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sprokus
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the trip from hell
#7583241 - 11/01/07 09:01 AM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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first off let me say that about a week before this i had gotten into motorcycle wreck and broken some bones in my hand and my collar bone. i was and am still wearing a cast on my right arm. also i was going through some problems with my ex so tripping was probably a bad idea in my state, which i attribute the bad trip to.
the three of us dosed about 5g each of dried soaked in lemon juice. the come up was great, but a little intense. once i became full blown it seemed like i had just woke up, having forgotten everything about who i was, and of life and existence as i knew it. I was so fish eyed that i felt like a sphere. I had lost all control of my mind and now had no clue even why everything was the way it was. I didn't know why i was tripping or what tripping was. at that moment i assumed that this was existence, and was under that belief with no connection or memory of reality.
up until this point it wasn't a bad trip,just intense, but it soon turned into one.
different emotions started washing over me, all negative. i would just feel sadness for what seemed like hours, and was under the total belief that existence it's self was experiencing sadness. remember that still at this point i didn't know who i was, what my life was, or if anyone else existed. I felt like i was experiencing existence and it was not beautiful. it was painful and filled with sadness. i knew i wanted out so bad, but i didn't know of anything else so i assumed that this was it; that what i was feeling was everything, and there was nothing more. existence was a trip, and i was experiencing the evil and death section of it's path. at one point i looked at my foot not knowing what it was or if it was part of me and just seeing the skin melt away down to bone and the bones becoming drenched in blood. i started to feel wet, and it turned to blood. my tears turned to blood and i felt like that was existence. it was sad. it seemed like i was stuck in this consciously for about a days time, making it that much worse. when i snapped into a small reality,i was able to walk upstairs. there i found myself in a hallway, then into a room where i laid in bed. the next thing i knew was i got up (which was probably not real) and went back to the hallway, i kept walking down the hallway and opening a door, and the hallway was on the other side. and it kept repeating. i was stuck in a loop searching for something. what seemed like consciously for an hour. soon after this i regained some more reality and started relearning everything. who i was, my age, where i was, and what we had done.
this trip has really turned me off to mushrooms. i use to be fascinated with the pleasure and rebirth they gave me. now I'm bewildered by their capacity to dissolve everything and scare the hell out of me.
Thanks for reading my experience. I'm still looking for closure from this trip and I'm afraid i might not find it.
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Re: the trip from hell [Re: sprokus]
#7583260 - 11/01/07 09:09 AM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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That sounds pretty intense. On my first trip I came from the bathroom into my room and thought there was a corpse on the bed and another on the floor. That was the scariest moment in my life but the rest of the trip was great.
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Re: the trip from hell [Re: sprokus]
#7583290 - 11/01/07 09:19 AM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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So how did the trip end after you learned who you was and what you were about? , cos you could take a positive out of something bad trips arent allways enjoyable and you can sometimes get more from the bad than the good !
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Re: the trip from hell [Re: sprokus]
#7583354 - 11/01/07 09:41 AM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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sprokus said:
the three of us dosed about 5g each of dried soaked in lemon juice.
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this trip has really turned me off to mushrooms. i use to be fascinated with the pleasure and rebirth they gave me. now I'm bewildered by their capacity to dissolve everything and scare the hell out of me.
I'm constantly astonished at some of the dosages I hear people taking. I don't know if I'm particularly sensitive to mushrooms (or the mushrooms I get are particularly potent), but even 3 grams for me is quite a heavy dose, one in which I'd be immobile on my bed, getting ravaged mentally. There is a lot of mental territory to explore in the 2-3g range.
5g with lemon juice? I wouldn't expect anything but a total mind-raping, broken bones or no. Have you taken a lot of high-dose trips? What is a typical dose for you?
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sprokus
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Re: the trip from hell [Re: grandesign]
#7583373 - 11/01/07 09:44 AM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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it wasn't very enjoyable, it was just confusing. the best way to describe it is that i had fallen into a canyon and it was like climbing out. it felt better but still wasn't easy
Edited by sprokus (11/01/07 09:53 AM)
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sprokus
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WhiskeyClone said:
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5g with lemon juice? I wouldn't expect anything but a total mind-raping, broken bones or no. Have you taken a lot of high-dose trips? What is a typical dose for you?
yea this was way too high, i didnt know how potent they were, im use to doses like yours. this did rape my mind and i wont do that again. i thought i could handle it but i sure was wrong
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Re: the trip from hell [Re: sprokus]
#7586956 - 11/02/07 09:11 AM (16 years, 2 months ago) |
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I learned more from bad tripping than good tripping. One has to look at life from the perspective of what lessons one needs so as to develop as a person so that they can make better karma and evolve instead of the opposite, and a bad trip has more galvanizing action than a good one. Good trips are like having great sex, which might make one consider becoming a whore to make money. Whereas a bad trip is like telling one to get their fucking shit together before they make more serious mistakes, like becoming a whore. Because then there is no separation between pain and pleasure and one is truely fucked. It's good yes?
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