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searchalx
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Life is sucha dream
#7500043 - 10/08/07 11:48 PM (16 years, 3 months ago) |
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i hope some friendly people can help me, i have been so bored and just annoyed as of late, it seems as though nothing in this society interests me, i cant find a hobby that is worth living for, my love life is going down the drain, and i feel like a lot of my potential is being wasted because i have nowhere to express myself. and well, i just want to know how others keep excitement in their lives and find hope that there is somthing beautiful calling you that you just havent noticed yet
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Re: Life is sucha dream [Re: searchalx]
#7500097 - 10/09/07 12:12 AM (16 years, 3 months ago) |
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what is it that you want to express and don't know how?
that's basically what you're saying i think. it's not that you can't....you don't.
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Re: Life is sucha dream [Re: searchalx]
#7500173 - 10/09/07 12:41 AM (16 years, 3 months ago) |
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As they say, life is suffering...
What you need, my friend, is a mortgage, marriage, a couple satanic spawn, Jesus, and a bass boat...
I feel the same sort of way about things more than I'd like to admit. Lately the solace I find is pretty much directly proportional to the distance away from the nearest human I am. Mindshattering trips help me stay sane but further alienate me from the herd mind. Pain pills are also good if you can moderate. Good luck.
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Edited by Grok (10/09/07 01:00 AM)
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MushroomTrip
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Re: Life is sucha dream [Re: searchalx]
#7500391 - 10/09/07 03:21 AM (16 years, 3 months ago) |
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"I have nowhere to express myself" make it sound like you need a public. And this makes me wonder about your motivations... why do you think that you need any kind of support in order to express who you are? If you're looking for attention that can be easily understood, but it can also explain why you don't enjoy life as it comes. That is, you have an idea of what you would do, but you feel like you'll be judged, laughed at and avoided. As long as your happiness and your well being depends on others, you'll never be able to find your own meaning. Or feel good about life. So in my opinion, the problem is yours, stop looking and blaming the world around you.
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i didn't want to jump to that conclusion...because i wanted to give him the benefit of the doubt...and because people who think that way are inclined to respond negatively to your response.
but i do agree with you.
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Re: Life is sucha dream [Re: TameMe]
#7500732 - 10/09/07 07:51 AM (16 years, 3 months ago) |
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there is no need to set yourself up as an alien outsider there is no need to conform
do what you will and do it True by being honest your vibrations will shatter the shackles of others who are like you on the inside
by censoring yourself you will live in an imaginary hell that seems real employ the law of attraction pray visualize and create free your mind from its mundane thought processes which make comparisons and value judgments.
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Re: Life is sucha dream [Re: leery11]
#7500863 - 10/09/07 09:05 AM (16 years, 3 months ago) |
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To the OP, don't take life so seriously. Nothing in life is that serious, including life itself. Don't get caught up in self-pity. Seems like you might be depressed, and are experiencing anhedonia, meaning you don't take pleasure out of anything. Since this is the case, how about instead of doing things to try to find pleasure for yourself, you take this opportunity to do things to make pleasure for others? Then, you'll probably start seeing the positive side of things and begin feeling better.
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Re: Life is sucha dream [Re: searchalx]
#7500951 - 10/09/07 09:37 AM (16 years, 3 months ago) |
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searchalx said: i hope some friendly people can help me, i have been so bored and just annoyed as of late, it seems as though nothing in this society interests me, i cant find a hobby that is worth living for, my love life is going down the drain, and i feel like a lot of my potential is being wasted because i have nowhere to express myself. and well, i just want to know how others keep excitement in their lives and find hope that there is something beautiful calling you that you just haven't noticed yet
Hey this is supposed to be something that happens when you're my age.
About thirty some years back I was working in a lab in research and development and I felt something like you describe. I happened to come across a book called "The Complete Walker" . I made a decision to spend some time in the back country. I saved my money bought all my gear, quit my job and hit the road. I was scared for sure but it was the very very very best thing I ever did and took me far from my home never to return. And that's a good thing. I still head for the High Desert out here when I need some sanity.
-------------------- "Don't believe everything you think". -Anom. " All that lives was born to die"-Anom. With much wisdom comes much sorrow, The more knowledge, the more grief. Ecclesiastes circa 350 BC
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searchalx
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Quote:
MushroomTrip said: "I have nowhere to express myself" make it sound like you need a public. And this makes me wonder about your motivations... why do you think that you need any kind of support in order to express who you are? If you're looking for attention that can be easily understood, but it can also explain why you don't enjoy life as it comes. That is, you have an idea of what you would do, but you feel like you'll be judged, laughed at and avoided. As long as your happiness and your well being depends on others, you'll never be able to find your own meaning. Or feel good about life. So in my opinion, the problem is yours, stop looking and blaming the world around you.
well my social life is fine, its just the same old town, same people, nothing really new is coming to life, i mean, its the same old thing, I'm not a shy person, i just like, i need excitement and new things, and when things are always the same and i have the same insecurities, i become obsessive, like for instance, after surgery some of the medication made me break out, and its all gone now, but it left some little scars and it bugs the hell out of me, even tho they aren't bad, and i usually smoke pot, but I'm not trying to because i want the scars to heal normal, and i never want to even smoke right now in my life because i wouldn't be doing it for any reasons but ones that lead to addiction, I'm just like that kind of person, I'm a perfectionist and when i cant project that i don't sleep till i can, and its just not possible, like with my knee can't heal any faster, and same with trying to find a calling for myself that is not based on materials, it seems I'm just not finding it, but i want a calling, martial arts i am good at, i have trained since i was 6, and i compete in jiu jitsu and kick boxing and am very successful, but since this knee thing happened i realized how long am i gonna be able to rely on my body like that, i just want my calling based off my own mind and my own feelings, that i can use as fuel for dealing with tragedy and doubt
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Re: Life is sucha dream [Re: searchalx]
#7501589 - 10/09/07 01:05 PM (16 years, 3 months ago) |
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First of all, I didn't fully understood what was it that you were saying about not smoking pot and your scars getting healed. What does one thing has to do with another? What pleasures do you find in smoking, if any at all, cause from what you said here you see it more like a bad habit. Weed (and anything else that you choose to do) is to be enjoyed, not feel guilty about. It really looks like all your problems come from yourself, not from your surroundings. If you want to feel good, you can do it anywhere, because this well being comes from inside, from the way we perceive things, and if that is scrambled than chances are that you still won't feel fulfilled no matter where you are.  We all have the responsibility to work with ourselves and make our lives the way we want, the way that appeals the most to us. And until you won't decide to face your fears and insecurities, you'll keep looking for a "calling" because you think you'll find salvation in it. From my own observations and experience it just doesn't work that way. At the moment you put your expectations on something to happen and take you out of this routine. The fact is that you keep yourself there and only you can get you out.
None of us are educated in such a manner that guides us to personal freedom. So it takes a while until we become aware that we're on our own and that's the most efficient and satisfying way to live. We always expect "stuff" to happen to us and then when they don't we become more depressed. Or we can choose to stop this inertial hibernation and start to make things happen ourselves. Maybe it's the right time for you to make that choice.
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Re: Life is sucha dream [Re: searchalx]
#7501641 - 10/09/07 01:19 PM (16 years, 3 months ago) |
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searchalx said:
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MushroomTrip said: "I have nowhere to express myself" make it sound like you need a public. And this makes me wonder about your motivations... why do you think that you need any kind of support in order to express who you are? If you're looking for attention that can be easily understood, but it can also explain why you don't enjoy life as it comes. That is, you have an idea of what you would do, but you feel like you'll be judged, laughed at and avoided. As long as your happiness and your well being depends on others, you'll never be able to find your own meaning. Or feel good about life. So in my opinion, the problem is yours, stop looking and blaming the world around you.
well my social life is fine, its just the same old town, same people, nothing really new is coming to life, i mean, its the same old thing, I'm not a shy person, i just like, i need excitement and new things, and when things are always the same and i have the same insecurities, i become obsessive, like for instance, after surgery some of the medication made me break out, and its all gone now, but it left some little scars and it bugs the hell out of me, even tho they aren't bad, and i usually smoke pot, but I'm not trying to because i want the scars to heal normal, and i never want to even smoke right now in my life because i wouldn't be doing it for any reasons but ones that lead to addiction, I'm just like that kind of person, I'm a perfectionist and when i cant project that i don't sleep till i can, and its just not possible, like with my knee can't heal any faster, and same with trying to find a calling for myself that is not based on materials, it seems I'm just not finding it, but i want a calling, martial arts i am good at, i have trained since i was 6, and i compete in jiu jitsu and kick boxing and am very successful, but since this knee thing happened i realized how long am i gonna be able to rely on my body like that, i just want my calling based off my own mind and my own feelings, that i can use as fuel for dealing with tragedy and doubt
Life is just like that. No gurantees about anything. Things often go awry or change suddenly. If you really want the life you say then you will have to make most of it happen by your actions and take all the lumps and setbacks that go with risk. I think learning about i just want my calling based off my own mind and my own feelings, that i can use as fuel for dealing with tragedy and doubt will take lots of time (years and years most likely) and experience. I think it's the best goal though.
-------------------- "Don't believe everything you think". -Anom. " All that lives was born to die"-Anom. With much wisdom comes much sorrow, The more knowledge, the more grief. Ecclesiastes circa 350 BC
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searchalx
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MushroomTrip said: First of all, I didn't fully understood what was it that you were saying about not smoking pot and your scars getting healed. What does one thing has to do with another? What pleasures do you find in smoking, if any at all, cause from what you said here you see it more like a bad habit. Weed (and anything else that you choose to do) is to be enjoyed, not feel guilty about. It really looks like all your problems come from yourself, not from your surroundings. If you want to feel good, you can do it anywhere, because this well being comes from inside, from the way we perceive things, and if that is scrambled than chances are that you still won't feel fulfilled no matter where you are.  We all have the responsibility to work with ourselves and make our lives the way we want, the way that appeals the most to us. And until you won't decide to face your fears and insecurities, you'll keep looking for a "calling" because you think you'll find salvation in it. From my own observations and experience it just doesn't work that way. At the moment you put your expectations on something to happen and take you out of this routine. The fact is that you keep yourself there and only you can get you out.
None of us are educated in such a manner that guides us to personal freedom. So it takes a while until we become aware that we're on our own and that's the most efficient and satisfying way to live. We always expect "stuff" to happen to us and then when they don't we become more depressed. Or we can choose to stop this inertial hibernation and start to make things happen ourselves. Maybe it's the right time for you to make that choice.
because smoking makes your body give less oxygen to the skin, so in that make scars heal much slower and not to their full potential, smoking is a beautiful thing and i never feel bad about doing it unless im doing it to escape from my own misery, then it is a bad thing, there is sucha a thing as a addiction, for pot too.
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Re: Life is sucha dream [Re: searchalx]
#7501962 - 10/09/07 03:49 PM (16 years, 3 months ago) |
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but how does that relate to your original post.
what is it that you want to express and can't?
do you even know what you want to express?
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Re: Life is sucha dream [Re: TameMe]
#7502328 - 10/09/07 05:36 PM (16 years, 3 months ago) |
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Maybe this guy has the solution.
He lived there by himself for like 35 years
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Re: Life is sucha dream [Re: Grok]
#7502890 - 10/09/07 08:01 PM (16 years, 3 months ago) |
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I feel the same way all too often 
What is really helping me is to throw out all my expectations and presumptions. I'm making an effort to stop asking myself why or how. "If you want to swim so bad, stop standing at the end of the dock!" I tell myself.
Keep it simple and goodluck
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