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Invisibleblkjkrabbit

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lonely and losing hope...
    #7471593 - 09/30/07 07:47 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

I can't really describe why I feel so lonely lately. I moved away from all my family and friends to a small christian town for school and work. I thought I could handle moving away from everything and that I'd manage the transition just fine - but it's been a few months now and I've only hung out with a handful of people from school - but I don't know these people. We're friends on the surface but we only talk about really topical shit - and the only reason we hang out is we smoke bud and I haven't got any connections. I'm sliding into depression [or maybe I'm already there] and find myself dwelling on suicide a few times a day now. Everyday feels like exactly the same routine and I'm the only one who can't wait for the weekend to be over. Yesterday I went to this kids birthday party with some of my family and never said a word to anyone for an hour, I felt like a fucking statue - I knew none of them and didn't feel like approaching people talking about football and babies and middle aged shit - I felt completely alone in a completely crammed room. Now I have it in my head to move back home for spring semester but am not really sure why I should, I had a lot of "friends" and only a few true friends. If I moved back most of my "friends" have already let it be known they don't want to move out of their parents house because they're too pathetic to put down for rent, or are already in some other arrangement - basically I know I'll end up more alone than I already am by just renting a single apartment and smoking myself to sleep everynight. Many of my best friends I almost never see anymore even when I'm home. I haven't even had a fucking girlfriend, I've been intimate [briefly] with a few girls [all of them sober, except once] but came to realize later that I was being used as some instrument of jealousy for the dickhead they were seeing. Worse for me is that the only girl I want moved away a year ago and I still haven't let it drop. I can either stay here and be alone for a year with the likelihood of suicide or complete breakdown growing everyday, or go home and try to reestablish some network of friends and family. I don't know how to deal with this anymore..I've been entirely too sad for too long. I turn to drugs [especially pot] just to numb it so I can get through each day. I feel like no one cares about me and that if I slammed into a median no one would even notice...:sad::sad::sad:


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Re: lonely and losing hope... [Re: blkjkrabbit]
    #7471609 - 09/30/07 07:51 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

the one thing i would tell you is if the thoughts of suicide are really in your head i would go home and try to go to a school closer to home


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Re: lonely and losing hope... [Re: blkjkrabbit]
    #7471618 - 09/30/07 07:52 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

Hey I made a post like this a few days ago. I feel you. It takes great amounts of time to create true friends. And it is a lot easier when you are younger I think. All my "friends" here I just get fucked up with and never really have in depth convos. Just keep on truckin' things will get better. I am still in the midst of a depression. I just quit smokin cigs which honestly may of helped a bit.


School is worth sticking to if you can. I am still lookin for those few people I can really connect with because honestly, i do not want to live with the 3 guys I am living with now.


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Re: lonely and losing hope... [Re: ajdaak]
    #7471620 - 09/30/07 07:53 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

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ajdaak said:
the one thing i would tell you is if the thoughts of suicide are really in your head i would go home and try to go to a school closer to home




that's what I was planning on doing but I figured my situation would only change on the surface. I'd have a lot of familiar faces nearby but a lot of my friends are getting married and being the only bachelor left is getting really discouraging. I think I'm gonna go home I just don't if it will help :confused:


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Re: lonely and losing hope... [Re: blkjkrabbit]
    #7471621 - 09/30/07 07:53 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

LIft up your face. Keep it up, take a nice shower and smile, come back out and look into the mirror, you are okay.


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Re: lonely and losing hope... [Re: ajdaak]
    #7471623 - 09/30/07 07:54 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

Dude, suicide is definatly not your answer. If its that bad go back to where your happy. Im sure your family would understand.


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Re: lonely and losing hope... [Re: TruuBeeezzy]
    #7471632 - 09/30/07 07:55 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

Yea man its like a brand new start moving somewhere else. Many people do it and come out great. so can you.


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Re: lonely and losing hope... [Re: Tangerines]
    #7471638 - 09/30/07 07:56 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

Find a new hobbie or two.

Thats always the way I've see fun happen.

If not, start a new routine. Find some girlies...put yourself out there.

Find something to hold on to, dont let it be drugs.


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Re: lonely and losing hope... [Re: Tangerines]
    #7471642 - 09/30/07 07:57 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

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Tangerines said:
Hey I made a post like this a few days ago. I feel you. It takes great amounts of time to create true friends. And it is a lot easier when you are younger I think. All my "friends" here I just get fucked up with and never really have in depth convos. Just keep on truckin' things will get better. I am still in the midst of a depression. I just quit smokin cigs which honestly may of helped a bit.


School is worth sticking to if you can. I am still lookin for those few people I can really connect with because honestly, i do not want to live with the 3 guys I am living with now.




That's exactly how I feel. I have those situational friends that seem to be nothing more than familiar faces with no stories behind them. The only real friends I have I can count on less than one hand I think - but even they aren't really there for you. I quit smoking a week ago too that definitely helped but sometimes I get these anxiety attacks and get huge cravings to get a pack and take off the edge. I know that patience is important in things like this but honestly I've just felt so alone for so long now I'm not sure when I'll get out of this ugly rut


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Re: lonely and losing hope... [Re: blkjkrabbit]
    #7471650 - 09/30/07 07:59 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

whaa whaaa and triple whaaa.. I have been lonely for so long too so what? Atleast you are not in prison or jail like some of my friends are...:lol:


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Re: lonely and losing hope... [Re: Alion]
    #7471662 - 09/30/07 08:00 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

Sounds harsh but the best advice, I think, (because the same thing happened to me, minus suicide thoughts) is:

Dont be a victim and feel sorry for yourself b/c it gets nothing accomplished

You have the power to change your life

You're the only one who can change your life

If it's that bad, move to somewhere where you'll be happy.

You have to do whatever you can to make yourself happy, whatever matters to you and you alone

And in my opinion suicide is a waste. Life is too fun and has too much potential to throw it away over some bad period in your life. Like I said, you have the power to make it better, no one else.

Good luck


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Re: lonely and losing hope... [Re: Skunk420]
    #7471663 - 09/30/07 08:00 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

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whaa whaaa and triple whaaa.. I have been lonely for so long too so what? Atleast you are not in prison or jail like some of my friends are...:lol:




I don't think that is the right way to talk to someone with honest thoughts of suicide.


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Re: lonely and losing hope... [Re: Alion]
    #7471669 - 09/30/07 08:02 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

the words of encouragement mean mountains to me right now guys thank you all. i haven't really got anyone i can talk to about this. i think the hardest thing is trying to keep up this image of having everything together, like i'm productive and a good person and shit but deep down i couldn't feel less happy with my life. this might sound kind of corny but i think the only reason i keep on with life is for my mom. if i knew that taking my life wouldn't kill her spirit i'd have done it already - but i love her more than anything and wouldn't hurt her no matter how much i hurt - it's just too selfish. anyways - this has been good venting with you all and it's amazing what a little reassurance can do. thanks everyone


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Re: lonely and losing hope... [Re: blkjkrabbit]
    #7471672 - 09/30/07 08:02 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

but i know its hard being away from everyone you care about i would say try to stay in school and try different ways to meet new people but if you do get to the point that you are really planning on offing yourself school is not worth your life and even if your friends are all getting hitched they will still be there for you


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Re: lonely and losing hope... [Re: blkjkrabbit]
    #7471673 - 09/30/07 08:03 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

Man im sorry but thats pretty emo. Man up dude. Get some porn and jerk it or something if your lonely what you need other people for anyways screw em I say! Quit your pity party.


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Re: lonely and losing hope... [Re: Alion]
    #7471675 - 09/30/07 08:03 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

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Find something to hold on to, dont let it be drugs.




I think that's my problem right there. Thank you alion!


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Re: lonely and losing hope... [Re: blkjkrabbit]
    #7471676 - 09/30/07 08:03 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

Get a glass of water, and sit with us for a while.


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Re: lonely and losing hope... [Re: blkjkrabbit]
    #7471681 - 09/30/07 08:05 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

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i haven't really got anyone i can talk to about this. i think the hardest thing is trying to keep up this image of having everything together, like i'm productive and a good person and shit but deep down i couldn't feel less happy with my life.




Same, many of my friends here just coast through life with a blind eye. I don't. And If I try to talk to some of them about shit like this it just does not work and they do not understand. I would get sarcastic answers that are no help so yea that is why I too used the shroomery as a entity to bounce my thoughts off of and get feedback.


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Re: lonely and losing hope... [Re: Alion]
    #7471683 - 09/30/07 08:05 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

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Get a glass of water, and sit with us for a while.




can do. i've got nothing else to do haha :rolleyes:


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Re: lonely and losing hope... [Re: blkjkrabbit]
    #7471698 - 09/30/07 08:09 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

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the words of encouragement mean mountains to me right now guys thank you all. i haven't really got anyone i can talk to about this. i think the hardest thing is trying to keep up this image of having everything together, like i'm productive and a good person and shit but deep down i couldn't feel less happy with my life. this might sound kind of corny but i think the only reason i keep on with life is for my mom. if i knew that taking my life wouldn't kill her spirit i'd have done it already - but i love her more than anything and wouldn't hurt her no matter how much i hurt - it's just too selfish. anyways - this has been good venting with you all and it's amazing what a little reassurance can do. thanks everyone




answer me this: what are you unhappy about in your life? like, specifically.

answer that, THEN, figure out what it would take to remedy those specific bouts of unhappiness. if it seems like too much work to you, then fine, take your life, you'll never get out of this rut. but if you can ball up, take a second or two to really put some perspective into things (like the fact that you are in school, you HAVE a family, and the possibilities of a social life) then you'd understand that you should not be thinking the way you are. Some people don't even a tenth of the things you got going for you, and somehow, they manage to keep chugging along day after day.

stop making yourself the victim, stop being lazy about changing things around. go out there and make things happen, don't be part of this victim hood society that we live in today.


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Re: lonely and losing hope... [Re: Syle]
    #7471730 - 09/30/07 08:15 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

Get a hobby or a few you enjoy. Plan trips. Do things. Have fun. Why would you even consider killing yourself. That's such a waste. Think of how good you got it.

At least you aren't living in a mountain of trash in africa drinking out of a river that some kid upstream just took a liquid-like dump in. You have luxury and freedom to do whatever the hell you want so take advantage of that.


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So when you're ridin' through the ruts,
Don't you complicate your mind.

Flee from hate, mischief and jealousy
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Put your vision to reality, yeah!


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Re: lonely and losing hope... [Re: Tangerines]
    #7471731 - 09/30/07 08:15 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

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Tangerines said:
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blkjkrabbit said:
i haven't really got anyone i can talk to about this. i think the hardest thing is trying to keep up this image of having everything together, like i'm productive and a good person and shit but deep down i couldn't feel less happy with my life.




Same, many of my friends here just coast through life with a blind eye. I don't. And If I try to talk to some of them about shit like this it just does not work and they do not understand. I would get sarcastic answers that are no help so yea that is why I too used the shroomery as a entity to bounce my thoughts off of and get feedback.




I know exactly what you mean. I've let go of friends who couldn't let go of their egos. I'm sick of not being able to have conversations with substance anymore and to hell with "friends" with smart ass remarks. I've been told all through my life that my friends would move on and I would have too at some point too - I just didn't think I'd be the one who left. I don't know...this is sort of an incoherent post but yeah, friends are an interesting phenomenon.


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Re: lonely and losing hope... [Re: VisionsToReality]
    #7471738 - 09/30/07 08:17 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

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At least you aren't living in a mountain of trash in africa drinking out of a river that some kid upstream just took a liquid-like dump in.  You have luxury and freedom to do whatever the hell you want so take advantage of that.




you may have burst my sides with that one that is some funny stuff haha.  I know things aren't as bad as they seem but sometimes it's hard to see the good when all I do is dwell on the bad. Tomorrow's a new month maybe I can make a new me :yesnod:


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Re: lonely and losing hope... [Re: blkjkrabbit]
    #7471775 - 09/30/07 08:26 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

Hey, it is true ya know.  People actually do live on mountains of trash and drink in rivers where people shit upstream. :thumbdown:


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Re: lonely and losing hope... [Re: blkjkrabbit]
    #7471778 - 09/30/07 08:26 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

Hm. I can empathize with your post. I went off to college and things just didn't click. I really didn't meet many people and I didn't have fun. It doesn't help that I was really anti-social. I left after two years.

Then I came back home hoping to just chill with friends like the old days. But, most of the people I knew had left and the ones who had stayed had become drug addicts and such.

I would really suggest moving to a city. A real city. There are tons of people and there is tons of stuff to do. Young single people should all move to the city. Don't stay in your hometown....trust me. If I had done that I would have just died. You need to get out and start living life. If you're unhappy then do something.

Easier said than done though. Do as I say, don't do as I do.


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Re: lonely and losing hope... [Re: RandalFlagg]
    #7471799 - 09/30/07 08:29 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

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I would really suggest moving to a city. A real city. There are tons of people and there is tons of stuff to do. Young single people should all move to the city.




I moved to a big city and yea its like take your high school and multiply it by 1000. You get the city so there are more people like you and more people unlike you. It can be intimidating living in a large city though(as I know) as there are just mass amounts of people and you feel like a little bug going un noticed.


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Re: lonely and losing hope... [Re: blkjkrabbit]
    #7471800 - 09/30/07 08:29 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

The best thing to realize right now is that all that you're feeling is only temporary and situational. They will pass, like everything else in life. You're having a hard time transitioning. Is there anything cool about that school that you can focus on?

If you're having a hard time transitioning to a small town christian school, a transition to a fast city with no degree may not be the answer...at least for now. You will have a better time moving to a big city with people like you AFTER you get your degree and know at least what field you want to go. Once you know what you want to do, you'll find that people who are like you have flocked to those jobs as well. Those people will become your friends. But I have to tell you, if you're looking for friends like you had in the "good old days", they may never show up. You'll have different kinds of friends. Just find a way to not take everything so seriously. You'll see, life works in mysterious ways. Keep your head up, and don't make any rash decisions while you're depressed. You're not thinking clearly obviously. Be patient with yourself and hang in there.


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Re: lonely and losing hope... [Re: DrCamacho89]
    #7471812 - 09/30/07 08:33 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

Hey Dr. Camacho! Glad to see you're wasting time in the Pub again.


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    #7471831 - 09/30/07 08:36 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

The Eagles are getting killed. I can't shut it off, but don't want to pay attention. It's good to be back Randall.


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Re: lonely and losing hope... [Re: RandalFlagg]
    #7471833 - 09/30/07 08:36 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

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Hm.  I can empathize with your post.  I went off to college and things just didn't click.  I really didn't meet many people and I didn't have fun.  It doesn't help that I was really anti-social.  I left after two years.

Then I came back home hoping to just chill with friends like the old days.  But, most of the people I knew had left and the ones who had stayed had become drug addicts and such. 

I would really suggest moving to a city.  A real city.  There are tons of people and there is tons of stuff to do.  Young single people should all move to the city.  Don't stay in your hometown....trust me.  If I had done that I would have just died.  You need to get out and start living life.  If you're unhappy then do something. 

Easier said than done though.  Do as I say, don't do as I do.




That's some really interesting advice. Is it any coincidence my favorite city I'd live in is the suicide capitol? [Seattle]. Weird :crazy2: I do like that idea though I never thought of that - you really "answered" my original post pretty well because I don't like where I'm at, but don't want to go where I've been. I'm at a dead end right now because I'm leaving this town at the end of fall semester but don't want to go to my home town because my friends are just not the same anymore. Anyways, definitely some good advice thanks randal


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Re: lonely and losing hope... [Re: DrCamacho89]
    #7471861 - 09/30/07 08:41 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

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The best thing to realize right now is that all that you're feeling is only temporary and situational. They will pass, like everything else in life. You're having a hard time transitioning. Is there anything cool about that school that you can focus on?

If you're having a hard time transitioning to a small town christian school, a transition to a fast city with no degree may not be the answer...at least for now. You will have a better time moving to a big city with people like you AFTER you get your degree and know at least what field you want to go. Once you know what you want to do, you'll find that people who are like you have flocked to those jobs as well. Those people will become your friends. But I have to tell you, if you're looking for friends like you had in the "good old days", they may never show up. You'll have different kinds of friends. Just find a way to not take everything so seriously. You'll see, life works in mysterious ways. Keep your head up, and don't make any rash decisions while you're depressed. You're not thinking clearly obviously. Be patient with yourself and hang in there.




I think you see what I was talking about. I guess the good old days will only exist in memory now and even though I kind of came to terms with that when I moved away I'm still trying to force those days to happen again. I haven't really checked out my school yet I'm in a technical trade at a community college which is not a very good environment for setting up new friendships - especially for a newbie to the area. But you have put a lot of things in perspective so I definitely appreciate the advice. Thanks Doc!


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Re: lonely and losing hope... [Re: VisionsToReality]
    #7471896 - 09/30/07 08:47 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

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Hey, it is true ya know.  People actually do live on mountains of trash and drink in rivers where people shit upstream. :thumbdown:




it's fucked up i know but it does give kind of a funny visual. life is like that. i remember hearing somewhere that 'humor is only tragedy with time'


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Re: lonely and losing hope... [Re: blkjkrabbit]
    #7471910 - 09/30/07 08:50 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

I can think of various times in my life that were just divine like when I was young and had friends come over to run through the woods. Or when I started hanging out at a friend's house whose older brothers had a skateboard ramp and we ran around skateboarding, playing hockey, and blowing stuff up with homemade bombs. Or when I moved to that one neighborhood near my high school and hung out with new friends and we smoked weed, listened to punk rock, skateboarded in my back yard on my ramp, and raised hell that one summer.

I totally understand the desire to relive the old days with certain friends and social groups. But, those days are gone. There's no point in living in the past. Times like that just happen on their own and you can't force them. Those people have moved on and so have you. There is nothing more pathetic than somebody trying to recapture stuff like that by force.

You need to forge your own way in the world.


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Re: lonely and losing hope... [Re: DrCamacho89]
    #7471912 - 09/30/07 08:50 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

i feel your pain on a different level man. i've got a good few true friends and plenty of aquaintances(sp?) that i just didnt click with right away to call them true friends. Anyway as everyone i have a few things in my life that sometimes really get to me, mostly late at night.

Tonight was one such night, and after talking a good bit to one of my newest friends, she gave the advice of writing down all my thoughts that i was talking to her about tonight and look at them again in the morning through a new perspective. Now usually i'm not one for writing those sort of thoughts down, but to do her the favour i was going to give it a shot. When i sat down to write out my thoughts (i was talking to her on the way home so i had no paper til i had calmed down a little) I just remembered one of them "i feel lost".

Since that horrible feeling a few hours ago and after writing it down, i feel completely refreshed and even think i have sorted out my problem and decided a new approach, viewing my problem from a different angle. Now i dunno if it had anything to do with writing it out or if it was just coincidence or whatnot, but sure if you feel up for it, try giving it a shot.


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Re: lonely and losing hope... [Re: RandalFlagg]
    #7471918 - 09/30/07 08:52 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

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I can think of various times in my life that were just divine like when I was young and had friends come over to run through the woods. Or when I started hanging out at a friend's house whose older brothers had a skateboard ramp and we ran around skateboarding, playing hockey, and blowing stuff up with homemade bombs. Or when I moved to that one neighborhood near my high school and hung out with new friends and we smoked weed, listened to punk rock, skateboarded in my back yard on my ramp, and raised hell that one summer.

I totally understand the desire to relive the old days with certain friends and social groups. But, those days are gone. There's no point in living in the past. Times like that just happen on their own and you can't force them. Those people have moved on and so have you. There is nothing more pathetic than somebody trying to recapture stuff like that by force.

You need to forge your own way in the world.




you sir are a prophet. That actually made much sense to me. Thanks Randal


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Re: lonely and losing hope... [Re: Tangerines]
    #7471948 - 09/30/07 08:58 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

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RandalFlagg said:
I can think of various times in my life that were just divine like when I was young and had friends come over to run through the woods.  Or when I started hanging out at a friend's house whose older brothers had a skateboard ramp and we ran around skateboarding, playing hockey, and blowing stuff up with homemade bombs.  Or when I moved to that one neighborhood near my high school and hung out with new friends and we smoked weed, listened to punk rock, skateboarded in my back yard on my ramp, and raised hell that one summer. 

I totally understand the desire to relive the old days with certain friends and social groups.  But, those days are gone.  There's no point in living in the past.  Times like that just happen on their own and you can't force them.  Those people have moved on and so have you.  There is nothing more pathetic than somebody trying to recapture stuff like that by force.

You need to forge your own way in the world.




you sir are a prophet.  That actually made much sense to me. Thanks Randal




x2 - that captured a lot of my thoughts exactly.

sapphire - i know just what you're sayin and i've noticed that writing it down helps to clarify just what the hell i'm thinkin. this thread is definitely shedding a lot of light on why i've been feeling like shit lately and it's definitely helping me for the better :thumbup:


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Re: lonely and losing hope... [Re: blkjkrabbit]
    #7472070 - 09/30/07 09:31 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

Kill yourself then


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Re: lonely and losing hope... [Re: blkjkrabbit]
    #7472217 - 09/30/07 10:16 PM (16 years, 4 months ago)

All I know is wherever you go, there are cool people to be found.

How many of them you get to know depends only on you. You have to talk to more strangers. It's hard, but suffering is harder. I suck at it but I am getting better.


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