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pong
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i feel dead inside
#7622811 - 11/11/07 05:30 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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i go from rage to sadness all within hours. i cant ever remember anything, i feel like dying.
maybe im depressed.
for the first time in my life i am actually considering getting some meds. so that when i wake up in the morning a feel like i can make a difference. i have thoroughly lost control of myself and of my life.
i feel like a faliure. 
is anyone on antidepressants? do they work?
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Re: i feel dead inside [Re: pong]
#7622819 - 11/11/07 05:32 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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My mom is on them. They do work, but try and fix your problems without them first because there are negative side effects. If you really need them though, don't hesitate, they can help and once your life is back in order you can get off em.
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Re: i feel dead inside *DELETED* [Re: pong]
#7622821 - 11/11/07 05:32 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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(I haven't seen anyone who had positive experiences, I've had talks with a Dr. and been recommended a couple things but I have refused as of right now. I am not going to hurt myself and think I can get out of this. I am not ready for the side effects of some of these meds and I don't really care to mention which ones.)
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Re: i feel dead inside [Re: pong]
#7622825 - 11/11/07 05:33 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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I took antidepressants for a few months a year or two ago, I hated it I rather feel what I'm ment to feel
it could work for you but I just dont like the idea of those kinds of meds
I still get depressed on a somewhat regular basis, I just deal its different for everyone though, so it may be right for you
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Re: i feel dead inside [Re: Adom]
#7622827 - 11/11/07 05:34 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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If you're actually at the point where you're any sort of danger to yourself (i.e. you can't eat, sleep, suicidal thoughts) then you really should be on meds. People act like they are sooooo bad, and although I'm not a huge fan of them they can really help you. I saw the turnaround with my mom she went from crying everyday to discovering life again.
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Re: i feel dead inside [Re: pong]
#7622835 - 11/11/07 05:37 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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dude that attitude that you have lost control of yourself and your life is whats dragging you down. you arent DEAD, and you arent DYING. you are alive, now use your life and do what makes you happy.
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Re: i feel dead inside [Re: pong]
#7622849 - 11/11/07 05:41 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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yeah Im curious about anti-depresants also. While Im not as bad off as you sound right now. It seems like something is off with me and when Im not and some chemical or another that I can't connect to people the right way and I feel like everything I do is off. Maybe its a chemical imbalance or maybe thats what the chemicals have done to me and I just need enough time sober for it to clear up.
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There's a very big difference between being clinically depressed and just going through a tough time. You only need anti-depressants if you are clinically depressed, if you are in a bad trip that won't end. We all go through bad times, but don't take drugs except as your last resort. If you take anti-depressants and you don't really need them they will do more bad than good.
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i cant sleep on a regular basis just cus i worry about shit. i make plans to fix my life up but somehow they always fuck up(i forget to set the alarm before bed etc). i feel helpless and lost i have nobody to love here at college. nobody to hug. i fucking hate it i cant tell any of this to my parents either cus i promised them i would get really good grades. FUCKKKK my mother is calling me right now and i am afraid to pick up because she might think that i am losing it.
the sleeplessness is killing my. without sleep i am useless.
i used to be anti pill, i just see now, that without some sort of help from something/body i will get no satisfaction.
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Re: i feel dead inside [Re: g00ru]
#7622886 - 11/11/07 05:54 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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I was depressed a while back and got on zoloft. I believe zoloft gave me the "edge" or whatever I needed to be passionate about life again. I enjoyed waking up in the morning, talking to friends, and all the little stuff in life.
I stopped taking it after about a year due to sexual side-effects and the fact that I couldn't use mushrooms while on them either.
When off of them, I did find I felt a little blah again, but I had gotten the ball moving enough to give a damn so to speak about life again.
If you are depressed to the point where you do consider suicide or just feel like a walking void, I would reccomend getting on something.
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Re: i feel dead inside [Re: pong]
#7622906 - 11/11/07 05:58 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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It it important that you get help. You need to talk to someone, preferably a professional counselor of some sort. I'm sure your school has resources for this. My sister went through a period of depression, and did take meds that helped her. A good self-help book for dealing with depression is "Feeling Good: The New Mood Therapy" by David D. Burns. (My husband recently finished counseling school and it was a recommended.)
Best of wishes to you.
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oliveplume said: just feel like a walking void,.
yeah man, zombie status. i dont even think clearly.
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Re: i feel dead inside [Re: pong]
#7622919 - 11/11/07 06:01 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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pong said: i cant sleep on a regular basis just cus i worry about shit. i make plans to fix my life up but somehow they always fuck up(i forget to set the alarm before bed etc). i feel helpless and lost i have nobody to love here at college. nobody to hug. i fucking hate it i cant tell any of this to my parents either cus i promised them i would get really good grades. FUCKKKK my mother is calling me right now and i am afraid to pick up because she might think that i am losing it.
the sleeplessness is killing my. without sleep i am useless.
i used to be anti pill, i just see now, that without some sort of help from something/body i will get no satisfaction.
Wtf? All of this is within YOUR control. You have to face reality, grow up, be strong, make friends, LIVE YOUR LIFE, and do what you WANT to do. Nothing is holding you back except yourself, from the sounds of your post. As someone once told me: Stop your fucking whining, stop feeling sorry for yourself, and live.
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Re: i feel dead inside [Re: pong]
#7622924 - 11/11/07 06:02 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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Holy shit pong. you and I have a lot in common it seems. I too go to college in my second year and yearn for someone to wrap my arms around.
My memory is for SHIT. I seriously cannot remember anything. Talking bores me. I wish I loved to talk and converse, but I don't I do not even reconize myself sometimes.
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Wtf? All of this is within YOUR control. You have to face reality, grow up, be strong, make friends, LIVE YOUR LIFE, and do what you WANT to do. Nothing is holding you back except yourself, from the sounds of your post. As someone once told me: Stop your fucking whining, stop feeling sorry for yourself, and live.
It's very easy to make a statement like this when mentally, everything is ok.
Depresssion at it's worst can result in a complete lack of hope, I'm sure you've heard of people laying in their bed for months at a time never leaving the house. It's very hard to reclaim yourself at this point.
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Re: i feel dead inside [Re: Tangerines]
#7622941 - 11/11/07 06:06 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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Wtf? All of this is within YOUR control. You have to face reality, grow up, be strong, make friends, LIVE YOUR LIFE, and do what you WANT to do. Nothing is holding you back except yourself, from the sounds of your post. As someone once told me: Stop your fucking whining, stop feeling sorry for yourself, and live.
Technically yes it is in his control...but that doesn't mean people don't need help sometimes. There are physiological conditions present here, and sometimes to LIVE YOUR LIFE you just have to get help and realize that it isn't worth it to feel so terrible.
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pong said: i cant sleep on a regular basis just cus i worry about shit. i make plans to fix my life up but somehow they always fuck up(i forget to set the alarm before bed etc). i feel helpless and lost i have nobody to love here at college. nobody to hug. i fucking hate it i cant tell any of this to my parents either cus i promised them i would get really good grades. FUCKKKK my mother is calling me right now and i am afraid to pick up because she might think that i am losing it.
the sleeplessness is killing my. without sleep i am useless.
i used to be anti pill, i just see now, that without some sort of help from something/body i will get no satisfaction.
Wtf? All of this is within YOUR control. You have to face reality, grow up, be strong, make friends, LIVE YOUR LIFE, and do what you WANT to do. Nothing is holding you back except yourself, from the sounds of your post. As someone once told me: Stop your fucking whining, stop feeling sorry for yourself, and live.
fuck you. i dont feel sorry for myslef you fucking bitch.
nothing hold back anyone except themselves. nice one there
and guess what, i hope you fucking break your leg and somebody tells you,
well only you can stop the pain, just block it out. while dumping morphine down the drain before your eyes. asshole.
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Re: i feel dead inside [Re: Tangerines]
#7622964 - 11/11/07 06:13 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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Tangerines said: Holy shit pong. you and I have a lot in common it seems. I too go to college in my second year and yearn for someone to wrap my arms around.
My memory is for SHIT. I seriously cannot remember anything. Talking bores me. I wish I loved to talk and converse, but I don't I do not even reconize myself sometimes.
one thing i have noticed recently is taht talking has become a game to me. i do it for "fun" but i actually derive nothing but instantaneous sense of self gratitude that fades as soon as the person im talking to is not there anymore.
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Re: i feel dead inside [Re: pong]
#7622981 - 11/11/07 06:18 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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Anti-depressants i suppose work for some people. I personally think it is just in their heads, thinking a pill is helping them.
Anti-depressants have been proven to make some people more depressed than before, even suicidal.
I tried several anti-depressants and I thought they just made me worse. Paxil was some real evil stuff from my experience.
Then a doctor put me on a bi-polar medicine called Zyprexa. I thought it made me better for a while, but it was all probably in my head. I am relatively certain I am not bi-polar.. it is f.cked up, when you go and see a psychiatrist you talk with them for literally only 2 minutes and they will diagnos people and just randomly choose a medicine for you start on. Honestly something is wrong there. I've seen a few different psychiatrists and they will talk with me for 2-5 minutes, diagnose me with something and then put me on a new med to try out.. its just wrong. One psychiatrist dropped me as a patient once because I told him I did not want to try anymore medications and just wanted to try psychotherapy instead.. they can be so gung ho about putting you on these medicines that I think there should be new laws developed to stop the industry from prescribing medicines to people that probably do not even need it for any reason. This doctor was insisting that I try Geodon and I guess I kind of pissed him off or insulted his intellegence when I asked "What is in that pill exactly?" "Is it a molecule that is found anywhere in nature?" and other similar questions about wtf is even in those pills that is going to make me happier. He couldn't answer me.
I no longer use psychiatric medicine and I notice no difference.
Psychotherapy seems to help some people they have told me. But it is expensive, and personally think most of them are not qualified enough to help people. Personally I have tried a few and would always walk out of their rooms in worse shape than I came in hehe. There are some psychotherapists i guess that can really work magic on you. The ones that are qualified cost 200+ dollars an hour. I recently met one that I connect with, he is a friggin dead-head too, and extremely talented at what he does. I have one appointment set with him coming up soon, which should be very unique, an all-day sessioin with the guy, which I don't know of any other therapist that does that. Everything in my life seems to be going very well right now, but since I can afford to talk with the man, I will. Many people who are happy with their lives go to therapy, it can do some good if you find the right person to do it for you. Your mind is like a car, it needs serviceing every once and a while. Or a computer, they get virus' and you need a pro to help you fix it. Because the majority of the world does not know how to help themselves when they have psychological issues and there are proffessionals out there that know how to help.
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Re: i feel dead inside [Re: pong]
#7622985 - 11/11/07 06:19 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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post adolescent existential breakdown, we all have them, its time to start your odyssey!
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