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fake estate
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nothings matters
#7522855 - 10/16/07 12:11 PM (16 years, 3 months ago) |
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I dont really know when it began but I recently realized Ive been what they describe as "depressed". I no longer find joy in things I used to and among other things I just have lost a lot of motivation.
In my search to find the root of my depression I have guessed it might be my realizations of the futility of life and the pointlessness. Ive told my self over and over that because nothing really matters that I should do whatever I want..but I cant figure out if something is really what I want or what I think I want. (Beautiful women, great tasting good, and now even drugs) If anyone else out there can relate to me...please do
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Icelander
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fake estate said: I dont really know when it began but I recently realized Ive been what they describe as "depressed". I no longer find joy in things I used to and among other things I just have lost a lot of motivation.
In my search to find the root of my depression I have guessed it might be my realizations of the futility of life and the pointlessness. Ive told my self over and over that because nothing really matters that I should do whatever I want..but I cant figure out if something is really what I want or what I think I want. (Beautiful women, great tasting good, and now even drugs) If anyone else out there can relate to me...please do
I can totally relate. I have struggled with all this myself. Once I became convinced that most of the "meaning" of life was proposed by humans to comfort their death anxiety. So in dropping those old belief programs I was left with a certain amount of anxiety about who I am and what the purpose of life might be, since I'm going to die and most likely disappear and never be remembered or any of that soothing stuff.
It then becomes a war in a sense I guess. I'm not going to tell you what I do because I post about it in every post I make and I'm feeling lazy just now.
I will say this. You can create any meaning you like. This takes courage and clarity. If you have read Castaneda then re-read about "Having to Believe" the story of Carlos and Max the cat. It's all there.
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Re: nothings matters [Re: Icelander]
#7523028 - 10/16/07 12:50 PM (16 years, 3 months ago) |
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Exactly, nothing matters. You can do anything you want and live life to its absolute fullest because none of it matter. Your farther ahead on life than most people, and you don't even realize it.
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Re: nothings matters [Re: blewmeanie]
#7523090 - 10/16/07 01:04 PM (16 years, 3 months ago) |
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That's because GOD chooses 'his people' by 'his' will, haha  
(sorry, couldn't resist)
Edited by BlueCoyote (10/16/07 01:05 PM)
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onlynow
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stop masturbating for a couple months and see how you feel if it worked for me it may work for you.
to avoid pressure build up in lower areas, take long hikes in nature, do yoga, meditate, eat healthy, get the shit flowing through your heart and head. depression < bliss
add a whole-food multi-vitamin like Formula IV and other non-synthetic vitamins such as B-complex (Super B Threshold Control) and vitamin C (extracted from actual fruit not corn sugar), as well as salmon oil... find these here -
http://neo-life.com/
this brand of ginseng I am taking is simply amazing (a complex of 7 highly concentrated forms of ginseng with 5 support ingredients to optimize energy levels) -
http://www.nulifevitamins.com/productdetail/productdetail.asp?Product_Name=Energin
add some siberian ginseng to that regime
a few other effective ones IME -
deprenyl bacopa ashwagandha rhodiola rosea L-theanine taurine seaweed supplement (igem health)
most of these are very cheap if you order bulk..
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fake estate
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Re: nothings matters [Re: onlynow]
#7524077 - 10/16/07 04:15 PM (16 years, 3 months ago) |
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Ive been trying to do that more instead of sitting on the couch watching tv or playing video games..this past summer I got alot more interested in hiking, biking, exercising, and eating real food. I even started reading...a lot..meditating, and philosphizing with people i feel i can trust...
I guess ive started on the long road to 'recovery'...Ive even thought about getting anti depressants but thought thats just society's way to make you shut up about how you feel if you are unhappy...and besides I already am numb to almost everything..anyone had good experiences with any prescribed anti depressants?
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anyone had good experiences with any prescribed anti depressants?
No
I think you'll find this to be a very interesting and helpful read: http://www.antidepressantsfacts.com/before.htm
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   All this time I've loved you And never known your face All this time I've missed you And searched this human race Here is true peace Here my heart knows calm Safe in your soul Bathed in your sighs
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Recovery or discovery?! No anti-depressants needed. Anti-depress yourself! (express yourself)... Numbness is false, it's unconsciousness, it's allowing negativity to flourish. Un-numb yourself.
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onlynow
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fake estate said: and besides I already am numb to almost everything..anyone had good experiences with any prescribed anti depressants?
that stuff is poison.. DO NOT take them
they fucked up one of my good friends, now he suffers from a permanent head pressure.. he hasn't been able to heal it in years.
http://www.antidepressantsfacts.com/toxicity-brain-damage.htm
sick fucking world....
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