I was going through some of my old writings and I found my first trip report with salvia. Somewhere between 5 an 10 leaves chewed.
Jan 13, 2007 I just took some Salvia. That was 7:05.
It's 7:50 right now.
I'm not sure exactly where all that time went. It happened so fast. It was a blur. Very strange. Very, very strange. I can't help saying to myself as I take salvia. "I've gone somewhere" or "I'm going somewhere" It's like I'm somewhere else. It's just what I feel. It doesn't make sense, because I'm in my room, and I know it. I have to always remind myself though. I tell myself it's alright, because I won't be gone for long. I'll be back in a little while.
I realized how we take time and space for granted. Without it, we have nothing to hidge to. We have no orientation.
It's nothing like weed. It's so abstract. It's like looking at an area of the brain that can't be explained in words.
A sound loop was in my head.
I tried to visualize and imagine stuff. It was hard to do. What I could "see" with my minds eye wasn't very clear. And it was so linear. Blocks and straight lines, and little involuntary creative process.
I chewed the salvia. Probably 10 minutes into it, I really knew I was feeling it. I had felt this way before, and I wanted to go a little farther. Next thing I remember was really being ingulfed in the experience. A very strong feeling of "going somewhere". I spit out the salvia. I had to look around and tell myself consciously, "ok, this is my room. I'm here. I'm in my room." I touched my lava lamp and said, "I'm in my room because my lava lamp is here."
I told myself that my consciousness couldn't be taken away. I could go deep inside thought and still be aware.
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Nov 10, 2007 The first few experiences with salvia, I wasn't sure what exactly was happening. I was learning how to deal with how salvia worked on my brain. I knew my perception of time and space was distorted. I knew my perception of where I was was distorted. But what exactly was happening, was a mystery. The whole experience was completely abstract.
The other night I finally understand what was happening to me. It's like I finally learned to translate all the strange thoughts and feelings into something tangible.
7 dried leaves chewed.
11:24 chewing 11:29 chewing 11:32 foggy disconnected perception with eyes open
So I close my eyes and just relax. I try to clear my mind and just let it go wherever it happens to go. When I do this, I always end up feeling a specific part of my body. The rest of my body is relaxed and I'm not conscious of it (like an opiate feeling), but one part always stands out. In this case it was my mouth with the chewed salvia leaves in it.
That feeling is what leads me into the mind trip. I'll describe the feeling to myself. It always feels like a physical object, place, or movement. I can't help but describe it in these terms.
"My mouth feels like a swamp. A big, green swamp. Gooey and slimy, in a jungle. I'm in the swamp up to my waste."
I spit out the salvia and drank some water, rinsed my mouth out. I layed down curled up on my side. I felt my upper body.
"It's like a huge mountain. It's covered in snow and I'm on top..."
Looking back at previous experience I see this happening to me too. It was summer and I got very hot during the trip. So I went upstairs and drank some ice water and stood in front of the swamp cooler. It felt so good.
"It's like I'm in the arctic. A strong icy wind blowing on me."
Feelings -> Description -> Actually being immersed in and experiencing that description
Oh, and time flies by so fast. The time between chewing the leaves, tripping, and starting to feel normal, feels like no time at all. It's like time traveling.
-Retna
Edited by Retna (11/11/07 02:41 PM)
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