Last night I tripped from 5 Hawaiian Baby Woodrose seeds, and I had the time of my life. I went over to my friend's apartment, where we had bought 100 HBWR seeds online. A couple of other friends came over a little while later to partake in the seeds. To begin with, I ate 3 seeds, then waited 40 minutes to chew on 2 more.
The four of us decided to go on a walk around town. It was a brisk night, and the stars were out in all their brilliance, but I was getting disappointed because I at this point I only felt a mild euphoria. My other friends were beginning to think that the seeds were duds as well. After walking for a while, I suggested that we go to the local convenience store to get some munchies.
When we arrived at the store, the trip hit me with full force. My friend T informed me that my pupils were extremely dilated. It was then that I felt a very strong euphoria, and the colors of the convenience store intensified. "This convenience store is beautiful," I remarked jokingly, and my friends cracked up. We bought our munchies and left for T's apartment.
When we got back to the apartment, the trip took a turn for the worse. I started having very negative thoughts, such as the grim possibility that I would never come down from the trip, I had to do homework for graduate school the next day, I've completely screwed up my life, I'll never do drugs again, etc. I started pacing back and forth nervously.
T had turned off the lights and lit some candles, and T and R suggested that I sit down. Tool's "parabola" album was playing, and I just tried to relax and let go, which, to my amazement, worked. The euphoria came back even stronger than before, and I got a warm body buzz from head to toe. R was sitting in a chair across from the couch, and we were having very trippy conversations. R joked that the label on the seed bag said "for sowing purposes only" which really meant that the seeds are intended to sow thoughts into your consciousness, which made me laugh.
Everyone in the room fell silent, and I began to have insights into myself. I realized that my addiction to thinking was the source of my anxiety, and because the thoughts were comprised of words, they had no reality of their own.
I then looked up at the ceiling, and the beams started to bend and curve in different directions. The candles left trails of light in the darkness, which was a breakthrough for me, because I had never had visuals on a trip before. At one point I felt like my whole body was melting into the couch, a very strange sensation indeed. I gradually dozed off, and we all fell asleep several hours into the trip.
In general, I'd have to say it was a positive experience; the trip briefly got worse, but it reverted back to a positive state. Now I don't put much stock into my thoughts anymore, which will probably help with my anxiety.
-------------------- "It's not a war on drugs, it's a war on personal freedom. Keep that in mind at all times." --Bill Hicks "Anyway, no drug, not even alcohol, causes the fundamental ills of society. If we're looking for the source of our troubles, we shouldn't test people for drugs, we should test them for stupidity, ignorance, greed and love of power." --P.J. O'Rourke
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Wow..good stuff, I can relate to much of that. You and your friends sound a lot like people I hang out with.
I have had nothing but spectacular times on HBWR but it seems like no one puts much stock in their HBWR experiences, unless they just have altogether different types or they have too high or different of expectations. One major problem which is pretty commonly known is the nausea that can result form these and other LSA containing seeds, but I fortunately have basically an iron clad stomach and never get nausea, though even some of my friends have felt mild nausea on HBWR.
I had to laugh when you said you dozed off after a while - I can SO relate. The last HBWR experience I had, after the first effects kicked in we only moved to get to more comfortable furniture; no doubt the reason why some dude referred to these as "Hawaiian ecstasy," on an Erowid report. Lol
Now onto the anxiety, this is interesting because I've been suffering from anxiety & mild panic attacks lately, but most recently I've kind of snubbed out the anxiety due to some realizations I had about thoughts, like you mentioned. Because I am thinking so much about my problems and just thinking, thinking, thinking, I started to get wrapped up in my self-created negativity. I believe this all started though because for the past year or so I've been in a major transition of my life and was battling some pretty important questions in life...so I ended up placing way less importance on those questions, even though they weigh heavily on me - it became clear trying to figure these things out was not conducive to my mental health.
Glad you had a great experience - these seeds are so underrated and can use all the help they can get. Taste so shitty though!
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Personally, I don't have much of a problem with the taste. I find it interesting that this is the lowest dose I have ever taken with HBWR, but it turned out to be the best trip I had ever had. I think it is because I tripped with other people this time; all the other times I tripped alone. If I had been alone, the trip would have just stayed in its negative state. My friend's suggestion to sit down made all the difference.
-------------------- "It's not a war on drugs, it's a war on personal freedom. Keep that in mind at all times." --Bill Hicks "Anyway, no drug, not even alcohol, causes the fundamental ills of society. If we're looking for the source of our troubles, we shouldn't test people for drugs, we should test them for stupidity, ignorance, greed and love of power." --P.J. O'Rourke
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