
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Re: Strange Trip [Re: thedudenj]
#7625158 - 11/12/07 10:53 AM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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He's not senile, he just has a medical problem that makes it difficult for him to speak fast. He's fully aware of what he's saying. I forget what the actual problem is. Regardless, I think Ram Dass is one of the great spiritual people of our time.
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thedudenj
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Re: Strange Trip [Re: EllisDSox]
#7625651 - 11/12/07 01:04 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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wow howd he get it in films when he was younger and speaking he didnt have such issuse. and i agree he does know what hes saying. it more so seems like hes uncertain of how to word it. i sometimes have the problem cause it seems like hes gona use one word but uses a differnt one with the same meaning.
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Kaja117
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Caribou_Lou said: Have you ever had similar thoughts?
Funny that you mention that actually. My very first trip on anything was on an eigth of shrooms, and I happen to have a low tolerance for psilocybin. I went through EXACTLY what you went through, and had kind of an anxiety attack because of it, and I can totally relate. Makes every trip after that that much better because you can appreciate the fact that you aren't afraid of dying
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Re: Strange Trip [Re: Kaja117]
#7626010 - 11/12/07 02:33 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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93 You did not have a bad experience but a necessary one. It may even take a few years for you to fully register this experience. However, if my interpretation is approximate, that was only the tip of the iceberg. But both of us know that words always fall short. Just be sure not to wrap yourself up in what you have unraveled. This may seem out of place and awkward, but look deep please;): http://www.shroomery.org/forums/showflat.php/Number/7116764#7116764 93 93/93
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Re: Strange Trip [Re: thedudenj]
#7627530 - 11/12/07 07:28 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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how am i supposed to know what my energy color is?
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thedudenj
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Re: Strange Trip [Re: Locus]
#7627762 - 11/12/07 08:15 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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a few ways, opening the third eye and viewing it your self, having some one else view it, reading up on aura colors and seeing which fits you cause your most likely that. some where along the line with psychedelics youll find out lol. me personally cant read them often its a come and go thing for me cause im crystal and my energy and abilities constantly change and are dependant on who im with. read up i have read a couple books on it, something you will learn is that books pretty much say the same things theres slight differnaces but theres manny agreements. i hate the really new agey ones the most but i cant knock the facts about energy and energy color
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