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TeKn0
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Downward spiral...
#7454517 - 09/26/07 05:54 AM (16 years, 4 months ago) |
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So... Within the last 3 weeks I have broken up with my girlfriend of 3 years who is also the mother of my 10 month old child, she was cheating on me with her ex while I was away at work.
Since then I have been having sex with random girls I've met (Sometimes even without a condom), I started smoking, I've been doing every drug put in front of me. I was suppose to leave town for work again and borrowed 1000.00 from a loan shark so I could make my bills before I left, only to find out the day before I leave, it was called off.
Now I'm gonna lose my place, I have thousands of dollars in unpaid bills, and my ex is doing nothing but lying and making my life that much more stressful, calling me a loser and a deadbeat dad, telling me that her ex has done more for my son than I ever have. Every time I go to see my son, she starts going off at me trying to justify what she has done, and now I just can't handle being around her.
I seriously feel like I'm at my wits end, I have no other options anymore. I need to make 3000.00 in about 5 days to save my house, and my only options are very illegitimate. I honestly have no idea what to do, or where to go. I thought I met my soul-mate, I had a child with her cause I thought we would be together always.
Now somehow I've been made out to be the bad guy, I'm apparently the one who made her do all this, and it's my fault she screwed her ex (without a condom).
I guess I'm just venting, but if anyone has been in any type of similar situation, please post some strategies on how you got through it.
I don't see myself going on much longer feeling the way I do, my dreams are plagued with nightmarish realities, and I usually wake up with an anxiety attack.
I feel dead on the inside, I don't care about anything anymore, and that worries me.
Thanks for reading... TeKn0 (theTehK)
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arago
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Re: Downward spiral... [Re: TeKn0]
#7455198 - 09/26/07 10:35 AM (16 years, 4 months ago) |
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Woah, sounds like some serious issues being expressed. With your girlfriend dumping on you, and serious money issues at hand, have you ever thought of just starting over? Slip off to another town, hang out with a buddy 'til you get established? I'd go nuts with all that negativity surrounding me. I'd try to make a quick break from it.
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Re: Downward spiral... [Re: TeKn0]
#7455226 - 09/26/07 10:42 AM (16 years, 4 months ago) |
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Well, I was in the same boat 2 months ago. Girlfriend of three years, the cheating, except no kid.
I moved to a different city, and left all that shit behind. I feel a whole hell of a lot better rebuilding my life without the ex, and having all my old friends around.
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Fraggin
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Re: Downward spiral... [Re: TeKn0]
#7455915 - 09/26/07 02:17 PM (16 years, 4 months ago) |
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Quote:
TeKn0 said:
broken up ....girlfriend .... 10 month old child .....cheating .... ex.... work..... ....sex ...random girls .....started smoking .... every drug...... borrowed...... loan shark..... bills..... gonna lose my place ..... unpaid bills..... lying.... ..life.. ...stressful... ....loser.. ...deadbeat dad.. ....her ex... ..son.... ...I go to see my son.... .....going off... ..justify.... ....can't handle...... .... seriously.... feel.... wits..... end ....no... options. .....save.. .house.. ..options... ...illegitimate..... ...honestly.. .idea... ..to do.. .to go.... ...thought... ..soul-mate.. ..child. .thought... .together... ..always. somehow.. bad... . guy.. .fault....... venting.. ..similar situation... please post some strategies on how you got through it.
I don't see myself going on much longer feeling the way I do, my dreams are plagued with nightmarish realities, and I usually wake up with an anxiety attack.
I feel dead ..... I don't care..... anymore...worries....
Thanks for reading... TeKn0 (theTehK)
Rule 1. Never sign over rights to your child.. ever, ever... Secondly, demand a paternity test, make sure the child is yours.... If it's not, walk away ... If it is, see rule 1... Get your life started elsewhere before it falls apart..... Expect to give up half your pay for the next 18 years unless you can get sole custody... And if you wanna go that route, you're going to have the make yourself look golden and the wife look like a crack whore piss addict. You got dealt a shitty hand by life, however, life isn't designed to be easy... It's the shit that gives our souls momentum to escape this desolate rock of suffering when we die.... Look on the bright side.... You haven't killed anyone yet, you're not in prison, you didn't off yourself ..... You still have legs, you're not in a wheel chair... you may not have AIDS.... yet.... Sounds like a situation to walk away from... My advice in conclusion would be to get your shit together, and expect the mother to do everything she can to get all that she can from you.... And remember, it is possible to turn your life around in less than 365 days.
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Re: Downward spiral... [Re: Fraggin]
#7456324 - 09/26/07 04:13 PM (16 years, 4 months ago) |
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I'm very sorry. That really put things in perspective for me. I don't really have any serious problems. Sorry I can't help. Other people seem to be saying stuff that makes sense.
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Booby
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Re: Downward spiral... [Re: TeKn0]
#7458776 - 09/27/07 04:18 AM (16 years, 4 months ago) |
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Consider an ad in the newspaper renting out every room in your house. Demand first/last& deposit. You'll get your $3,000 and have a lot of fun dealing with all the whacko's.
Recently somebody installed the electric meter upside down to get it to run backwards. If such a thing is possible, it's a wonder they're not made with three prongs to stop that.
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Re: Downward spiral... [Re: Fraggin]
#7459998 - 09/27/07 11:47 AM (16 years, 4 months ago) |
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Rule 1. Never sign over rights to your child.. ever, ever... Secondly, demand a paternity test, make sure the child is yours.... If it's not, walk away ... If it is, see rule 1... Get your life started elsewhere before it falls apart..... Expect to give up half your pay for the next 18 years unless you can get sole custody... And if you wanna go that route, you're going to have the make yourself look golden and the wife look like a crack whore piss addict. You got dealt a shitty hand by life, however, life isn't designed to be easy... It's the shit that gives our souls momentum to escape this desolate rock of suffering when we die.... Look on the bright side.... You haven't killed anyone yet, you're not in prison, you didn't off yourself ..... You still have legs, you're not in a wheel chair... you may not have AIDS.... yet.... Sounds like a situation to walk away from... My advice in conclusion would be to get your shit together, and expect the mother to do everything she can to get all that she can from you.... And remember, it is possible to turn your life around in less than 365 days.
Fucking great advice.
-------------------- "Don't believe everything you think". -Anom. " All that lives was born to die"-Anom. With much wisdom comes much sorrow, The more knowledge, the more grief. Ecclesiastes circa 350 BC
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