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Muufokfok
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when does it end
#7616682 - 11/09/07 08:10 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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i go through every day never getting enough just always wanting an escape. with the worries of today no body can even worry about the small things in life or the things that make you happy. between work, school, family, relationships, friendships, my mentality and the other day to day shit i must worry about in this future world i cant take it anymore. im failing school, my parents dont trust me, work aint so bad. i feel as though i dont have any best friends anymore, cause we either dont hangout as often or theyve stoped talking to me. no girlfriend. and smoking weed, only makes it worse. i dont know what to believe. what if the day where all of this leaves us happens right now? all of this infrastructure, all of this worriment, all of this hassle. you can call me lazy but for the past year or so ive been slowly losing hope. maybe i just grew up depressed, which i did. offing myself would just be stupid and sadden people. but when will this reality show its meaning. what if this is all a dream. what if i never regain my motivation. what if i was truly happy...
-------------------- "I'm guessing the 'ancient lost drug' of india is psychedelic mushrooms. The correlation between sacred cows (in hinduism) and magic mushrooms growing on cow dung is too strong to ignore, if you ask me."
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Re: when does it end [Re: Muufokfok]
#7616799 - 11/09/07 08:44 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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you have to help yourself out man, I wish I could tell you how to do it, but the only person that can get you out of this state of mind is yourself.
Im majoring in psychology and know a fair bit about mental health and wellbeing, and if theres one thing you should know, its that your mental state effects your life more than any external environment or reality ever could.
You MAKE your own reality, you have to understand that. You cannot rely on the world you make you happy, you have to make yourself happy.
So go to the gym, stop smoking weed, read a few books about mental well being, read a few books about social dynamics, make new friends, and ultimately, work on yourself and rely on yourself to change your own life.
Good luck bro.
-------------------- My apartment in New York was on Perry Street, a five minute walk from the White Horse. I often drank there, but I was never accepted because I wore a tie. The real people wanted no part of me. - The Rum Diary
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Re: when does it end [Re: Muufokfok]
#7616820 - 11/09/07 08:51 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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BoxyBrown said: i go through every day never getting enough just always wanting an escape. with the worries of today no body can even worry about the small things in life or the things that make you happy. between work, school, family, relationships, friendships, my mentality and the other day to day shit i must worry about in this future world i cant take it anymore. im failing school, my parents dont trust me, work aint so bad. i feel as though i dont have any best friends anymore, cause we either dont hangout as often or theyve stoped talking to me. no girlfriend. and smoking weed, only makes it worse. i dont know what to believe. what if the day where all of this leaves us happens right now? all of this infrastructure, all of this worriment, all of this hassle. you can call me lazy but for the past year or so ive been slowly losing hope. maybe i just grew up depressed, which i did. offing myself would just be stupid and sadden people. but when will this reality show its meaning. what if this is all a dream. what if i never regain my motivation. what if i was truly happy...
i used to feel just like u... till i popped my first roll that is completly cleansed me, left me positive and with hope
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Re: when does it end [Re: xpl0de]
#7616834 - 11/09/07 08:56 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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Sure, some drugs may make you realize that life is amazing, but if someone is depressed I would reccomend staying away from drugs.
Dont get me wrong, I love tripping, it makes me feel alive in a way that ive never felt before, but if someone is deep in the dumps its easy to fall into the habit if taking a pill to feel happy, over and over again.
-------------------- My apartment in New York was on Perry Street, a five minute walk from the White Horse. I often drank there, but I was never accepted because I wore a tie. The real people wanted no part of me. - The Rum Diary
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Muufokfok
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well in august i had a good shroom trip which brought me outa this but its died down. im gonna trip again soon though. i also have that feeling where i just see everything negatively and like felt like ive already done it before. like theres no motivation after trying it. thanks for your input tune-in. now that i think about, school really isnt that hard and i rethought my life alot. ive been in this downward slump for a while - getting fucked up every weekend, hoping for something good to pass me by, no self confidence, loss of spirituality, playing video games alot which kept me from friends.
but right now im in somewhat of an uplift, im trying to look at the positives, i mean i love getting fucked up and yet i worry about my future its just i wish i could work on my future and get fucked up occassionally. it feels likes its hard to give up cause all my friends still get fucked up.
-------------------- "I'm guessing the 'ancient lost drug' of india is psychedelic mushrooms. The correlation between sacred cows (in hinduism) and magic mushrooms growing on cow dung is too strong to ignore, if you ask me."
  As the ocean waves, the universe "peoples" ~Alan Watts~
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Re: when does it end [Re: Muufokfok]
#7617185 - 11/09/07 11:12 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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i would say that
a day of worry is more exhausting than a day of work.
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Re: when does it end [Re: Muufokfok]
#7617212 - 11/09/07 11:26 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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Step back and look at yourself as if you were a stranger.
What advice would you give yourself?
-------------------- “The crisis takes a much longer time coming than you think, and then it happens much faster than you would have thought.” -- Rudiger Dornbusch
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Re: when does it end [Re: zorbman]
#7617999 - 11/10/07 09:26 AM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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Are you that fucked up that you can't see getting fucked up is fucking you up? In one sentence you say that getting fucked up is part of the downward slop you're in, yet in the next you say you love doing it.
It is on you to experience the world the way you want to. Its funny.. seems to (to me anyway) be a sort of uprise in the amount of people that are wanting to make a better lifestyle choice.
You may appreciate this video. If you want change, change.
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Re: when does it end [Re: Muufokfok]
#7618109 - 11/10/07 10:16 AM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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right now i'm feeling low. maybe its my haircut... my head seems smaller than most peoples... its a day i want to sleep so i won't have to go through. anxiety is at an all time high. and i was feeling so fine a few days ago.
is everyone perceptions of how someone looks the same?
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Re: when does it end [Re: Muufokfok]
#7619754 - 11/10/07 05:45 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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You will have to find the strength to create your own meaning and life. Dump the pot and eat more mushrooms. Good luck.
-------------------- "Don't believe everything you think". -Anom. " All that lives was born to die"-Anom. With much wisdom comes much sorrow, The more knowledge, the more grief. Ecclesiastes circa 350 BC
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Muufokfok
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Re: when does it end [Re: Icelander]
#7627654 - 11/12/07 07:50 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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Icelander said: You will have to find the strength to create your own meaning and life. Dump the pot and eat more mushrooms. Good luck.
over the past week i have changed my life around, yet im still smoking and i dont get depressed, nor do i get lazy or shit.
i watched that one video on dr.gonz thread from that buddhist (roosters, snakes, pigs) and i realized i cant fear myself or anyone that i must attack the world and take on what i can, cause with enough effort i can do anything.
i dioscovered the full meaning of carpe diem
-------------------- "I'm guessing the 'ancient lost drug' of india is psychedelic mushrooms. The correlation between sacred cows (in hinduism) and magic mushrooms growing on cow dung is too strong to ignore, if you ask me."
  As the ocean waves, the universe "peoples" ~Alan Watts~
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Muufokfok
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Re: when does it end [Re: Muufokfok]
#7627663 - 11/12/07 07:52 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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well i keep myself busy alot too, work, school, kung fu class which i just joined, swimming as exercise and going to concerts and seeing more girls. somehow within all of that i fit in drugs a lil bit.
-------------------- "I'm guessing the 'ancient lost drug' of india is psychedelic mushrooms. The correlation between sacred cows (in hinduism) and magic mushrooms growing on cow dung is too strong to ignore, if you ask me."
  As the ocean waves, the universe "peoples" ~Alan Watts~
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