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Anonymous #1
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Sexual novice, clumsy, impotent, gay?
#7588275 - 11/02/07 03:23 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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Hi,
I was a virgin.
I'm not anymore.
I don't really feel anything in my penis because of circumcision.
I can get myself off pretty well on masturbation, but when my girlfriend touches me I don't feel ANYTHING at all.
I try to tell her how to touch me but it just doesn't turn me on at all.
Sex with her the first time, with a condom, gave me enough sensation that I did get aroused and get off more or less, but the next time I didn't feel ANYTHING I felt absolutely no sensations
I want to have it without a condom a lot a lot but we have to wait a week until her patch starts working.
Touch used to be sacred to me.
When she first held my hand it made me cry inside. But she doesn't know what sacred touch means, and is clumsy and mechanical and over-masculine not understanding the delicate meditative spiritual intimacy that can turn touch into something wonderous.
I gave her a 'hand-job' and it wasn't anything special for me to do to her. It got her off though but it was just like.... hmmmmm...
and she asks me, am I gay?
I try to tell her, look it's like banging my arm into a wall I don't feel anything. Or look it's the same as touching my arm. I don't feel anything.
My penis doesn't feel any-thing. How can it? Circumcision + a condom? I hate circumcision I find it vile and disgusting but no doubt this makes my mind tell my penis to have less sensation than it should.
I want serious answers there are ten thousand stupid fucks here on shroomery, god bless you all the same, that are operating in the lower chakras and view sex as a commodity and women as something to conquer.
My veil broke long ago and I saw through the whore of britney spears-a-tron iterating constant slut gurgitations from the media and taking my eyes away so that every girl I saw would be sized up as a hot piece to conquer
now i CANNOT ever see women that way because i see that which they really are, weird conglomerations of body parts that are entirely goofy and absurd, boobs look really goofy and absurd to me and the uman being in general from the vantage of half-way between here and the astral planes where I always reside just seems really absurd
i want to have tantra
i can take her soul over but she is afraid of such deep intimacy............. i want to fuck
its an addiction a craving screaming at me and killing me
i want to either have good sex or become celibate.... i want to do tantra
i'm not gay but i always dream of people touching my ass, or things being in my ass, and it feels soooo good
but touching my ass, stimulating it with my finger, it doesn't feel good and i don't think having a guy have sex with me would feel good
if you ask me, which are more attractive, women
they are beautiful though i just don't really look at them and get a hard on i look at some fucking bimbo whore slut showing her junk off and am like fuck you you're an idiot, a whore, and never bound for liberation from samsara stupid stupid sad ignorant girl, the whore, the media system, it raped your mind and made you a prostitute
i just laugh inside
see a porn magazine, i wouldn't look into them but i see a cover of a maxim or something and i'm like hah wtf
do people find this hot?
if i steal someone else's eyes, like my friend, and look at one of his magazines i see lust but its because he has put lust energy into it
i don't really have lust
i want to have sex
i want my foreskin back it hurt me so bad for so many years to come to learn that my most sensitive body parts were chopped off as i was crying in morbid pain with a sadistic fuck with a scalpel doing this in the name of what hygiene ? fucking bullshit more like repressed judeo-christian tyrannical tomfoolery fucking cunts they are wanting men to not masturbate
that's why
hygiene my ass we are AMERICANS IN THE 20TH CENTURY WE CAN CLEAN OUR DICKS ON OUR OWN?
don't
fuck you if you want to this is not what i'm asking for, debate circumcision, if you are interested i'll share info on it but i just really need help
turns out the frenulum is more sensitive than anything, we loose, literally, over 50% of our nerve endings
and whether its psychological, or physical, or both
my dick doesn't feel a lot at all, ever
she can touch it all she wants and it isn't good but
i don't understand why when we made out and she first touch it i was like holy shit and i started laughing like someone tickled me a million times and omfg it was intense but instead of keep going she didn't understand my cues and stopped and was like 'what' then it didn't feel good any-more
it has to be right
i have to take over her mind and take her out of her ego she doesn't really touch the borderlines of the inner realms like i do
and its like i
need to be touched a certain way
i see her naked and i don't find her ugly i think she is aesthetically beautiful but i don't find her hot
and she says to me most guys would go crazy just to touch her boob
and i'm like WHAT KIND OF FUCKING LOSER WOULD YOU BE IF YOU WERE ONE OF THOSE GUYS
and it makes me a little angry inside because fuck, do you know such fucking low-lifes that all they are is a dick? literally?
fuck the human race you know
its easy to get boners i get them even when she just hugs me, which i don't really like
only thing i can think is to not jerk off at all for a while, maybe until we can do it without a condom
when i touch her, i feel ... roughness? or some bumps? or something? i'm not sure what it is, she said that she had to get tested to get on her birth control and that before that she hasn't had sex in two years and that she's clean
i don't want to be paranoid but she isn't a virgin and i am or was what the hell is virginity i feel no different now than i did then but... anyway
i mean i have bumps on me even and if i have an std it would be from the most weird insane logic ever like toilet seat transmission or just
really unlikely stuff so maybe girls bodies just have bumpy areas
i mean
i dunno
i want to fuck but its like a false god its like the devil tricking you through the media system to worship a false goddess that is never satisfying the way they say it is
i have to stay in higher chakra awareness and this only leaves tantra as the right option you know
it is so much not what i thought it would be
she took my lack of touch, so sacred, and made it blasphemous and useless
95% of it is NOT being able to TOUCH, forbidden fruit you know, so you go crazy like
i want to touch so much
but when everything is allowed you have to find the vulnerable head-space where this girl becomes a stranger again and you see her as the goddess archetype and its tricky because though she is interested in spirituality she does a lot of fucking dumb things
like listening to music and such when most music lowers the population and makes them stupider and i dunno
anyway
it's like
challenging
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Anonymous #2
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Re: Sexual novice, clumsy, impotent, gay? [Re: Anonymous #1]
#7588306 - 11/02/07 03:32 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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Dude, just jack hammer it like that one dude did to that other dudes wife.
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Re: Sexual novice, clumsy, impotent, gay? [Re: Anonymous #1]
#7588322 - 11/02/07 03:38 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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fuck her asshole
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Re: Sexual novice, clumsy, impotent, gay? [Re: Anonymous #3]
#7588372 - 11/02/07 03:51 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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Re: Sexual novice, clumsy, impotent, gay? [Re: Anonymous #4]
#7588389 - 11/02/07 03:57 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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Re: Sexual novice, clumsy, impotent, gay? [Re: Anonymous #3]
#7588407 - 11/02/07 04:00 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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Re: Sexual novice, clumsy, impotent, gay? [Re: Anonymous #4]
#7588424 - 11/02/07 04:03 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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Re: Sexual novice, clumsy, impotent, gay? [Re: Anonymous #1]
#7588493 - 11/02/07 04:18 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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and she says to me most guys would go crazy just to touch her boob
and i'm like WHAT KIND OF FUCKING LOSER WOULD YOU BE IF YOU WERE ONE OF THOSE GUYS
and it makes me a little angry inside because fuck, do you know such fucking low-lifes that all they are is a dick? literally?
They aren't losers. They're normal.
From reading this post, you are not normal in terms of human sexuality.
And circumcision should not completely numb your dick. They must have botched it.
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now i CANNOT ever see women that way because i see that which they really are, weird conglomerations of body parts that are entirely goofy and absurd, boobs look really goofy and absurd to me and the uman being in general from the vantage of half-way between here and the astral planes where I always reside just seems really absurd
That is a very strange perception of women. Most guys are hardwired to view the female body as beautiful and more physically attractive than ANYTHING... so much so that it drives men crazy. I'm not sure why this makes you uncomfortable.
Were you abused by any chance? This forum is anonymous.
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but when everything is allowed you have to find the vulnerable head-space where this girl becomes a stranger again and you see her as the goddess archetype and its tricky because though she is interested in spirituality she does a lot of fucking dumb things
like listening to music and such when most music lowers the population and makes them stupider and i dunno
Okay you're just a nutjob
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Anonymous #7
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Re: Sexual novice, clumsy, impotent, gay? [Re: Anonymous #5]
#7588498 - 11/02/07 04:19 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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Re: Sexual novice, clumsy, impotent, gay? [Re: Anonymous #2]
#7588507 - 11/02/07 04:20 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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Anonymous said: Dude, just jack hammer it like that one dude did to that other dudes wife.
roffle
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Anonymous #7
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Re: Sexual novice, clumsy, impotent, gay? [Re: Anonymous #1]
#7588514 - 11/02/07 04:22 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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I'm circumsized, I've had tons and tons of great sex. Your problem is mental. Stop thinking about it so much and just enjoy yourself. Quit trying to get her to jerk you off, because women suck at that shit.
When I was a teenager, I used to get going without a condom, than after we started getting into it pretty good, I'd slip the condom on and go to town.
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Re: Sexual novice, clumsy, impotent, gay? [Re: Anonymous #7]
#7588526 - 11/02/07 04:25 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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i dont really agree with your opinion on music but the way you descirbe women :
"now i CANNOT ever see women that way because i see that which they really are, weird conglomerations of body parts that are entirely goofy and absurd, boobs look really goofy and absurd to me and the uman being in general from the vantage of half-way between here and the astral planes where I always reside just seems really absurd"
I totally understand that, i see people like that half the time. I'll just be looking at people walk by or while having a conversation and suddenly i'll start to see them as intricate combinations of flesh, bone and muscle. Its so wierd. I also tend to fetishize every part of the body. Western culture fetishizes the pussy, tits and ass. but I find so much beauty in almost every single part of the body, every bone and curve.
I really feel what youre saying man, and apart from the spiritual, astral plane stuff, I think were on the same wavelength.
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Re: Sexual novice, clumsy, impotent, gay? [Re: Anonymous #7]
#7588644 - 11/02/07 05:04 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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Re: Sexual novice, clumsy, impotent, gay? [Re: Anonymous #8]
#7588690 - 11/02/07 05:19 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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I like womens curves in particular. And if this cat thinks that women look ugly and physically unappealing, then he's gay. end of the story.
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Re: Sexual novice, clumsy, impotent, gay? [Re: Anonymous #1]
#7589352 - 11/02/07 08:19 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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I think your issue is psychological. I think you could greatly enjoy sex if you could get in the right mindset.
Maybe you are too rational?
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Re: Sexual novice, clumsy, impotent, gay? [Re: Anonymous #4]
#7589368 - 11/02/07 08:24 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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Re: Sexual novice, clumsy, impotent, gay? [Re: Anonymous #1]
#7589610 - 11/02/07 09:51 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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I understand some of what you're talking about, like how sex can feel so good that it almost feels "sinful", whether or not you are religious. But you really could be helped by calming down a bit. Try talking to a shrink, or someone who is qualified to help you with your problems.
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Re: Sexual novice, clumsy, impotent, gay? [Re: Anonymous #1]
#7589627 - 11/02/07 09:57 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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Google "Shemale" = ?
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Re: Sexual novice, clumsy, impotent, gay? [Re: Anonymous #1]
#7589646 - 11/02/07 10:04 PM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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It's time for you to start fucking boys assholes.
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Re: Sexual novice, clumsy, impotent, gay? [Re: Anonymous #13]
#7590112 - 11/03/07 02:34 AM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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OP isn't gay, he's just FUCKING INSANE. Stop talking about all that astral plane, chakra, tantra bullshit. That's grade-A douchery. I'm cut, and I'm fine just fine. Shit nigga I've got callouses on my dick from over-eager teenage masturbation, and I'm STILL fine. and the first time I poked a vargina, rather than feeling nothing, I was fucking frozen in place briefly by the overflow of pure  and the next time, too.. and just about every time since.
It's all in your head. Stop being a flaky douche, stop thinking it's so important, start fucking guys YOU GIANT FAG!
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