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Peace said: i forgot to close and delete all this... but at this point i dont care. sorry to break it to everyone, but i had a very mind expanding trip that made me realize i had stop.... everything.. my life is incredibly better then ever now... i thought i was living the life before...but now i realize how delusional i was. I quit abusing marijuana. i quit smoking all together... i quit all drugs all together... im done, i opt out... not that i hate them or going 'straight edge' i just dont feel i am someone who needs them... and i dont feel they are necisary in my life . period. i will leave it to the medical patients and schizophrenics to use drugs cause they are the ones who truely need them, not guys like me who have no illness; but i sure had one developing from my havits - cancer, schizophrenia,..and a few other things. luckily i saw into the future and stopped many of these events from occuring.
synchronicity is a real thing.
I'm living my life now for the betterment of the world, just as i was before, but now im actually doing something about it. Full on, focusing, with no other things in the way, such as growing a few mushrooms or letting cannabis put me to sleep at random times... i no longer let drugs control me, i am my captain of my ship. I respect mushrooms for finally helping me realize that i truelly did need to clean up my act, and helping me realize alot of things that gandhi had said on my own....(i just read some of his quotes the other day and realized how similar every single one of his quotes were to my realizations...new morals, beliefs...and whatnot)
Be the change, and live every day like its your last, dont live for tomorrow or yesterday, live for the moment. My last trip sure helped me learn to not procrastinate anymore as well....my life is now MOVING IN A DIRECTION. A happy, harmonious and peacefull direction. I wont be able to trip on mushrooms again until the day i feel at peace with my world, country, system, people and planet. And seeing how mushrooms are held at the highest standards in my mind as a 'god' or 'alien' or 'higher force', i will be trying day by day by day, till world peace is achieved, and happiness is brought among everyone, and poverty has been relinquished. Respect the Manna. For they are an ancient key to universal knowledge - straight from the shroomtalk mag.
I no longer let drugs, money, porno, paranoia, ignorance, procrastination and lazyness control and take out portions of my day/life.
Peace to all you. I hope to continue posting on these forums, just not in the cultivation section.... people should not profit off of such a fragile delicacy such as psychedelic mushrooms....i myself was only doing it for personal consumtion, but either way, its evident that there are many who do it to make money.
Living life, peace!
wow, im sure hoping for a big trip like that...i need somethin to set me laziness and weed habits straight
hahaha wow what the hell i need that deleted..... i was still in a hysterical mind set from the trip...i really over did it and kinda gave to much info ... I have one thing to say though...it's been about a month now, since i tripped on the 6th of sept.. and finally i am actually built again (it's been like 3 years...), i can stick to a schedule and workout/get things done. Also have been (or was till recently started using THC again) dreaming allot, and in those dreams i have the crazzzyest trips...even if i smoke cannabis in my dreams its crazy...
i lied when i said i was done with 'drugs'. Technically pot is not a drug, . i need cannabis still, my insomnia is back...likkee mad. And after taking a 1 month break my tolerance went down and shits great now.
I don't always look out my window anymore, or watch cars go by, mentally/subconsciously accusing them all as undercover cops. I can actually relax, as much as i love psychedelics, i just don't think I will ever be meant for them until the day i'm at the perfect/right place at the right time... shambalhala hopefully will do the trick next summer.
NEver, have i had one good trip, NEVER, i'm highly sensitive to the outside realities, so the slightest doses of many substances easily take hold of me. I've tripped over 15 times, and i know thats nothing compared to many of you. Salvia, san pedro, mushrooms, DMT, salvia d. , LSD, 2C-E, Morning glory (LSA)...all have had different, positively life changing effects, but still VERY scary.
It's just not possible for me to have one simple godamned fucking GOOD trip. I'm pounding this keyboard...it honestly makes me mad...it's ridiculous. I can have good trips in my dreams (actually not with salvia ..still is bad in dreams) but not here. All i really care about though is how it changed me, good or bad trips.... Since my last trip, I don't care about anything except this fucking planet and its inhabitants. I think that may have been the final 'stage', now that I'm not doing anything iligal, feel naturally happy, no more paranoia, and don't feel watched..... and have this deep connection with earth... my next trip should be...the perfect...trip.
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